Evil

I have found that a lot of mental problems are created or added to by the environment I come from. subtle changes can cause my brain to handle things. or learn things in dysfunctional ways to the point of mental illness. To the point of being 100% disabled. The pressure level of the dysfunction can determine how blown out Im going to become...

I have felt that I was Schizophrenic from my condition. Not because I was Schizophrenic in the traditional sense, but because I was so mentally gone. I was equivalent to hearing voices all the time, seeing things that weren't their, not remembering who I was, or where I came from. Not being able to connect to anyone or anything. Not being able to respond to anything or anyone. IT all came from being over exposed to the evils in this society... having or being forced to deal with them, being overwhelmed by them. Having no safe place to run, having no safe people that cared about me to be safe with.. My mind re arranged itself, left reality and never came back...

In the future it may be called a cultural condition and not a mental one. I don't know... IT was evil not a med imbalance that started all of the problems..

Hey Omnicell,

I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way. I certainly think that you're right that social, economic and cultural conditons affect people's mental states. It can certainly be very difficult to live in a world that seems to be full of evil influences including greed, intolerance, apathy and hatred.

I hope that your okay and that the horribleness of the world doesn't get you too down. I'm sure there is a safe place in the world for you and that people care about your wellbeing even if you have yet to discover it/them.

Take care Omnicell,

-A person who cares

Hi Omnicell,

In certain cultures it's accepted and the person going through it is looked at as a shaman, healer, or other type of spiritual person.

I do find that the things you describe as evil can get me down if I'm not careful, too.

You speak about the problems in the past tense - have you recovered? If so, how?

Hope all is well with you.

could be true. did a worm crawl in your ear when you were a kid?

I feel like that too.
I am told it is not normal though (read delusional to some extent) to think like that.
I think it is the other way around.
They all believe they are some sort of magical empaths that do good, while their acts are evil.
That I call delusional.

OMNICELL wrote:Having no safe place to run, having no safe people that cared about me to be safe with.. My mind re arranged itself, left reality and never came back...

what country are you from?

you first need a stable base to find your inner peace, and then perhaps you can begin to create a new world for yourself. dont look back, keep your eyes on the road in front of you.

good luck to you!

I have allot of CPTSD problems ( dissociative disorder ) and their adjoining dysfunctions. Agoraphobia, clinical depression, social avoidance disorder. And others.. Not so many voices and hallucinations. In fact its probably more paranoia and dissociative amnesia mixed with anxiety that is causing most of the problems.

I am aware of the priestess at the alters and their schizoaffective interpretations to a hungry lonely audience. Some believe God may be the other side of ones brain within a Schizophrenic mind. One side of the brain comes up with the question. The voices from the other side of the brain answer the question.

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I had to hang on for a long long time in order to get help.. Ive seen allot.. Im simply reporting what Ive seen and the effects all of this has on society.. Im simply telling part of my story... Im telling the truth.

It helps me a great deal to get out the truth as I see it.. To let out the pain or the truth of my experience. That is why Im here. Im not here looking for advice all the time.. Instead Im sharing my experience strength and hope.

As of the present. I have great anxiety warehouses stationed on miles of beach front. And they turn their strobe lights on a little to often..

In General tho, I am much better now.

OMNICELL wrote: Im not here looking for advice all the time.. Instead Im sharing my experience strength and hope.

it is appreciated.

OMNICELL wrote:As of the present. I have great anxiety warehouses stationed on miles of beach front. And they turn their strobe lights on a little to often..

your words are pleasing, even if they indicate some internal struggle.
i wish you well.

OMNICELL wrote:I have felt that I was Schizophrenic from my condition. Not because I was Schizophrenic in the traditional sense

But because you took those drugs in the warehouses of your soul, you long for some distant shore to call home. You will never find it and long for God, in the twilight world of the land of nod.