I've tried a handful of antidepressants...Prozac, effexor, celexa, zoloft and so on, but they have never worked. I always felt that it was something in my life I was unable to cope with, and I was right.
Anti psychotics do absolutely nothing to treat my symptoms, and everything imaginable to make me worse. I first tried risperidone, which is an awful, awful drug that should be banned.
I developed shakes and tremors, insatiable appetite, swollen nipples, drooling, odd mouth movements, dreams that lasted all night and prevented restful sleep, not feeling right; foggy, and I became infertile until I stopped it (no ejaculate). This was all on 1mg.
Serequel: I was put on this in addition to risperidone to help me sleep. Looking back, I'm appalled that an anti psychotic drug would be used for such a purpose. It kept me foggy and too tired to function throughout the day. Didn't help me fall asleep any faster.
Geodon: Sedated me into a bedridden zombie 18 hours a day, where every task was a chore.
Mood stabilizers don't work for me either:
Lithium. I didn't even manage to get to the therapeutic dosage before I developed overwhelming thirst and a sense of inflammation throughout my body.
Depakote: I could actually handle the side effects of this one, but it did nothing for me. I developed moderate vertigo and my urine smelled like ammonia until I stopped it.
I won't ever be taking drugs like this again.