~ Fantasies ~

Dreamers and edge-lords, welcome.

It is not uncommon for individuals with personality disorders to have rich fantasy lives, as sometimes reality can hurt. Furthermore, it allows one to feel connected without the imprisonment of, for example, relationships or literal prison.

Here are several questions that i'd appreciate you to answer as honestly as you can:

1). What are your biggest fantasies? Great success? Ideal love? Rape? Murder? Explain.

2). Where do they stem from? Childhood? A movie?

3). How closely are they tied to reality? Have you made any steps toward them? Do you intend to?

Thanks.

Which one are you - dreamer or edgelord?

My biggest dream is being part of a family. I never felt I’ve really been in one. In general I just don’t want to be alone. I have people to talk to and hang out with but none of them accept me for who I am, they just tolerate whatever things they dislike about me, it’s not like I couldn’t do without them. Those who do think I’m too toxic or are too toxic themselves. A less abstract dream would be to emigrate or get a job that consists mostly of traveling. I’d like to see more of the world. This is censored af btw, I’m not putting any dreams on here that would be illegal to realize

Less realistic dreams are pretty basic like being extremely powerful, being super rich, famous, ideal partner(s), superpowers, idk lol

Reaper wrote:Which one are you - dreamer or edgelord?

You can be both at the same time as certain people have demonstrated here

cutecactus wrote:

Reaper wrote:Which one are you - dreamer or edgelord?

You can be both at the same time as certain people have demonstrated here

I'm neither.

I'll respond to this thread anyway:

1). What are your biggest fantasies? Great success? Ideal love? Rape? Murder? Explain.

Murder fantasies because I have them the most. I've been having homicidal thoughts on a fairly regular basis pretty much my entire life, since early childhood. I had them less often back then though. It was in my teens that I started having them more often because that's when I began to really want to kill people.

2). Where do they stem from? Childhood? A movie?

Childhood. Whether it's because there was abuse in the home or I was born with a predisposition to violence, I don't know. Probably both.

3). How closely are they tied to reality? Have you made any steps toward them? Do you intend to?

They are most definitely tied to reality. I have acted on them in the past. I'm not saying I've actually killed anyone. I will just say that I have certainly acted on them to a certain extent.

cutecactus wrote:My biggest dream is being part of a family. I never felt I’ve really been in one. In general I just don’t want to be alone. I have people to talk to and hang out with but none of them accept me for who I am, they just tolerate whatever things they dislike about me, it’s not like I couldn’t do without them. Those who do think I’m too toxic or are too toxic themselves. A less abstract dream would be to emigrate or get a job that consists mostly of traveling. I’d like to see more of the world.

Aw. I heard an acoustic guitar while reading that.

Siegfried wrote:Aw. I heard an acoustic guitar while reading that.

Do I win Miss ASPD Forum or is an ASPD diagnosis required?

Siegfried wrote:

cutecactus wrote:My biggest dream is being part of a family. I never felt I’ve really been in one. In general I just don’t want to be alone. I have people to talk to and hang out with but none of them accept me for who I am, they just tolerate whatever things they dislike about me, it’s not like I couldn’t do without them. Those who do think I’m too toxic or are too toxic themselves. A less abstract dream would be to emigrate or get a job that consists mostly of traveling. I’d like to see more of the world.

Aw. I heard an acoustic guitar while reading that.

this reminded me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VtUISJrjvBY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2HT37pu2vA

the guy is so ridiculous ,i am with the girl.


about what you cutecactus said about family.i wonder how it is to have a healthy family that are not narcissists and actually cared about you more than themselves and you like being with them.
,i want to find someone who loves me like they are my mother lol. but this doesn't exist.
i don't feel much connection with anyone.so having a deeper connection with someone who would never hurt me would be ideal.

1). What are your biggest fantasies? Great success? Ideal love? Rape? Murder? Explain.

One is becoming a successful and wealthy investor.
Another is to establish a deep and long-lasting interpersonal connection. Love and/or friendship.

2). Where do they stem from? Childhood? A movie?

Childhood, probably. My parents always told me how much their job sucks.
The second one, I dunno. I'd like to know how it is to have a long-lasting meaningful connection with someone.

3). How closely are they tied to reality? Have you made any steps toward them? Do you intend to?

I read a lot of books on investing, and I intend to like to try my hand at it in near future.

As I have said, I had a lot of girlfriends in my life, but I didn't love any of them. I also have had many friends, but I sort of drifted away from all of them over time.

4) Thanks.
Yer welcome

ArchCannon wrote:I read a lot of books on investing

Something i remember from business school is that IPO's tend to surge in the early stages, more often than not (which you may have already guessed).

In middle school i invested in penny stocks under my dads account. I used basic technical chart analysis to find patterns and more than quadrupled my money before the market crash.

Other than that, i don't know much about investing, but it's fun, isn't it.

I always wanted to get into fund management, but my career fell short due to a manic episode and then a brush up against the law once i stabilized. Who doesn't want to manage private equity or hedge funds?

One of my fantasies.

Biggest fantasy is to be the dictator of a powerful country. I want to have that power, the ability to flex the largest muscles in the world and to have the ultimate say in the lives of millions or even billions of people.