When you are able to clear the mind, this message will make sense, for many people can't stop the flow of ilegal thought, which is only the brain believing that is what you want since that thought is all you keep on the mind. When you are able to hold an open mind read this again.
A doctor in 1967 told my mother, "your son is retarded and there isn't any type of therapy for his condition." My mother has been in denial since I was born and refused to accept having a mentally chllenged son." Not that she was ashamed, she saw what happened to her grandmother, who the mind of a child, when she was placed in mental hospitals.
When I share my childhood story with psychologists, they really don't have an answer to how I did it. My psychologist said. "I don't know how you did it, but, you have been able to rewire your brain." What is it that makes it so hard to understand. *The five senses feeds the brain information, different parts of the brain sends the information to another part of the brain where the mind works. Now the mind takes this information to process and you get a feeling or thought.
Where you are getting in trouble has to do with thinking without having any information come in through your five senses. Imagine waking up tomorrow to say, this is a new day, I am a new me and have no connections with anybody or anything. Now its time to explore you five senses and find things to do which are creative. Just walk away from your pass and find new things to do with your new life.