Truth [Article]

This is something i wrote for the community, i posted it on another topic, but i think it would be the most helpful here. it is about lies and truth. and i believe this is the way to purify how you feel and in truth and practice. let me know what you think and let me know if it helps you.

saying you're happy infront of people when you're not is a lie. but to make an art of being happy when you're not is self-destructive. but the only reason to be happy when you're not is to take a canvas and paint over it. resulting in two lairs. the lair above is temporary, and can be destroyed. the layer below is your true feelings, and the only reason you would escalate to the next level is to sacrifice pain. in life, you create stack after stack on top of each other, resulting in a huge lair of unfinished happiness. these are levels with no walls, but deep infinite pits of end like the earth when it was flat, but there is no way to explore any further because there is no will to. it is finite, but only by the limits of your will. a correct reality would have infinite elaboration. and to take one jewel out of a desert is what you may be doing in life. it isn't pricing everything as priceless, but pricing one thing over other things (grouped)

lying about how happy you are makes you sad once you leave your lie of a reality,
once you face it you will feel like you have "come down" from a high, and are now sober, not dragged down from being high resulting in sadness, but back at a base level, like your life is apartments and you're now one story below where you thought you were, and it's living that truth until your at the very bottom, which is rock bottom, where all the promises you have made to yourself half-fulfilled will no longer sorrow you.

building a room is like limited happiness. it can only be so happy. it can only go so well. you know it's boundaries, because every day is the same, if you keep your hopes up for something just for the sake of happiness (aka trying to get happiness) then you are doing the wrong thing, for happiness isn't an object. and having happiness is an impossible thing to obtain.

if you have an idea, and it says "this will give you happiness for the sake of it's moment" then it is a lie, because you cannot recreate the same happiness twice. the more you do it, the lower it will go. because you are comparing what used to be to now, which is taking the same things that led up to that happiness, and expecting them to still be there the next time. but once you get there, you will notice they will not be there that time, that we are working with new props now. and happiness isn't an idea that's found for the sake of the idea, it's not something you can "have" plenty of and be satisfied. instead, it's a color. described after observing what's already there. for it's already there, so to measure happiness is to make yourself sad in observation.

to say something is something is wrong. you don't judge things like how they can effect you, instead use them

this is thinking that goes on through almost everyone's lives. it's hard to believe that it's fear driven, but it is. the fear of something going the wrong way


saying you're unhappy for others is wrong. if you say you're sad and want comfort, or help, or understanding, then you are making yourself a lie. because comfort, help, or understanding is a "object" something that you sacrifice your happiness for, and to say you are unhappy is also a lie. it is just a form of laziness. this means you took an idea, something which is unpercievable by you, only created in part (and can not be percieved any further) which means it could be 40% as happy as it should be. or even less. if you feel you deserve of the whole world one "tiny" piece of this happiness (feeling you deserve it), then you are searching for a lie. because once you meet this happiness, you will realize you are not able to accept it. and once you feel this happiness, it will mean nothing. a percieved illusion far away, met close.

if you look for something it isn't there. if you look back, it is there. the truth is just stating that something is there when it was.

to say something was there when it wasn't is a lie. to tell yourself something was there when it wasn't is a lie. to tell yourself something wasn't there when it was is a lie. and to tell yourself something was more than it was, or less than it was, is also a lie.

if you hold on to one lie, then you will realize you have made a huge archipelago of lies, tied into one continent. once you tell the truth, these feelings of holding on will let go of each other like plates on the earth, and crack apart and drift apart and fade away and melt like glaciers into the ocean.

but this continent is the feeling of existance. this continent feels like it is all you have. and all this continent is is a huge mass of lies. every lie you have ever said. but all of these lies are warped reflections. they make you feel like you "have something". like you own it. like it's yours. this sounds good at first, because it feels good to own something. but you'll realize that owning something is valuing something over something else. by creating values you are putting something else over something else, devaluing something else to say that it is better than something else, that what "you have" is better because you have it.

this is egotistical and taking two ideas and valuing them, is sacrificing two things at once. resulting in a smaller piece of your world, and the middle, sacrificed, ignored, and turned on, the happiness you sought. unable to be percieved.

but taking something and valueing it at 60%, and taking something else and valuing it at 40%, is a lie. this sacrifices some happiness. but it is making these sacrifices that makes you feel like you have "made a decision" and this is a gratifying feeling. or a very rough task. seeing yourself make a decision with confidence makes you feel happy. but seeing yourself make a decision without confidence and seeming like you have confidence, is a lie.
but this confidence is the very basics of a lie, because confidence is like getting prepared for war, and you feel like you can win. you do not know how what you have to face, but you feel like you can win. this battle plan is like karma for your life. if you are talking to someone, and think you can win, then you are wrong. if you are talking to someone, and think you can lose, you are wrong. if you are talking to someone, you are right.

if your life is a win lose situation, then the winning is your egotistical desires of lie, and your loss is your enemy, who is empty and nothing. unpercieveable. this battle creates a one sided arguement. because the enemy doesn't exist. but you wish to have en enemy. and defeating this enemy is a lie. because the enemy is fake, and the lie is real. but the lie is the only happiness

if you make your mind your friend, you will notice you are a liar. to see a thought for it's frostyness, for it's icing on the cake, is to take something, say it's worth more than it is (whether it is or not) and taking this hope, for nothing. it is seeking nothing, for nothing. making nothing seem like something, just for the sake of seeking it, is like creating a mirage, and going after it. but you realize that you will understand, taking nothing and making it something can be an art form itself. but taking something and making it something more, creates fake happiness. this happiness dissappears. the lair below is truth, which soon you will realize the only happiness from the lie was the lie itself. the reason why it's "fake" and will in the end be the only remaining thing understood in truth and the only happiness you will gain from it. the methodology. the happiness and reasoning put into the lie. only the lie.

boredom is why you take nothing and make it something. to make nothing have value. it is the root of all evil. to be bored you have to take something and make it nothing. if you make an art form of making nothing something, and seeking it, then you will find nothing, and only feel the persuit of happiness. this doesn't mean you will find happiness, this only means you will find the persuit.

once you realize the value of your lies, you will understand why they are lies. for happiness.

if you feel sad and hold in your feelings, then you are taking pride, and holding in how you feel. this pride idolizes other things the wrong way. putting guilt into the very things you feel you need pride for. this means you have to cast away something as if it were nothing, the opposite of pride, like littering. and to idolize something you cannot have, right beyond grasp. being proud of something you cannot have, and being ashamed of something you can have.

pride is just the feeling of deserving something you cannot deserve. to show that sadness and longing. pride is feeling like someone else has what you desire, and your pride holds it as yours. for the sake of others. so by values, you feel like you have this, but it is not yours in truth, because you cannot face it, which leads to shame. To show happiness and short-met rejoice towards something you should not rejoice.

shame is feeling like you do not deserve anything that you could earn.
shame is the opposite of pride. to feel like you have something that is not there which is already there. because you feel you deserve it so bad. this is a warped perception. to hide sadness and longing towards something you should rejoice.

there should be no pride or shame. there is only shame because you cannot have something and lie to yourself saying you deserve it. who you are is your egotistical self, only measured by time. shame is made by not having enough time, and making yourself weak. taking this same weakness which is like a blood vessel or your spine, clenched and weak, feeling many many small bursts of sadness. and in pride feeling a huge burst of fake happiness, not being able to accept yourself. this is a lie.

the happiness is a lie, and the sadness is a lie. if you had no pride or shame, then you would have truthfulness in your expressions and would take away your constraints, like a body with blood vessels open, and allow easier flow of happiness.

to face shame, just show your true feelings, not overcoming a huge obstacle, but see it for what it really is. because if you overcome a huge obstacle for others, then you will only climb the obstacle for others. if you undergo a huge obstacle for yourself, you realize you are the only one who is being hurt. and pride and shame are just seeing a huge obstacle, and either climbing up the obstacle (pride), or running down it fast (pride), for others.

and to say there is no obstacle there is shame, once you realize it. but happiness from others is only a mirror, only a reflection, only a mirage of happiness, and this happiness is false. because you are only laughing at the flattery you have given by making it seem like an obstacle and easily beating it, or fleeing from it, with ease.

and in truth, you are making something seem easy, and laughing at it, for the purpose of temporary happiness. and making something difficult, and crying about it, for the purpose of infinite sadness.

if you instead made no obstacle, others can follow this lie, and will laugh and cry themselves. and these obstacles, lies, are the only reason there is boredom. and the more you laugh at something because it's fake, the more you will cry about something because it's real, the more you will feel shame and pride. when really there is no obstacle at all.

being truthful about what you see is all there is and the key to true happiness. which is truth, calling everything as it is. not a little more, not a little less, but exactly as it is.

and the only reason it is more or less, is because of your own hope, or despair. two things you should not have.
confidence is just early happiness.
doubt is just late sadness.
pride is just the feeling of deserving more than you already have.
shame is just the feeling of already having something you're deserving more.
a lie is just to say something is more or less than it is

and just remember, all lies are for the sake of happiness.