What does your inner voice say?

Yeah, probably stay off the heroin. My inner dialogue is usually pretty absurd. It’s been pretty dark lately actually, like I’ll run you off the road and face fuk your dead corpse you stupid bitch. Just basic shlt like that, sometimes I’ll catch on to a new word or phrase that is catchy and think about the most ridiculous ways to use it in a conversation.

Can’t really answer this as I only really internally verbalise when I’m thinking about using language or trying to memorise something linguistic.

I think this has more to do with cognitive style than anything sinister. I visualise and simulate a lot, none of which really lends itself to verbal cognition.

ZeroZ wrote:My inner dialogue is usually pretty absurd. It’s been pretty dark lately actually, like I’ll run you off the road and face fuk your dead corpse you stupid bitch. Just basic shlt like that

I see what you mean now by inner dialogue. I tend to visualize what I want to do rather than verbalize it in my head. I do verbalize in my head what I'm typing on this forum though as I'm typing it down. I mustn't think about it much at the time though because I tend to edit a lot after I post whatever comment I was making. It's a repeat process - comment, post, edit - which annoys me to no end. I don't know why I can't stop and think to edit before I post. I can on the odd occasion, but those occasions are far and few between.

Anyway, I'm getting off track here.

I suppose another form of inner dialogue is when someone is telling me something they expect me to care about and in my head I'm thinking, I really don't give a shlt, but then I put on a little act for them and everything's good with the world. Meanwhile, I just want them to piss off.

I get called selfish, yet everyone expects me to care about their fuking issues and gets annoyed with me if I don't, as though I'm obligated to care. Who's the selfish one really...

Manners73 wrote:^^The more Ritalin I take the quieter it goes...

It is annoying when I'm trying to sleep and I've got MacArthur Park playing on a loop.

Really? I find my mind a low hum of chatter that is pretty easy to ignore without ritalin. With ritalin it's a clear, loud voice. Do this, do that, yes that is good, no that is bad. Compared to the normal nonsense dribbling on in the background somewhere. I hardly listen to the inner voice off medication and since I'm generally always off medication ...you see where I'm going. Bunch of blabbering nonsense. I'm considering a lobotomy.

poxalis wrote:

Manners73 wrote:^^The more Ritalin I take the quieter it goes...

It is annoying when I'm trying to sleep and I've got MacArthur Park playing on a loop.

Really? I find my mind a low hum of chatter that is pretty easy to ignore without ritalin. With ritalin it's a clear, loud voice. Do this, do that, yes that is good, no that is bad. Compared to the normal nonsense dribbling on in the background somewhere. I hardly listen to the inner voice off medication and since I'm generally always off medication ...you see where I'm going. Bunch of blabbering nonsense. I'm considering a lobotomy.

Yeah really...it makes my head go so quiet that I can barely stand it sometimes. I like the noise so I under dose.

I crave personal head space and often prefer to be silent than in conversation. Most of the time, I work through stuff in my head about things that are happening at the time. I create them into scenarios and play them through.

If I learn something new then I often find myself mentally applying it to things not directly related to see how they change my point of view.

I also revisit conversations I've had with people who matter over the past few days to see if there was anything I possibly missed, or f*cked up. Although, this is not natural for me and a technique a therapist introduced me to when I was a kid; one that I find useful.

I put a lot of stock in visualisation; it's always helped me to get what I want and I'll visualise scenarios in my head for things I want to achieve. I find lists and planning very difficult, so visualising a successful scenario is often enough to automatically nudge my behaviour in the right direction.

I guess I think a lot compared with others.

justonemoreperson wrote:I crave personal head space and often prefer to be silent than in conversation. Most of the time, I work through stuff in my head about things that are happening at the time. I create them into scenarios and play them through.

If I learn something new then I often find myself mentally applying it to things not directly related to see how they change my point of view.

I also revisit conversations I've had with people who matter over the past few days to see if there was anything I possibly missed, or f*cked up. Although, this is not natural for me and a technique a therapist introduced me to when I was a kid; one that I find useful.

I put a lot of stock in visualisation; it's always helped me to get what I want and I'll visualise scenarios in my head for things I want to achieve. I find lists and planning very difficult, so visualising a successful scenario is often enough to automatically nudge my behaviour in the right direction.

I guess I think a lot compared with others.

I replay old conversations in my head a lot too I wonder what the point of that is? I even go over completely made up hypothetical conversations with people trying to predict how they will react and have responses ready but that’s a whole different deal.

I tend to have ideas to things come very naturally to me when I am in a good place mentally, more like Moments of clarity that appear out of nowhere rather than thinking them through logically. When I’m not feeling good there seems to be no answers to anything only more problems that come with anything I can come up with. I suppose this could be liked to depression but I’m not sad or emotional, I’m just tired,unmotivated, and irritable.

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Like just now two cars are racing each other across this parking lot to go to the exact same business and out of nowhere my inner voice says I wish I had a bazooka right now. I mean like really... Do they even make bazookas anymore? It’s so random sometimes I just have to laugh at it.

The thoughts I find decorating my mental sky are usually simple and about whatever happens to be around me.

"omggg procuto and danish blue cheese is such a nice combo.. mmmnhh yummy. Hmmn perhaps cultures that inhabit areas where food preservation is part of the culture seem to have the most yummy food. Cheese from a cold climate, meat from a warm climate.

nom nom nom nom

Oh wow the extra mouldy bits taste even better. I wonder if I put a bit up my nose and eat this bit of bread how it would change the taste of the bread. How the hell can something taste so good. Ohhhh ACHOOE!!!"

Some times my thoughts do wander to a more bleak outlook but it's usually when I feel threats around me.

Inner voice: don't look back

I obey.

justonemoreperson wrote:I guess I think a lot compared with others.

How much of what you describe occurs in the form of an inner monologue?