Reaper wrote:I can't imagine a sociopath suppressing their antisocial behavior under any circumstance at any point in their life because it is technically a disorder based on defiance and non-conformity. The thought process generally works like this: The more you punish me, the more I'm going to defy you and tell you to go fuk yourself.
I do have that train of thought, it's that i'm just too apathetic/lazy to actually act upon it. Like if you for example, wanted something to happen but just felt debilitating boredom thinking about that thing, so you don't actually do it? Something like that. I'm not sure i have depression, but i'm assuming that's it. Also the apathy extends to almost everything in my life, including school. That's why i got kicked out. Apart from the school shooting prank, but i got off with a warning and "true remorse for my actions"
Or the swastika made out of cooking books on the cooking teacher substitute's office's floor
Fun times, if a bit stereotypical for an edgy teenager.
Also i like writing long semi intellectual paragraphs about myself, so i don't know if it's aspd (or future aspd, whatever) or some unholy mix of narcissism.
Reaper wrote:Certain medications could probably cause suppression, but you didn't mention anything about medication, so that's not relevant anyway. I don't know enough about that anyway to really know.
Nope, no meds. Hate having to rely on anything other than myself, if only in an obsessive manner.
Reaper wrote:If you are a sociopath, people close to you (siblings, parents, caregivers, teachers etc) would undoubtedly see your antisocial behavior at some point while you're growing up and likely on multiple occasions, not just later in life.
Yup, pretty sure this happened, back in kindergarten. And at home. But rarely around people like my mom's friends, family members and such. Well, it used to, but now i just smile, nod and talk with a smooth semi nasally voice.
Also, i hate getting into fights, so i do anything to avoid them. I think it's because i assume i'd lose anyways, being the weakest shortest skinniest kid in middle school, in a class of 3 different grades combined (a spec ed class no less, so you can imagine i didn't win a lot of fights. I did sometimes lash out, but those ended with a sprained wrist and ridicule, and having this strange semi-self shame i have (this is a narcissistic trait from what i understand) i didn't exactly have incentives to do so)
madness00 wrote:Welcome.
Thanks man, i'll be an overdramatic thorn in your server until you laugh me out, but thanks