I have to agree. I was diagnosed bipolar and I admit that all of the symptoms pointed to it --- while
on the medications. I fell into the belief that they promote for those with bipolar that I would need meds for the rest of my life or risk a lifetime of manic depressive episodes. That I couldn't live a 'normal' life again without these meds. They did become my crutch as I was told I
must take them, but I constantly wondered why I still felt so bad and the manic depressive episodes still continued and I was in the psych hospital on a regular basis as a result. It is pretty bad when the nurses and doctors in a psych hospital become as familiar as family members. I trusted them to know what they were doing, but somewhere down deep I was constantly questioning what was happening to me. It is just that the part of me doing the questioning was being suppressed by the part of me that was manic and invincible. It was like watching a horror movie from behind a glass window. I constantly told the doctors I felt like I was watching myself in that way, but they ignored it. Anyway, my point it that even though they led me to 'find' parts of my life prior to meds and hospitalization that would lead me to think that I had been leading up to manic episodes all along...that it was a condition that was only 'brought out' by the meds and that it was something that I would now have to learn to deal with and manage similar to diabetes or high cholesterol. PLEASE! It is not the same at all and I can't even believe that they constantly use this comparison even to this day! I think they are trying to suppress the stigma of mental illness, but please don't compare this to diabetes or high blood pressure. A stay in the psych hospital is far from that in a regular hospital and anyone who has been there knows what I am talking about. But, I digress once again...I just want to point out that there is another way and the meds just might not be necessary. I stopped taking meds completely in the spring of 2004 (after my last med induced overdose) and am now still picking up the pieces of the disaster that the meds left, but I can say in all honesty and certainty that I sit here a person without manic depressive episodes and haven't experienced anything even faintly close to what I went through on meds. Not saying that I don't have down days or anything...yes, I do...but that is part of being human isn't it? The drug companies would like for us to believe that it is a part of life that can be eliminated or made 'better', but it is just a cover up solution and not a real way to deal with life at all. Sorry for the soap box speech, but I feel that my experience speaks directly to the manipulation of everyone on these meds and I will continue to tell it to anyone who will listen for as long as I am able. Meds are not necessary for healing and maintenance of quality of life, they are actually detrimental to this process.
P.S. I also gained about 100 lbs. on these meds in 3 1/2 yrs...that is an average of 30+ lbs. a year! Even though I have always had a weight issue this escalated it and the fact that I could barely get off the couch for anything during most of this time contributed even further. I didn't eat any more and most often ate less so I know it was the meds. Now that I have been off of them for over a year...I would like to say that I have lost massive amounts of weight, but that isn't true and not due to lack of trying. The thing that I am thankful for though and another reason that I know it was the meds is that I haven't gained anymore weight since stopping the meds in June 2004 when I was previously packing it on at a rate of 30+ lbs. a year. I have lost some, but not as much as I would like...I know it will take time and that is a better way to go, but I do have to question the studies pointing to metabolic problems associated with the use of some of these meds as well. Not making excuses for myself

....just pointing out the long-term effects of these meds don't just end the minute you stop taking them. Memory is an issue too, but better than while on the meds and doing ECT treatments ...