Hearing voices is voice to skull

ashc wrote:

Riccola wrote:

ashc wrote:*Dissociates back into my world*



-- Fri Jun 27, 2014 1:36 pm --



*Repeats "I refuse to be a tool, I refuse to be a tool, I refuse...."*

*Dissociates into safe place*

Is this what they are saying? I guess I dont follow?

Who? The stalkers?

No. I am saying I don't want to be some tool. I'm sick of being a guinea pig for every intelligence agency in the USA. Let them play with someone else. It's like I'm a soccer ball. I feel like I'm getting kicked back and forth with counterintelligence tactics.

I'm beginning to feel just as betrayed as I did a year ago but perhaps more. I always mention feeling like a soccer ball in my CAR due to all this stalking, then my mom suddenly happens to use the same verbiage last night when describing those kinds of feelings. Too coincidental. I think they have my family against me now, too. I usually keep it to myself, but this is it. I can't take this anymore . They have EVERYONE against me, and who knows what they're telling my family! They don't even believe me . Anyway, I refuse to be a tool anymore and play their games. I'm done. It's all evil. Pure ######6 evil.

It's ALL terrorism and "COUNTERterrorism" . Well, I'm no longer interested in counterterrorism. I wish I never cared.

Ok. I dont know anything about your situation, but I doubt your family is being turned against you. If they to were targeted they would be talking about it. just my opinion on the subject.

I hope you find something that works out for you. What ever is happening to you is no fun, its not right.

ashc wrote:

Riccola wrote:

ashc wrote:*Dissociates back into my world*



-- Fri Jun 27, 2014 1:36 pm --



*Repeats "I refuse to be a tool, I refuse to be a tool, I refuse...."*

*Dissociates into safe place*

Is this what they are saying? I guess I dont follow?

Who? The stalkers?

No. I am saying I don't want to be some tool. I'm sick of being a guinea pig for every intelligence agency in the USA. Let them play with someone else. It's like I'm a soccer ball. I feel like I'm getting kicked back and forth with counterintelligence tactics.

I'm beginning to feel just as betrayed as I did a year ago but perhaps more. I always mention feeling like a soccer ball in my CAR due to all this stalking, then my mom suddenly happens to use the same verbiage last night when describing those kinds of feelings. Too coincidental. I think they have my family against me now, too. I usually keep it to myself, but this is it. I can't take this anymore . They have EVERYONE against me, and who knows what they're telling my family! They don't even believe me . Anyway, I refuse to be a tool anymore and play their games. I'm done. It's all evil. Pure ######6 evil.

It's ALL terrorism and "COUNTERterrorism" . Well, I'm no longer interested in counterterrorism. I wish I never cared.

Your family is not against you, they just dont beleive you. Lies and rumors are told to people that may know you but not your direct family, because the perps know very well that a family member will not beleive the lies and it would blow their cover. If anything they mind controll your family to not beleive you and think your crazy, but as far as them telling lies to your family thats highly unlikely. You must understand how these black ops work, last thing they want is their cover blown. Ive been going through this $#%^ for 10 years, my first psych ward stay in the US one of the supposed mental health techs who was taking me to the ward in a friggen wheel chair was really an undercover agent, how do I know this? He tried to get me to "confess" to "drug dealing" by telling me a judge wanted to see me. I of course am no idiot and asked him for what? For smoking some pot? He said no for selling it.... I then replied to him in a very mocking way once I realized who he really was "ohh yeah 2 joints a day makes me a lot of money..." He then frowned at his colleage as if they were disapointed that I really was NOT a dealer and showed me a badge and a tape recorder. I do not know if the badge was federal or local. Alll I know is that it was a setup. In the psych ward itself 80% of the patients I suspect were perpetrator moles, they seemed to know a lot about me considering they were strangers and also assumeda lot, of course by the lies and rumors that were probably told to them as well as the bribes they got to do that to me.

After that incident I was totally discredited and no one beleives anything I say anymore, my mother patronizes me and doesnt want to beleive what happen, even the badge and tape recorder she just tells me its over and get on with your life, but I suspect shes just in denial. My father and his family are so retarded they think I hallucinated all that.

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Is this what they are saying? I guess I dont follow?[/quote]

Who? The stalkers?

No. I am saying I don't want to be some tool. I'm sick of being a guinea pig for every intelligence agency in the USA. Let them play with someone else. It's like I'm a soccer ball. I feel like I'm getting kicked back and forth with counterintelligence tactics.

I'm beginning to feel just as betrayed as I did a year ago but perhaps more. I always mention feeling like a soccer ball in my CAR due to all this stalking, then my mom suddenly happens to use the same verbiage last night when describing those kinds of feelings. Too coincidental. I think they have my family against me now, too. I usually keep it to myself, but this is it. I can't take this anymore . They have EVERYONE against me, and who knows what they're telling my family! They don't even believe me . Anyway, I refuse to be a tool anymore and play their games. I'm done. It's all evil. Pure ######6 evil.

It's ALL terrorism and "COUNTERterrorism" . Well, I'm no longer interested in counterterrorism. I wish I never cared.[/quote]

Your family is not against you, they just dont beleive you. Lies and rumors are told to people that may know you but not your direct family, because the perps know very well that a family member will not beleive the lies and it would blow their cover. If anything they mind controll your family to not beleive you and think your crazy, but as far as them telling lies to your family thats highly unlikely. You must understand how these black ops work, last thing they want is their cover blown. Ive been going through this $#%^ for 10 years, my first psych ward stay in the US one of the supposed mental health techs who was taking me to the ward in a friggen wheel chair was really an undercover agent, how do I know this? He tried to get me to "confess" to "drug dealing" by telling me a judge wanted to see me. I of course am no idiot and asked him for what? For smoking some pot? He said no for selling it.... I then replied to him in a very mocking way once I realized who he really was "ohh yeah 2 joints a day makes me a lot of money..." He then frowned at his colleage as if they were disapointed that I really was NOT a dealer and showed me a badge and a tape recorder. I do not know if the badge was federal or local. Alll I know is that it was a setup. In the psych ward itself 80% of the patients I suspect were perpetrator moles, they seemed to know a lot about me considering they were strangers and also assumeda lot, of course by the lies and rumors that were probably told to them as well as the bribes they got to do that to me.

After that incident I was totally discredited and no one beleives anything I say anymore, my mother patronizes me and doesnt want to beleive what happen, even the badge and tape recorder she just tells me its over and get on with your life, but I suspect shes just in denial. My father and his family are so retarded they think I hallucinated all that.[/quote]

Even if that never actually took place, some psychiatrists are so good at getting into people's heads they can get a person to believe anything. Even experiences they never had. In your case I wouldn't know, but I know for a fact a shrink can do anything to ones mind. I lived through it.

Getting people to believe you is hard. Even those who are open to reasoning are reassured by the expert psychiatrists its just part of an illness they have diagnosed.

Truth is to this day, no one truly knows why a patient hears voices. And patients who do are in all varying degrees of functioning. Some can even score perfectly on reality testing yet hear voices. So who really knows? The problem with psychiatry is assumption. Psychiatrists are trained through such narrow theories that it distorts their own way of thinking. To them everyone is sick, and all human emotions, intellect, experience, memories are the byproduct of some grand defect only they can see, only they can treat.

Even if that never actually took place, some psychiatrists are so good at getting into people's heads they can get a person to believe anything. Even experiences they never had. In your case I wouldn't know, but I know for a fact a shrink can do anything to ones mind. I lived through it.

Getting people to believe you is hard. Even those who are open to reasoning are reassured by the expert psychiatrists its just part of an illness they have diagnosed.

Truth is to this day, no one truly knows why a patient hears voices. And patients who do are in all varying degrees of functioning. Some can even score perfectly on reality testing yet hear voices. So who really knows? The problem with psychiatry is assumption. Psychiatrists are trained through such narrow theories that it distorts their own way of thinking. To them everyone is sick, and all human emotions, intellect, experience, memories are the byproduct of some grand defect only they can see, only they can treat.

Aint no shrink convinced me of anything, I can see through their bs. What happen to me was real ok?