
[/quote]seanetal wrote:You were the one whining that I twisted yuour words. I had kept your name out of this entire thing until your whining. The fact is that what you sent me in context is exactly what was posted. You know what, you want to see my email to you up here... again fine.
I've had enough of dealing with you. Here's my email in its entirity. Now you have called me a liar in your latest email... show me where I've lied.[/b]My email to Shrink which I intended to remain private
You asked my story, well here it is.
I hope you'll pardon my dry tone while writing this but it is something I've had to relive several thousand times in flashbacks that are sometimes seen, sometimes heard, sometimes felt... and once in a while involve all my senses to the point where I have little reality left.
I was 5 years old when a worker at the school where I attended Kindergarten began molesting me. This went on almost daily while I was at school getting progressively worse. Eventually it involved him raping me anally during one of the recesses almost every day. We moved away that summer but this went on for 8 of the 9 months I was at that school. Some weeks it was 3 days, others it was 5 days.
As I mentioned above my flashbacks involve more than just remembering details. They have involved my body and mind reliving the events so real that on more than one occassion bruises have developed with no explanation. It is possible that during the flashback I thrashed around trying to avoid what I knew was coming but this happened once while I was strapped down during a hospital stay.
I have been strapped to a bed for 36 hours being watched by a camera while under psych meds. I have been handcuffed as a result of accidentally injuring a nurse who approached me from behind while I was having a flashback. I was also accosted and beaten while in the hospital by two other patients. I have experienced your version of "Psychiatric Rape" while I was 28, but I experienced the real thing when I was 5.
They are nothing alike, trust me.
I also experience the same things nearly every time I tell this story. Assholes saying things like "But you're a guy, how can you be raped?" "So you must be gay now." "Bet you enjoyed it too #######1."
You said you wanted to look into my eyes. I don't get that luxury too often because the anxiety I deal with still prevents me from looking directly at people I talk to.
whero wrote:Yes it is biased. The mods all have the same opinion and never allow any controversy which is in my opinion a bad thing!
whero wrote:Yes it is biased. The mods all have the same opinion and never allow any controversy which is in my opinion a bad thing!
SmallTalkRed wrote:whero wrote:Yes it is biased. The mods all have the same opinion and never allow any controversy which is in my opinion a bad thing!
whero! ouch!
The amount of traffic-The PsychForums gets, it takes upon a life of it's own really.
peace.
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