by OMNICELL » Mon Nov 28, 2011 8:09 pm
averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent is caused by what? By using drugs? Its caused by being depressed. Rage , resentment, chemical imbalance. The depression is caused by the society I live in. Which can be many things. It can be the PTSD society in my mind, or the family I come from or am around. It can be the negative violent nature of the world around me. Present, near and distant. It can be the constant news that flashes from a TV screen that tells me to live in terror or I wont be a popular person. I wont fit in. This is and can be an evil world. Meaning others setting me up to take a fall. Personality disorders looking to take a bite out of me. Set me up to cause me pain.. This kind of disjointed relational life interaction causes a fear of interaction to the point of dissociation. At the point of involuntary dissociation, one can no longer interact successfully with people. I know, I am this way.. Always slowly getting better..
laziness can actually be a safety mechanism not to react. Now, why would I be like this in this world.!! Is their any reason to feel unsafe in this world. Real unsafty or imagined. Physically or psychologically. Hmmmm. I would not recommend an alien to this planet. " Go back to mars". This place ant safe for humans.
What is the ultimate place for some that refuse activity to be safe. They end their life. That is why one eats the Prozac like candy. So that wont happen.
Society is causing laziness. society is causing trauma. Its causing 10 year old children to find safety from being bullied in schools by hanging themselves in their mothers closets. Society is causing its own bankruptcy. Society is causing its own brutality. People are being treated like animals in a spiritual world. Their suppose to be treated like people in a people world.
look at those in a Nazi prison camp. How did they act after a days treatment by the Nazis. How did they act, They didn't play tennis.! They were a bit nervous after dinner and the fact they might not be alive the next day. After a days trauma. They were " Inactive"
The lucky ones that got out alive after the prison camp affair didn't work at all. Instead they floated a boat around the world and stayed insane the rest of their lives. Not all, but enough to write about.
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Trauma is probably more responsible for a persons inactivity. Its not safe to even think. It causes to much trauma or it takes a person back into trauma-land and they are re-traumatized.. hope deferred, a broken heart ,a broken mind, abandonment. That is what causes inactivity. Why would a smart person be apart of this life. common sense would dictate to hide. From everything....
Depression itself is hope deferred.
I have been on both sides of the camp. I am much more productive then I used to be. I have direction of sorts. I do physical activity, I force myself to go to 12 step meetings. None of this is easy. Im much better then I used to be and Im God directed. At some-point in my recovery process I asked God what I should do with my life. His answer. " Stop the inactivity and become active". Then he pointed to two sticks on the ground. He told me to pick them up and create something and not to argue with him about it.
Pills or no pills, when its time for a person to begin the recovery process, at some point they will learn activity... The major problem; people cant get connected back to life.!!, or they refuse to do a recovery process.
Im not responsible for mental illness. However, Im responsible for the recovery that may bring a bit of sunshine in it....
Dissociative Disorder
CPTSD
AVPD; Social avoidance
Previous/Psychotic clinical Depression
agoraphobia
obsessive/compulsive disorder
Evolution didn't stop my death, God did .....Now what?