Wanting people to fear you

Give up on washing? No way. I would still need their money.

JustCold wrote:Give up on washing? No way. I would still need their money.

Tell them you need the money for some soap.

JustCold wrote:I only show my true personality to my family because I want them to fear me. I tell them that I think of killing them and other random people, then they get scared and I love it. And I want my psychiatrist to be afraid of me too. I guess. I'm not afraid of keeping the truth from her anymore.

Do you gus ever feel this way?

Why do you want your family and psychiatrist in particular to fear you? Why not people in general?

They're the most convenient, I guess. If I started talking about killing and all that stuff to my friends or other people they wouldn't take me seriously. The persona that I slip into around them is one whom is quiet, innocent and overall nice. They wouldn't fear me; just avoid me which is bad since I still need to use them.

My family and psychiatrist are stuck with me, and they can't avoid me since it's their job to listen to whatever I want to say to them. Right now though I just want to see what they will do when I tell them everything, and if they would honestly react at all.

JustCold wrote:Right now though I just want to see what they will do when I tell them everything, and if they would honestly react at all.

Why would you tell them anything? What would be the point? The only good it will do you is get you some attention. If they don't believe you, it'll be short lived and they'll think you're crazier. If they do believe you, you just screwed up a perfectly good persona.

I believe, it's called Narcissism.

kanin wrote:

JustCold wrote:Right now though I just want to see what they will do when I tell them everything, and if they would honestly react at all.

Why would you tell them anything? What would be the point? The only good it will do you is get you some attention. If they don't believe you, it'll be short lived and they'll think you're crazier. If they do believe you, you just screwed up a perfectly good persona.

Good points.

Well I thought it was just plain boredom. It seems like learning the piano, or running laps doesn't satisfy me. I'm quite bored, that's all.

This doesn't make me a narcissist, does it? That's the last thing I want to be.

JustCold wrote:Well I thought it was just plain boredom. It seems like learning the piano, or running laps doesn't satisfy me. I'm quite bored, that's all.

So you're going to destroy the very thing that lets you be bored in peace. The only reason I would even consider telling anyone is that the people I mess with by being honest, I know I have nothing to lose. When you can say that in all certainty, try again.

Being an addict would be better choice than the one you're making since it's your family and you'll probably have to deal with them the rest of your life.

Oh quit the attention seeking. What a useless bag of skin and bones you present yourself to be with your carry-on about little stories of killing your parents.

"I guess. I'm not afraid of keeping the truth from her anymore." Liar! If you've been afraid of 'keeping the truth' you are not anti-social. An anti-social lives for their own benefit. The emotions of fear are rarely (if ever) present. They certainly will lie and put up a facet if it suits the situation, however an anti-social has little regard for the feelings or safety of others. You show otherwise.

"Give up on washing? No way. I would still need their money." You might want to re-read the diagnostic criteria for ASPD particularly impulsivity or failure to plan ahead. Try again, and try not to make yourself so fake next time. Looking to instill fear?

You're hopeless at it!