It sucks to be sexually assaulted but that's life. It can make you very paranoid plus ptsd itself causes paranoia on its own...
So I see some of you are also bipolar like me. I think I have antisocial features. Probably have for sure. I can do criminal things and feel no remorse. May not even understand why people are even pissed off about it. Like what? Seriously?
But regarding paranoia... It makes sense for it to be part of aspd. If you are antisocial you are an enemy of society therefore there is no trust therefore you should expect the worst. Plus, not being a typical average Joe means people may have grudges against you and want to get back at you.
Random thing, I seduced a girl recently and didn't use a condom. I pulled out at the end and wanked on her all my Cum. Don't think there was drip but I still got paranoid that she was trying to get prego from me. She didn't like me raising these fears. But yeah. It's thing like these that make me paranoid as well as people's intentions. Like they might try to deceive or something.
So with this girl I planned to get into a relationship with her but not out of LOVE. Heck, I don't even feel anything for her except lust. Don't really want to con her or anything but there is a Machiavellian self serving in all this. We get together because I think I should practice relationship for the future in case I get married and have kids. It feels like dexter and Rita.