by geckopaws » Wed Sep 15, 2010 2:49 am
Well, The reason I looked this up in the first place is obviously a suicide attempt with a mental breakdown. They also forced to have me take all these tests before they released me. Which I refused, and they would not let me go until I did. So when I finally got diagnosed it was the wrong diagnosis. In fact I don't have Schizoaffective, I was treated with drugs that were actually not good for me at all. And in various ways I have health problems because of this. Seizures, and Migraines and Arthritis. I in fact have DID from my post trauma with anxiety and depression. I mean I know DID is confused often in the early stages as Schizophrenia or some other psychotic disorder. Not that I'm actually downplaying the disease at all. But the fact that they misdiagnosed me for years and treated me with Antipsychotics is really bad. I mean that is malpractice right. And the fact that I exhibited physical and sexual abuse during that time other than restraints. I reported it at the time, but you know they never wrote it down and I really want to change the system. Luckily a bunch of other hospitals that I have been to have not treated me the same. It was only that one. Well I can say that one, because one of the patients sexually assaulted me in another ward. So other than those two wards I can say that all the other ones were really good.
And I'm glad the governor closed one of the state hospitals down because it was bad, and I think people with mental illnesses can live full healthy lives. I mean sometimes the need the occasional inpatient. But normally in places like Maryland restraints have been banned because they are cruel and unusual. There is always a number of people who can restrain the person and get them to calm down, but when they put them in isolation for hours at a time and neglect them, I think that is worse than prison. I am sorry to sound like a whining. I just felt that this was a good place to vent all the wrong doings of the mental health field. Because of the inpatient and the fact that I was forced to be in one so long, I missed out on a good year or two of my life when I could have been going to college and being successful at a job.
Of course I had to apply for disability. And then people wonder why I'm sucking off the government and when actually I'm trying to get off disability. I have all the credentials, a degree that I finished finally, but when they do a background check they find out I'm disabled. So now I have to go in some transitional work program. It sucks because I may not be to work for months at a time and people may not be hiring. It just sucks.
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