Narcissism..

You're not a narcissist, Reaper?

Reaper wrote:I wouldn't call a coping mechanism roleplay because that's not what it is. It's a defense mechanism built to protect their ego.

Narcissists don't want to be liked for their true selves because their true self is insecure and fragile. They want to be liked for what they perceive to be their true selves, which is the defense mechanism they created to protect that fragility.

Ah yes, now THAT makes sense.. At least insofar as it's believable.. Now I'm wondering what it would take to make one of these people self-aware..

If I really am mentally ill, then it's probably something I should know..

vcrpamphlet wrote:You're not a narcissist, Reaper?

The narcissism I'm talking about relates to narcissistic personality disorder. I don't have NPD.

Of course, I'm not denying that I'm probably more narcissistic than the average person, but not to the extent that someone with NPD is. I don't have an excessive need for admiration, or any real need for it really, and I might like to brag and boast at times, but I mostly only do that because I know it gets a reaction out of people, which amuses me. I am proud of the things I've done too though, so why not share them.

Reaper wrote:I am proud of the things I've done too though, so why not share them.

For that recognition.

..Is that where it ends?

EllaBlack wrote:

Reaper wrote:I am proud of the things I've done too though, so why not share them.

For that recognition.

..Is that where it ends?

Yes, generally. Unless it turns into an argument of course.

People always trying to start shlt for no good reason.

Arguing is fun for you though.. It's a rush, right?

I find conflict exhilarating at times.

Reaper wrote:

vcrpamphlet wrote:You're not a narcissist, Reaper?

The narcissism I'm talking about relates to narcissistic personality disorder. I don't have NPD.

Of course, I'm not denying that I'm probably more narcissistic than the average person, but not to the extent that someone with NPD is. I don't have an excessive need for admiration, or any real need for it really, and I might like to brag and boast at times, but I mostly only do that because I know it gets a reaction out of people, which amuses me. I am proud of the things I've done too though, so why not share them.

You don't come across like an NPD, but you're a delightful narcissist so it's weird seeing you talk about narcissism like it's nothing to do with you.

EllaBlack wrote:Arguing is fun for you though.. It's a rush, right?

It certainly can be fun. It isn't always though. It depends on what started it and whether or not I'm in the mood for a good fight. Some people go on and on about the same shlt with me and I just want to put a fuking bullet in their head and be done with it.

It's not arguing that gives me a rush, it's anger. Anger can feel fuking great, like a high. It makes me feel alive. Again, not always though. For example, when I'm tired I get pissed off easy because all I want to do is sleep. I don't enjoy that anger.

Narcissists are ashamed because they despise weakness.. Fair to say? Explains the lack of consideration for others, at least partly.. It also must have to do with others being seen as competition.

EllaBlack wrote:Narcissists are ashamed because they despise weakness.. Fair to say? Explains the lack of consideration for others.

They despise the weakness in themselves. Anyone who reminds them of that weakness will be despised just as much.

Just to be clear, not everyone who despises weakness in others despises it for the same reason as someone with NPD does, or in general really. Different people have different reasons.