lab rats

I feel like a lab rat. -m being foced to take meds I don't want to (2000 depakote, 750 quetiapine, 50 sertraline and diazepam) I've been under services for almost 3yrs now and can't escape them have been on countless diff meds and hospitalized too many times to remember. Dx BPD, psychotic illness (which I don't agree with) and substance misuse although I been clean of drugs since Aug and alcohol since Oct.

- feel trapped victimised and know they are all conspiring against me and trying to brainwash me to make me out to be crazy. Just a lab rat in a health system that works for the government. They want rid of me they tried killing me by making me commit suicide but now I know how to block their mind control and now they are using drugs to kill me. They have to do it indirectly so as not to link it back to them.

This lab rat is getting off the wheel

My thoughts: From the way you talk about "mind-control", it sounds like you suffer from some kind of delusions/distorted perceptions. If you are being FORCED to take medication, then I'd assume that people of power/position have determined that without meds, you are a danger to yourself and or others. Do you think that you are a danger to yourself/others when not taking meds?

I am detained under mental health act section 3. I voluntarily came into hos initially as I was actively suicidal was having a BPD crisis. It was meant to be a 72 hour admission Max but they sectioned me they tricked me. I'm not a danger to myself or others now and anytime I think I am I seek help.

I'm being detained as I am a danger to their plans for total power and control. They want rid of me but first they are trying to excert my power to communicate with the devil and ultimately they want us both dead.

It sounds like you want to be released from the hospital and not be forced to take medication. In my opinion, from the limited info I have on your situation, your best bet might be to take the meds until the officials release you. That might sound horrible, and I'm sorry your forced into being drugged. No one deserves to have meds crammed down their throat. However, that might be your only way out of this.

I'm assuming you've been diagnosed with schizophrenia or something related to it. I also read some of your other forum posts. You seem to believe that these doctors/hospital workers are part of some government conspiracy against you because you know too much or have some kind of powers. I can tell you right now, that that is NOT true. They're just regular people who are trying to make money by doing their job. Some of them may actually believe they are helping you. My opinion is that you probably exhibit schizophrenic behavior, which to me means that your thoughts/the way you PERCEIVE the world around you is distorted, and that your paranoia that the hospital workers are out to get you and this thing with talking to the devil are probably examples of your messed up perception. I DON'T think that having distorted thought/feelings alone justify's cramming meds down someone's throat.

Remember, even though you may think/feel otherwise, these doctors who are keeping you here are probably not out to get you, and they're certainly not involved in a conspiracy. They must have some reason to believe your a threat to yourself or others. While your thoughts sound rather bizzare, and your behavior is probably "strange", I don't think they could keep you locked up solely because of that.

If your being detained, depending on where you live, you may still have certain rights. I don't know if you have already looked into the legalities of your detainment, but I know where I live, if you are being detained against your will in a mental institution and or being forced to take medications that you don't want, you can legally contest the doctors decisions. It doesn't mean for sure you'll be released or allowed to stop taking the drugs, but its an option. Look into the legalities of your situation.

I'm in uk appealed against my detention still waiting for a date. I just don't know what to think atm what is real and what isn't. I'm convinced but the more everyone keeps saying I'm not well and psychotic a little more doubt is creeping in. But then I convince myself its them just tricking me brainwashing me and weakening me. Thanks for replying

I'm not really a forum user so I'm probably posting incorrectly but I was wondering if this forum is still being read/replied to?

I'm hugely suspicious of most people and suspect that this website might be just another method used by the people I'm fighting to gather information about my current mental state but, I believe I am being conspired against by my family, friends and with the help of the government. I don't take meds, I'm not in hospital but I am in contact with a mental health care team and find that after my first few dealings with them I suspect they're are part of the conspiracy. Does any of this sound familiar?

Yes this all sounds familiar. This board is just a trap. You can tell from the people posting (copy cat etc) that they have never been on antipsychotics. They are quite clever in that they talk about there being mental illness, but I have been in the hospital for long periods of time and can tell you that most of the people in there are perfectly normal.

I've talked at length to people diagnosed with schizophrenia, bipolar, delusional disorder etc and there is nothing wrong with them. It's junk. There is no such thing as a chemical imbalance in the brain causing mental illness. Obviously once your on antipsychotics you then have a chemical imbalance in the brain.

The reason for this is that most of them are gangstalkers including the staff. The rest of the patients are targetted by the likes of Mi5 to get them into the system to be psychologically tortured. You'll find that the staff are working for the likes of Mi5. The likes of Mi5 monitor the internet connection of the targets to see if they fall for traps like this. They really love their work, probably think they are God's army. In fact what you're going to find out is that Mi5 were responsible for the abduction of Madeleine McCann.

In my case they psychologically tortured me by putting it in my mind that they were going to take my brain out and keep it alive forever. They've done this before. I came across a story of a guy who shot his Doctor because he thought exactly the same thing. The strange thing is that an agency now tells me that they are doing just that at the South Uist Missile Range (Outer Hebrides).

A few years ago they had me living in fear and I wouldn't have dared posted negative comments on a site like this.

Having said that the UK owe me one now because I gave them information about Saad al Hilli and his plans for a dirty bomb attack in the UK. This enabled them to assassinate him. This I can prove by directing you to this post. http://www.psychforums.com/schizophrenia/topic93302.html. See if you can spot his name down the left hand column.

Anyway I've got a heller of my own called Oscar.

Catch you later.

They target the undesirables but they particularly hate paedophiles and do the brain psychological torture on them. The psychiatrists are atheists which means they think that they can do anything because there will be no day of reckoning for them.

I've got the evidence because I'm an uber hacker.

So if you're living in fear now is the time to attack because we have serious back up.

-- Sat Sep 22, 2012 8:22 pm --

They target the undesirables but they particularly hate paedophiles and do the brain psychological torture on them. The psychiatrists are atheists which means they think that they can do anything because there will be no day of reckoning for them.

I've got the evidence because I'm an uber hacker.

So if you're living in fear now is the time to attack because we have serious back up.

Thanks for replying to my post. I was somewhat hoping that the original poster might reply, but again thank you for your input.

I would not be in the least bit surprised to learn that sites such as this where monitored by various government organisations. You have made some interesting points but I'll look on them sceptically as I can't verify your identity or authenticity and as we all know the intelligence service use multiple false persona on the internet to manipulate people, organisations and the press. If they're doing it then almost certainly other people who are not part of the intelligence community would.

Seeing as you seem to have some insight into this sort of thing perhaps you know of any detectives or journalists who might be interested in hear from people like us?

Again thank you for posting.

Psychiatrists seem midly psychopathic to me. I've seen grown men (50+) almost crying because of medications and nobody gives a $#%^. Antipsychotics are horrible. Worse then most delusions. It's definitely possible to live without antipsychotics and I found that once I got off my anti psychotics I was a lot happier then then before I got medications, although while I was on them I was roughly as happy or worse. Just fight the good fight, try to think lucidly without meds if you get off them. Imho there's probably not as much suverilance as you think there is. Although I personally believe in spirits which can see most things. But in the real world I just think there isnt enough manpower to perpetuate an all out prison society. At least not yet.