What's Your Endgame

What's your ultimate objective in life. What do you really hope to achieve before death takes you? Are you motivated purely by selfish desire or do you desire to help others in some way?

I'm curious what your endgame is.

I don't really care about death and don't plan out things to do before that. I just do what I want instead.. If I was to think about that stuff I guess the only thing important to me is making sure my son is well taken care of.. And well he is and will be. He will have everything that currently belongs to me and more..

Honestly I don’t know... This is something I’ve been talking about in therapy, sometime that’s eating away at me. I feel like I should be moving on to something bigger and better, leveling up, doing SOMETHING. Although I can’t figure out what that is for the life of me. Mid life has been really causing me some issues.

I grew up poor, so my main objective always was to make money and have financial freedom, I finally have that and I don’t really spend much money. So that’s not it.

FormallyZach31 wrote:I don't really care about death and don't plan out things to do before that. I just do what I want instead..

I can very much relate to that. I have these moments though where I wish I could do something that could make a difference in other people's lives in a helpful way, but it never lasts long and soon enough I'm back to my old ways. I have no idea how to change that or if I even really want to because most of the time it seems I don't.

I wish I had an endgame, but I can't seem to stay focused on anything that isn't right in front of me.

Reaper wrote:

FormallyZach31 wrote:I don't really care about death and don't plan out things to do before that. I just do what I want instead..

I can very much relate to that. I have these moments though where I wish I could do something that could make a difference in other people's lives in a helpful way, but it never lasts long and soon enough I'm back to my old ways. I have no idea how to change that or if I even really want to because most of the time it seems I don't.

I wish I had an endgame, but I can't seem to stay focused on anything that isn't right in front of me.

Just do it, I don’t know your programs in Australia but serve soup at a soup kitchen be a big sister or something like that. Don’t think about it just sign up and try it.

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I’ve been thinking about walking dogs at the animal shelter. I have a hard time liking most people

Reaper wrote:

FormallyZach31 wrote:I don't really care about death and don't plan out things to do before that. I just do what I want instead..

I can very much relate to that. I have these moments though where I wish I could do something that could make a difference in other people's lives in a helpful way, but it never lasts long and soon enough I'm back to my old ways. I have no idea how to change that or if I even really want to because most of the time it seems I don't.

I wish I had an endgame, but I can't seem to stay focused on anything that isn't right in front of me.

planning out things before death seems like a waste of time. Just do what you want while you are alive, you never know how long you will be here and after we die, nothing will matter anyway

ZombieZ wrote:Just do it, I don’t know your programs in Australia but serve soup at a soup kitchen be a big sister or something like that. Don’t think about it just sign up and try it.

It all sounds good, but the problem is, these moments of wanting to help people don't last long. I can see myself in the soup kitchen looking for potential prey because that's how my mind works. I want to hurt and kill people or take advantage of them more often than I want to help them.

I’ve been thinking about walking dogs at the animal shelter. I have a hard time liking most people

That sounds like a good idea if you got the patience for it. I couldn't handle that job because animals have a tendency to piss me off. I definitely wouldn't have enough patience. Good luck to you if you do.

Reaper wrote:

ZombieZ wrote:Just do it, I don’t know your programs in Australia but serve soup at a soup kitchen be a big sister or something like that. Don’t think about it just sign up and try it.

It all sounds good, but the problem is, these moments of wanting to help people don't last long. I can see myself in the soup kitchen looking for potential prey because that's how my mind works. I want to hurt and kill people or take advantage of them more often than I want to help them.

I’ve been thinking about walking dogs at the animal shelter. I have a hard time liking most people

That sounds like a good idea if you got the patience for it. I couldn't handle that job because animals have a tendency to piss me off. I definitely wouldn't have enough patience. Good luck to you if you do.

Animals and me seem to understand each other, I very rarely have problems with them. I guess I’m on their wavelength. They are simple to understand, people are stupid lol.

Try it once, if you don’t like it never do it again. No biggie! If you kill someone just use them to start them next batch of soup, it’s the circle of life. Some have to die for others to live

ZombieZ wrote:If you kill someone just use them to start them next batch of soup

I'll definitely take that into consideration, lol.

it’s the circle of life. Some have to die for others to live

I couldn't agree more.

Reaper wrote:I have these moments though where I wish I could do something that could make a difference in other people's lives in a helpful way, but it never lasts long and soon enough I'm back to my old ways.

Really?

I don't desire to help people, just to influence them.