What do you look like?

crystal_richardson_ wrote: And modelling was always my dream.

modelling doesnt give you self esteem, it breaks it if you are not super successful
its all running around for jobs and castings and ppl point out everything that could ever be wrong with your body and face
you need a very stable personality to do modelling

Here's a idea Crystal. Take this dancer for example. Now they aren't necessarily attractive, but they are without a doubt skilled with a movement which is, yeah, exceptional and for the most part unrecognizable by the general population at large (most likely because they've never dropped acid). Back in the day me and my buddies, whenever we saw a great dancer, we knew right away, they had the good drugs.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iVJNM3_KnpA

Do you understand this yet? Emotion is 100% expressed wholly through the human body, most of those expressions concentrating around the face, voice, and so on.

Why is youth associated with beauty a little more? Sure... maybe people look younger, but in essence it is the vibrancy or life energy which puts a bounce in someones step or the energy they express. Youth simply have more energy. The older you get, the "sadder" people become.

Pink01 wrote:I see....and are you sure with this surgery(ies) that you will get what you want?

Yup. And if I don't then no worries I'll just kill myself.

I don't want to be an industry model though, and I don't need to to get what I want.

People recognize (high calibre) model beauty. You don't need the title to get the responses.

Plus, everyone will know that I could be a model, but am choosing not to, thus further distinguishing myself and making myself more attractive.

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Im-pure wrote:

crystal_richardson_ wrote: And modelling was always my dream.

modelling doesnt give you self esteem, it breaks it if you are not super successful
its all running around for jobs and castings and ppl point out everything that could ever be wrong with your body and face
you need a very stable personality to do modelling

I know. I meant 'was' literally though. Like growing up, it was my dream.

Now I realize it's neither necessary nor desirable for what I want.

crystal_richardson_ wrote:People recognize (high calibre) model beauty. You don't need the title to get the responses.

Are you tall enough for that, or are you talking more commercial model? High fashion models are giraffes.

I don't want to go into professional modelling at all (anymore).

I just want to look like a model.

Oh come on, most models, look like hollow shells of meat. Not much meat on the bone to begin with anyways.

They are a product of an industry which values cut throat competition, and the "best", they are not representative of what the general population at large deems as beautiful. In fact, more often than not a high end fashion model alienates the majority.

The best is subject to mass appeal across multi cultures, and "achievement".


Think of someone like Tyra Banks. Sure, she is model material, but there are few people on the entire planet which have a "gaze" as sultry as hers. That's the emotion she communicates with her eyes, rather than a facial structure which so many others have.

It's her personality which sets her apart from the rest.

Probably her green eyes as well. I can't lie and say that green eyes don't dominate mainstream media, because they absolutely do. That's like one physical feature which is yeah, somewhere which bridges human emotion, communication and expression.

I see...are you in therapy right now Crystal?

I think therapy before this all could help you prepare yourself just in case you are not exactly what you want to be. Because sometimes these things don't work out exactly as planned...you know? I think with a bit of focusing on this you might be able to prepare yourself for something like that instead of being impulsive and hurting yourself.

crystal_richardson_ wrote:People recognize (high calibre) model beauty.

They recognise surgery as well. it's exactly those who can recognise high calibre beauty who can spot surgery instantly.
So think it over Crys (unless it's some genuinely crippling oddity like having 2 noses or none at all).

MrO,

I know. I agree.

That's partly why I don't want to become a professional mode, but just look like one.

I don't want to go and live that life away from others.

I want to be with others, like a normal person, and share my beauty with them and just live a normal life.

Pink01 wrote:I see...are you in therapy right now Crystal?

I think therapy before this all could help you prepare yourself just in case you are not exactly what you want to be. Because sometimes these things don't work out exactly as planned...you know? I think with a bit of focusing on this you might be able to prepare yourself for something like that instead of being impulsive and hurting yourself.

My expectations are not unrealistic. It's only a few features that need tweaking.

I am not delusional. I know where I currently stand and I know what can be (realistically) achieved through plastic surgery.

Plastic surgery can not make a basically ugly face pretty. It can, however, modify certain ugly features.

And that is my problem.

Just a few simple features.

If I fail, then I know I tried, and well...what more can you do right?

When I say this is the purpose of my life...I don't mean EVERYTHING I do currently revolves around this...that's silly.

I live my life. I have a thriving, normal life. But this is my overarching goal, and it needs to happen or the foundation upon which everything else rests will crumble.

I have everything else that one could want...but it's meaningless to me. This isn't.

Everything else is just the backdrop of a normal life, but it doesn't mean or complete me.

I need THIS to feel complete.