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Re: Murder

Postby Reaper » Wed Apr 18, 2018 12:37 am

Contrast wrote:Again, cold and anger juxtaposed seems like an oxymoron. Perhaps I just misunderstand what anger is.

The display of affect is different to what internally is being registered, it sounds like-- and it sounds like what is being registered internally is not cool or calm or collected.


It is because I feel calm internally when I'm angry. Rarely do I ever see red when I'm pissed off. Only twice do I remember feeling so enraged that I was like a bull in a bullfight.

Years ago something someone said to me during an argument at school pissed me off so much that I launched at her. I just fuking lost it big time. I wanted to rip that bitch apart, but as I tried to attack her two people from the crowd that had gathered around us grabbed my arms and held me back. It's rare for me to lose control like that.

On another occasion I was so angry at my mother once that I wanted to stab her to death, but I didn't. I knew I was about to lose it, so I walked away and stabbed something else instead.
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Re: Murder

Postby Contrast » Wed Apr 18, 2018 7:07 am

so what's anger mean to you reaper?
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Re: Murder

Postby Reaper » Wed Apr 18, 2018 11:38 am

Contrast wrote:so what's anger mean to you reaper?


Usually it means that I'm frustrated about something. Sometimes though anger feels good. Actually, I'd say it often feels good. It just depends on the situation and what's causing it as it how to affects me.

Sometimes I fake anger because I'm not feeling it. It's effective in making someone do something.
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Re: Murder

Postby Lobotomite » Fri Apr 20, 2018 8:25 pm

Okay, okay, i'll speak about it. I normally don't, but right now I have taken special precautions to prevent kidnapping by the government and spending the rest of my life in a black site.


“We've all got the power to kill in our hands, but most of us are afraid to use it. Those who aren't, control life itself.”
This is a quote by Richard Ramirez. Do you agree with it? What could be your reasons for killing someone other than control?

If you are a living being you are controlling your own life, and possibly those of other people. Killing an organism is just an extension of this already existing state.

Have you ever had fantasies to kill someone and the urge to act on them?

Yes. I have had many fantasies about mass shooting of black people, Jews, murder - suicide, and also suicide by police, blowing up buildings, creating chemical weapons and using them, molotov cocktails, and other deadly methods. Also making a nuclear bomb and using it to begin a worldwide nuclear war. Have I acted on these fantasies? No, mostly out of fear of life in prison. And death itself.

If you have and never acted on them, what stopped you?

Fear of the consequences for myself. Also, ideological reasons. Would being a murderer be in line with my ideology of National Socialism? Yes, most likely if it is a Jew or some other non white creature, but would this actually serve the ideology if it is only one or 10, even 50? How many could I take out? This is also sometimes how I think about the school shooters. It seems like they were motivated by emotion, not reason. What is the point in killing only a few people? Why not hundreds or thousands. Even then would it serve the ideology? Did the Holocaust even really happen, and did Hitler really even want the Jews to be exterminated? Or did he want them deported to Israel and / or Madagascar?

What do you think could drive you over the edge?

Most likely drugs or brain damage. Or some kind of social or civilizational cataclysm.

What do you think is the best place or the best way to kill someone?

Nuclear weaponry. Basically in any major population center. Or other weapons of mass destruction.

If you were a serial killer, would you have a signature? What would it be?

I don't know. Serial killing isn't really something which makes sense for me ideologically.

What do you think are the chances of you getting away with murder?

Very low. The state apparatus / ZOG is extremely powerful, with help from the CIA FBI NSA and other agencies.

If you were to kill someone and get caught by the authorities, would you ever admit it? If so, why?

Most likely yes I would admit it. Then kill myself to prevent "punishment" by the Jews.
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Re: Murder

Postby Reaper » Sun Apr 22, 2018 12:35 am

Lobotomite wrote:What is the point in killing only a few people? Why not hundreds or thousands.


Because not everyone cares about whatever reasons you or someone else may have for wanting to kill thousands of people.

To some people murder is just a sport, a pleasurable sport. Like hunting deer. You wouldn't hunt a thousand deer at a time, just that one that you really want, or more if that's what you're after, but one at a time is generally sufficient.

I can definitely see the pleasure in mass destruction too though, but realistically, one at a time is enough and it's more satisfying because it's more personal. That's my opinion though based on my own inner drive. You or someone else may have a very different reason for killing people or wanting to.

Serial killing isn't really something which makes sense for me ideologically.


Some people get pleasure from murder like you get pleasure from sex.

What do you think are the chances of you getting away with murder?

Very low. The state apparatus / ZOG is extremely powerful, with help from the CIA FBI NSA and other agencies.


A lot of people still get away with murder these days.
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Re: Murder

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Re: Murder

Postby Lobotomite » Sun Apr 22, 2018 1:58 am

Sure some people get away with murder but it's hard to tell just how many.

A local girl or woman disappeared? Could be a murder or something else. Maybe dissolved in an acid or buried somewhere or cooked and eaten. Many things could be murders, but if the murderer isn't caught it can only be suspected.

I tend to think about the gigantic size of the US government and just how much we don't know about it's capabilities. Conspiracy theories have in the past been proven correct. MKULTRA and other secret programs could still be ongoing. Disappearance of a local woman? Government could be the suspect.
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Re: Murder

Postby Reaper » Sun Apr 22, 2018 2:02 am

You really need to work on your fears. Clearly they're keeping you in check though.
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Re: Murder

Postby Lobotomite » Sun Apr 22, 2018 2:16 am

I once had a "friend" who seemed to be like me, close to the edge of mass murder and maybe with undiagnosed ASPD / sociopathy, but there was always a question in the back of my mind about how he didn't ever act on his desires. Though he did seem to abuse his brother, I basically led him by a leash. The rest of the school seemed to detect something "different" and hidden about our psyches and we were socially excluded, possibly we chose to be excluded though. We shared a hatred for the normal people.

Later on, I had my own small entourage of close people, who I talked with and ate at a school lunch table with, one of them being autistic, the other extremely intelligent, and the other my own original "friend." We all seemed to be outside the bounds of the normal people's society at the school, and it seemed as though nearly everyone else suspected us to be possible future school shooters. One of the people in the entourage, the autistic one sometimes threw his lunch box against his locker door on the way back to get whatever he needed for his next class. I didn't mind that much, it made a lot of noise but the normal people seemed to be afraid of him when he did it, and startled. The adults seemed to ignore us, like we were defective but also payed special attention to us, to look for signs of anger or "rebellion." I always disliked the normal people and in high school I gave up on the entourage. Nowadays I just focus on other things. It seems like friendships are near impossible for me, they don't come naturally.
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Re: Murder

Postby Reaper » Sun Apr 22, 2018 2:28 am

Fantasizing about mass murder isn't indicative of AsPD/sociopathy. The diagnosis requires a lot more than just homicidal fantasies. In fact, it doesn't even require them. There are people without AsPD who have homicidal fantasies as well, so if you want to know if you might have the disorder you're better off looking at the actual traits mentioned in the DSM 5 and see if they apply to you and not just once or twice, there has to be a pattern of behavior in these characteristics to warrant diagnosis.

Don't self-diagnose. Too many people misdiagnose themselves by doing that.
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