Member Nominations

that is a deep insightful post about me brights.

however, i know for a fact, that whatever goes on in my head, all my ideas, they do not influence my behavior one bit.

in other words, minus the ideologies i know i would still be doing what i am doing.

and i am not a pain in the ass to live with. i know that my comfort - which is important - requires that others around me be comfortable and happy.

in fact, when they are not, it's like i have a sixth sense of this, and can even sense it through walls!

i don't even confront my Bf about things, i just manipulate him subtlety into changing or doing something i want without confronting him.

the best thing i got is that the person i am on this forum is all the stuff i repress during the day no matter how random + brain farts

and it's not because my lifestyle is repressive, it's because my personality must be just fuked?

because i was always like this. my time where this is all repressed is the most enjoyable of my day. it's just like a monster that exists inside of me that wants to destroy everything.

I appreciate the compliments given here. My knowledge base actually feels quite weak so it was nice to hear that others think I have one. Will make an effort to be be less difficult to read in the future.

Courtier wrote:I appreciate the compliments given here. My knowledge base actually feels quite weak so it was nice to hear that others think I have one. Will make an effort to be be less difficult to read in the future.

S: I used to think I was an idiot.
M: Both of us thought you were an idiot, Sherlock. We had nothing else to go on, until we met other children.
S: Oh yes. That was a mistake.

This is long and unusual, but following recent interactions with crystal_richardson_ and the nature of this thread being about members (and the fact of her being so prolific around here), I've done an analysis:


From yesterday:

crystal_richardson_ wrote:

Will Incandenza wrote:Understand your meaning; alpha is relative to the group.

She can defend herself perfectly fine, so I'm taking an exit here.

also, you are a little biased. you are confusing your preference for certain types leading with your perception of dominance.

just because you want reaper to be dominant doesn't mean she is.

...

Will Incandenza wrote:

crystal_richardson_ wrote:also, you are a little biased. you are confusing your preference for certain types leading with your perception of dominance.

Elaborate.

...

crystal_richardson_ wrote:actually i would rather elaborate on a different more relevant point.

Realising the extent of her subjectivity, I turned things more detailed: post1928001.html#p1928001

After which there was a slight shift, and she posted (among other comments):

crystal_richardson_ wrote:i am sorry i am pain in the ass, however i don't think validating delusions or poor perspectives is helpful.

crystal_richardson_ wrote:like what MR said. even though contained a lot that i said myself, he made all the connections i am unwilling to myself. and it made sense to someone who doesn't know themselves very well. i don't know if it's perfectly accurate but it's a damn good theory.

Then, with additional pressure applied by Reaper, she emotionally unravelled:

crystal_richardson_ wrote:to be honest, most of what i do (as in everything i do) is a big fuk you to society and the world.

so if you are annoyed by my posts, good.

go fuk yourself.

Such a child-like method of attack > defend/deny > attack, at this level of transparency, is a pretty endearing feature in my book. I genuinely like everyone here to one degree or another, and crystal has, in all honesty, been among my favourite posters on the forum---annoying as the exchanges with her often become. I respect her for her curiosities and resilience and in spite of her unwillingness to talk authentically about herself, she actually does come across more authentically, at times, than most other posters on the forum.

In fairness to the fact I didn't engage with her defences to the points I made about her, and the subsequent shark feeding session following her emotional bleeding (last quote above), combined with this later post she made:

crystal_richardson_ wrote:one thing i find interesting on here is that people note that i have intelligence yet irl it is invisible i think as i don't get such opinions. but i also hide it because you don't gain much from people believing you can outsmart them. also, i don't feel like i have any investment in intelligence; it's not important to me from my ego standpoint. but i guess it's a tool that's always been there. i should give it more credit!

...where she actually sounds humble---her progression of posts making clear she has a very low self-esteem---and irrespective of her being ASPD or sociopathic or edgy for some other disordered reason, I decided to send her this PM:

Will Incandenza wrote:Hi

Sorry for the impoliteness.

You're a more valuable person than you realise.

Have a good weekend

- Will Incandenza

Subsequently, it's now apparent (and perhaps obvious to anyone who knows her well) that this was a mistake, but in my defence:

I don't care whether someone feels empathy or emotion themselves, or how they feel about me personally; human to human respect and decency---when considering that most aggression between two people comes from a place of self-projection born of unrelated past experience---should always supersede personal pride and the adolescent tendency towards selfishness. "Should" being contextual to the fact of shared existence and experience.

Given how emotions operate in unison or contradiction, if one has an emotional register (as I do) it becomes objectively smarter to treat people respectfully, with a degree of kindness. High functioning sociopaths and psychopaths generally understand the advantages I'm referring to, and while perhaps lacking the emotional core to orchestrate them organically, wield them effectively through theatrics.

Being honest and sincere is a strength position where the conceptual playing field becomes as large as reality itself. The dishonest alternative is a narrow, false reality requiring ongoing control, that no matter the complexity, will always be structural, and therefore, deconstructable.

It's also the perfect basis for a "tit for tat" approach to social survivalism.

People like streaM Freak well understand this philosophy, and he's a good example of what I mean.

So with that context, let's review crystal's response to my PM, which was: no reply (I wasn't expecting or wanting one). But, she did post in this thread:

crystal_richardson_ wrote:@Will

I wasn't avoiding responding to your request for elaboration. All i meant by you see what you want domination wise is that many of you implicitly support reaper as some kind of mascot for the forum, maybe because you find her cute or because she embodies the Aspd image in a very stereotypical way what with her music tastes, obsession with murder, etc, which also tends to draw in the newbies most of which have an equally naive cliche view of Aspd.

your assessment of reaper is based on not posting with her intimately and regularly for several years as many of us have but a sort birds eye view while you mostly post on other forums - unless you claim to stalk this forum every other day.

that's why i accused you of bias or a misinformed perspective.

also again, i am not trying to win alpha of this forum you have no idea how pathetic that sounds. although for the record if i wanted to i could because i know all the real competition wouldn't bother standing in my way anyway

-- Fri Sep 16, 2016 5:14 pm --

and why am i finding fault with chosen nominations? no not because i am jealous.

because i will find fault with anything if it amuses me or gives me something to constructively reply to.

that is how i have been with all sorts of threads. why do you think this would be different? projection of your own potential jealous intentions perhaps?

so you may be projecting after all Will, even though i didn't even say that initially.

She clearly viewed my PM as an emotional opportunity, to send me another fuk you.

Breaking it down:

I wasn't avoiding responding to your request for elaboration.

- An objectively false statement. I asked her to elaborate, which she acknowledged, and decided to ignore in place of discussing points seen as less vulnerable. The attitude she's adopted to mask this weakness to herself, is that of entitlement: "actually, I'll decide what we're talking about."

An extremely weak and cowardly and transparent response to a basic request, to justify an attempted elicitation of emotional weakness from myself.

your assessment of reaper is based on not posting with her intimately and regularly for several years as many of us have but a sort birds eye view while you mostly post on other forums - unless you claim to stalk this forum every other day.

- My assessment of Reaper is based on having read thousands of her posts and the replies she's received. I'm a visual reader and can absorb information quicker than average (the extent to which is irrelevant), and spent a lot of time reading this forum before posting here.

I've analysed all the main posters on the forum, crystal included (I've had a lot of time on my hands, and people interest me), but this recent interaction with her has encouraged a reevaluation (which is what this is; my thought process regarding her).

that's why i accused you of bias or a misinformed perspective.

- Meaning, her basis for calling me biased, was an arrogant assumption that I didn't know what I was talking about. Arrogant because the assertion lacks supporting evidence (she has no access to my mind or how I've formed my opinions), is itself biased given her feelings towards Reaper, and is, as should be clear to anyone reading, ironically misguided itself.

At this point, the assertion of crystal being intelligent is becoming fragmented; perhaps she's intelligent in some respects, but in the ones that matter socially, she functions in servitude of a low self-esteem.

also again, i am not trying to win alpha of this forum you have no idea how pathetic that sounds. although for the record if i wanted to i could because i know all the real competition wouldn't bother standing in my way anyway

- Further evidence of low self-esteem, with added self-betrayal; no-one said she wanted to be the alpha, just that she was jealous of the attention Reaper was receiving. Which is still quite obvious. That her mind leaped to that conclusion suggests, as she has often asserted towards others, that there's an element of truth to the point she's rejecting. The distinction being, no-one made the point to begin with, making it much more probable (if not definite) that she really does want to be the alpha of the forum.

and why am i finding fault with chosen nominations? no not because i am jealous.

because i will find fault with anything if it amuses me or gives me something to constructively reply to.

that is how i have been with all sorts of threads. why do you think this would be different? projection of your own potential jealous intentions perhaps?

- This part doesn't require analysis. Observing a fish floundering on the pavement can be interesting in its own right.

so you may be projecting after all Will, even though i didn't even say that initially.

- The components to this comment are unfortunately too elusive to examine, but the fact of the comment, and the weak spitefulness it projects, are telling.

That crystal was unable to contextualise our interaction for what it was, and was emotionally affected to the point of awaiting a retaliation opportunity---mistakingly assumed here on the basis of my PM seeming weak, somehow---has made her transcend the definition of pathetic: too reactively malicious to evoke more than temporary pity; too mentally weak to ridicule.

Her sense of purpose has a lifeline to this forum, denoted by her relentless presence and assumed entitlement and heated defensiveness and attachment and jealousy. Her mistakes with me have perhaps been impossible for her to avoid, given her apparent mental challenges and a distorted cognition most of the time (not just when she's smoking weed).

That being said, at a personal level I extended a supportive arm. Given her choices and weak inability to function intelligently outside of a narrow curiosity context, and her child-like ineptitude at strategising better social moves than those found in the sandpit---that make her a lot less intelligent-seeming and worthwhile taking seriously---that arm is now well and truly removed.

It was a mistake to be nice to her. And it's perhaps a mistake for anyone to regard her as anything more than a pity case.

Whenever she feels like maturing beyond herself, and is more honest about her motivations (of fuking course this was only ever about jealousy), she might start displaying the strength she so desperately (through implication) defends herself as having.

Until then, what a disappoint crystal turned out to be.

Well I personally nominate Tibby.

Courtier wrote:I appreciate the compliments given here. My knowledge base actually feels quite weak so it was nice to hear that others think I have one. Will make an effort to be be less difficult to read in the future.

All well deserved. I personally enjoy your posting style and unique syntax, but understand where MR is coming from; some audiences may find it obscure, at times.

You're quite gifted with your powers of deduction. Have you done tertiary study in literature or philosophy? I recall you mentioning you liked your workplace as it offered the potential for progression, implying it to be corporate (or something similar); have you considered entering academia?

Courtier your style is beautiful, do not dare change it for some of the dullards here.





I'm just kidding guys, you know I love you.

wait, what fporum am i on?

the feggit forum?!?

HEYYOOO

Indeed.

Ass
Sphincter
Penises
Dedication Forum.

idk whats spinich is

sounded smart though