Anyone had Suicidal Thoughts on Drugs?

I'm just wondering how many people experienced the 'suicidal thoughts/urgings' that can come along as side effects to most if not all psychiatric medication.

Ever since I was given Celexa, Lamictal, Risperdal, Abilify etc. I've had on and off suicidal thoughts. It's so confusing not knowing if they are 'me' or the 'drugs'. It makes it very hard for my therapist to make a diagnosis that way. When I increased the Risperdal, I had suicidal thoughts the next day and was so dissociated I couldn't drive. The second week, I actually 'did' attempt. So they took me off Risperdal and onto Abilify. But honestly, I just want to get off everything and see how I 'really' am. Anyone else had this problem?

Abilify made my suicidal thoughts worse. I went from the occasional frustrated thought (say, once a week for example) to nearly every waking moment.
I agree with your thought of emptying out the medicine cabinet. You need a base line, otherwise the new drugs may only be trying to heal the side affects of the old drugs that probably went away on their own when you stopped taking the old drugs, and had nothing to do with the new drugs, only now you have NEW side effects from the new drugs.
it would take a couple of months to get 'clean' but talk to your doc about it, and decide.

Long story short, I was raised by a sociopathic alcoholic mother--who when she could no longer manipulate and control me, she dumped me off at a psychiatric unit.

I was started on zoloft for depression. The zoloft made me feel irritible. I was also angry at being confined. So I acted out, out of spite. So they changed the diagnoses to bipolar disorder and added a plethora of more drugs. After about two years of this, I was on 11 different psychotropic drugs, I could barely function because I was so overmedicated.

I made a couple of suicide attemptes while I was faithfully taking the rpescription drugs and still in a very bad family situation.

I never made ana ttempt when I was not taking medication.

Anyway, I got away from my family. I was able to sort my problems from theirs. I am medication free and I am learning to grieve for the lost child hood and teen years. Although I am dealing with the pain and suffering of many years now, that was supressed, I feel better now than I ever did on those psychiatric drugs.

I've met a lot of people during the times I was in and out of the psych. unit, and maybe 5 or 10% of the people I met actually benefited from those drugs. I think it should be a last resort--especially for children and adolescents. I also think that people should be educated to the physiological and psychological effects of these drugs before they are prescribed. There's too much ignorance in the doctor/patient relationship--on both ends.

This is such a dangerous feeling subject for me.

I'd lived most of my life to about 40 just being a melancholy person with bouts of rage every few months. I never injured anyone, and afterward, I felt quite degraded to have simply lost it. They started off with Haldol at 200 mg, not a clinical dose, and it helped me a lot. No more rages. I took it a couple years and one morning got up and realised that none of the problems around me had gotten any better, so I stopped taking it so I could address them.

I went along for a few years with no drugs and then about 2000, they put me on Paxil but that did not work, so they tried Welbutrin. Later, they put me on Celexa too, and finally added Trazidone. Celexa will really make you FAT. I am still trying to get off the last 25lbs.

I have once again been off all drugs for about 4 years, having been through a painful divorce and changing gender Male to Female. For me, the problem was that I was trying to live as a Man when I was a woman inside. Now I am a happy, bubbly, silly, fun loving woman. No more rages.

I really think that in many ways, the psych drugs made me worse and ruined my life. If however, you have a bonafide chemical imbalance and need to take them, you need to think hard about being non compliant.