have you had any injuries or health risks? if so, what from?

When I was four I skinned myself with a razor by accident. I still have a scar from that.

When I was nine I ran up a ladder which broke and I got a rusty nail into the back of my knee.

I have scars from where I have been cut, although they are barely visible.

I have scars from being burnt, also barely visible.

Skinned myself again with a razor when I was sixteen, still have a scar from that.

I fractured my ribs once when I fell.

OD'd many times.

I've had a lot of head injuries over the years mainly through fighting.

I had to stay in hospital the time when someone hit me round the head with a fire extinguisher. I still have the scar from that. I can see it when I shave my head.

I also jumped from quite a height one time as well...well it was kind of a bridge and I was showing off. There was concrete steps at the bottom and when I landed I hit my face on them. I got a fractured cheek bone and a scar and it's left me with a bit of a squint in my right eye when I smile.

Climbed out of a window when I was a kid and slipped off the drain pipe and landed on concrete at the bottom. I just got up and legged it at the time but I think it's caused me some problems years later.

I also have damaged tendons and nerve damage from cycling accidents.

I'm ok though apart from that.

I was a very reckless child, and continued to be that way for a long time. With that came many injuries. Most of my scars have faded over time, but I'm a bit surprised that I survived my first 3 years of life tbh.

I'd often get into fights throughout primary and secondary school, which meant frequent bruises.

Misplaced finger when playing volleyball. It's still kinda stiff and doesn't seem to be improving.

Twisted ankle when skiing.

Cuts and bruises from a car accident.

One time when drunk I fell over on a street and barely avoided being ran over by a car.

Aside from injuries, I was always sh.it at all kinds of physical activity due to underdeveloped heart and lungs (caused by preterm birth) and poor motor skills.
A few times I have pushed myself too far and blacked out.

Well, and then there's self harm, a whole another business.

I also have a broken nose as well. I think that was the steel toecap boot incident but I might be wrong.

Most of these stories seem like impulsivity was a main cause for the injury.

I find it morbidly amusing, that I'm more than certain it was my injury that causes my impulsivity and other psychiatric problems.


Ironically it was my relentless impulsivity and lack of restraint on my motorcycle that bought me extra time, as pulling multiple G's in turns relieved pressure on my brains ventricles and saved my life.


Also the aforementioned injuries shared here, are terrible in their own ways and I can say that some of them were likely much harder recoveries physically than mine.

Yet as brutal as the incision, titanium, and scar look, they fail in comparison to the decimation of my neuropsychological homeostatsis my entire life from the slow and steadily malformed structures from intermittent hydrocephalus, which is likely why I have dug a hole so deep for myself, while somehow after the surgery acquired a masters degree that I've squandered.
*mod edit* *graphic warning, didn't want to offend and have thumbnail removed

Learning how to rewire your brain and adapt to feeling like a new mind dropped in the same body has to be the most arduous and frustrating battles anyone can endure, especially when not only do I refuse help, but will push away anyone close enough who tries too hard to give me any.

My self neglect lead to the problem getting so bad I needed a damn craniotomy, just think about that and the damage done to surrounding structures




You think I'd learn and make sure to go for my annual radiological check ups.

Instead I've haven't gotten any done in 7 years and I'm not worried because of the comforting logic of the old wise reaper who says:

That you can't have something (neurological abnormality/ailment) unless properly diagnosed by a mental health professional.

So if I don't ever see a doctor and get a MRI they won't ever get the chance to diagnose me with another tumor, right Reaps?

But in all seriousness, looking back I know I can recognize the times the tumor was causing me discomfort over the years and thankfully (knocks on wood) I haven't had the mentally and physically crippling feeling that my brain was imploding ever since.

Right after I was admitted in the hospital and inter cranial pressure was relieved via bi lateral ventricular shunts, I was given a neuropsychological exam which I'm sure many here have heard of which is the:

The Glasgow Coma Scale is a neurological scale which aims to give a reliable and objective way of recording the conscious state of a person for initial as well as subsequent assessment.

Being logical I'm able to figure out my score, on the generous high end would be 14/15 and low end would be 13/15. While 14 being classified as mild dysfunction 13 brings it to moderate dysfunction.

The other thing used in conjunction with this test is a examination of the pupils for size and reactivity to light to determine severity of the trauma.

Mine evidently warranted an induced coma when my pupils were unequal and unresponsive to light stimuli and answers to questions that were date based were pretty far gone, such as:

Who's the president? (In oct 2009)

I said George bush, and when told was Obama slammed my fists down on the table and screamed mother fvcker! I find it strange considering how much more i preferred Obama to bush.

Yet while I couldn't figure anything out like that, I was told my mental math skills were baffling as I mocked them when they started slow like 2+2, getting up to double digit by double digit multiplication

I can still feel that trachea tube pushed deeper than my clavicles lol
Immediate effects of this mild TBI?

Likely helped to contribute to the regression of my overall short term memory, in tandem with the surgical approach that guaranteed its impairment.

Associated health risks? Directly after was monitored closely for post operative seizure while in the hospital which never occurred.

Since my lateral ventricles were so enlarged for so many years, even after the ventriculosotomy and pressure removed, my ventricles still remain much larger than any Normal person.

This down the line, I think has raised my chance of ending up with Alzheimer's which is better than dead at 20

I'm in the process of trying to find a new place to live but once I'm resettled I'm going to utilize my health insurance finally and go get an MRI and then take them and finally go consult with a neuropsychiatrist and see If they think it's possible that my mental dysfunctions can be directly attributed to my neurological abnormalities that resulted from the tumor

As I see it, my brain grew relatively abnormally so it adapted resulting in the personality issues and was forced once again to change, only this time much more suddenly during the surgery obliterating my corpus Colosum.

Thanks to the magnificence of neural plasticity and a lot of effort I've bypassed this deficit and rerouted a job (short term memory ) to be carried out in a different part of the brain.

https://youtu.be/oaTfdKYbudk

*mod edit* my surgical approach

-- Mon Aug 06, 2018 6:22 pm --

Reaper got caught with the cram!

ZombieZ wrote:Reaper got caught with the cram!

lol, no. What attacked me was a male goat and he had big horns that he seemed to be trying to stab me with. At least I was concerned about getting stabbed by them anyway because he kept coming at me.