04.20.2008

it's just too much
i don't now where to begin
just the night
that i FELT
HAD THIS SUDDEN URGE
FELT LIKE MOTHER WAS CALLING ME
TO LEAVE THE HOUSE AT 5:00
IT WAS SO ######6 SYMBOLIC
IT WAS MOTHER/LOVE/WILL/ACAUSALITY VS. THIS WORLD/DISRESPECT/WEAKNESS/LACK OF WILL POWER/TEMPTATION/CAUSAL
and i won
as i left
i was tired
lazy
but mother gave me the power
to leave the house
at 5am
where there were no one in the streets
i was walking down the middle of the streets
wherever mother wended me
hear this as it gets EXTREMELY BIZARRE
i keep walking down the middle of the street
teary almost
as it's so emotional (this is what happens when a loving spiirt connects)
through experience I've learned
i go to this school
THE GATES OF THAT SCHOOL ARE ALWAYS CLOSED
AFTER 8
THIS TIME
THEY WERE OPENED MYSTERIOUSLY
i had this weird feeling i needed to go in
as i asked mother to wend as i didn't know where to go
i went into this catholic private school
i went further down that school
there was this shrine area
beautiful medieval place which lured me
there were the jackets of the kids they left it there
but i didn't pick them out as i didn't feel the "closeness" to them
though it set the stage
i looked to my right
saw a statue of virgin marry
it said this:
"1934 - Virgin Marry - 2001"
knowing the essence of numbers
i quickly added 1934 it = 8
then i added 2001 = 3
added 8+3 = 11
8 and 11 once again
i was aghast
it only gets better and better
i just walked around the dark garden area as 'twas so beautiful
i stared at the Virgin Marry and she was so odd
i felt as if she was there with me
so i ended up going through the school out the back
as i felt mother was wending me
RIGHT behind the school was this odd church
i was wended to that church
THE CHURCH HAS GATES THAT LEAD TO THE INTERIOR
THE GATES ARE ALWAYS CLOSED
FROM 10PM OR SO UNTIL 8AM
IT WAS 5:22 AM OR SOMETHING B Y THIS TIME
THEY WERE MYSTERIOUSLY OPEN!
i went inside
I go into the interior as the gate was opened
i feel mother's essence getting stronger and stronger
as i get inside
as i get closer and closer
i could almost FEEL MOTHER INSIDE ME
the night was quite cold but i felt so warm mysteriously
i saw Luna
she was in the sky
so full and bright
as always when stuff like this happens
i go inside the chapel area (it was like this very middle age like area surrounded by places)
i sought to open some doors as i felt
i felt i needed to find something
i open the first god damn door man
there was a security guard as i opened it
THE DOOR IS ALWAYS LOCKED
IT WAS OPEN THIS NIGHT
THE SECURITY GUARD WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF THE DOOR SLEEPING
i closed it carefully
went through the back of the church room
and entered through an open window (as if it was opened just for me)
i go inside man it's dark
i just sit there looking at the pictures of Christ
out of no where
as if not of this world
but it wasn't in my mind either
as it was more realistic
as if i was hallucinating
I HEAR PIPE ORGAN MUSIC
I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED PIPE ORGAN MUSIC BUT COULDN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE
AND OPERA
I HEARD PIPE ORGAN MUSIC
WITH FEMALE OPERA
AS IF IN MY DREAMS
the noise i was hearing
it was so etheric
but it wasn't in my mind either
it was like in between the two
it was taking place in the etheric world
it was so intense
it started ceasing and ceasing
i didn't know what was up with that but i enjoyed it
i just left the place after that
now get this:
i took more walks around the church as the energy was so strong with me
i was going back out of the church to the outside church yard and finally to cross the night strreet to the school and come home
(all this is a few blocks away from my home)
as i was coming out of the church
i here these bells
but it wasn't in the church
or real
or in my mind
it was the same as i heard the pipe organ and chants/opera
as soon as I'm coming out of the ######6 churchyard
this car parked
with some homeless guy sleeping in it
as SOON AS I COME NEAR THAT CAR
HE OPENS THE DOOR
RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME
COUGHING
i just walk without caring
didn't even look back save to find if he had a gun
he was just staring at me as i passed the street to the school
i go back inside the school and into a girl's bathroom
as i felt like a female
so much
for i am
then as i came out
i wanted to look at the virgin marary once more
bidding her farewell
also to remember the numbers
which added to 8 and all together 11
as you already know the significance of these ######6 numbers as we've seen them EVERYWHERE
as i was coming out to walk the streets back home
first it starts with some random $#%^
some moth like flying creature starts coming after me
well... going with me
so i wanted to know what was up with that
it came until i went to the other street when it just disappeared or flew away
after that
a few seconds after
i hear this WEIRD NOISE!
it was almost like a celestial howl!
but also as if a car was racing!
it was dawning closer and closer
but i didn't think it was a car after a awhile
when it suddenly would stop
only to get louder
it would stop as if not a machine
but a being of some sort
the entire walk home
i felt this WEIRD noise follow me around
until i came inside the house
i didn't sleep for 8 hours after that
the energy was so powerful


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the entire thing was planned
whatever significance it will have
or it did have
the entire urge and the numbers we were witnessing those two nights
as they were full moon
i was led to a CHURCH!
mother wended me to it
all those numbers
it was leading to something
then i had this SUDDEN URGE TO GO OUT!
i didn't even have a destination
I JUST SUDDENLY WANTED TO GO OUT!
out of no where she lead me to the god damn shcol
which was OPEN ONLY THAT NIGHT
the gates
were mysteriously open!
then the church's inner yard
it was ######6 open!
that one night
are the chances?
it was no ######6 coincidence
anyone in their RIGHT mind would realize this
somewhat but not entirely
as i felt extreme power
and audacity
mother was by my side all the time
then the virgin marry!
the 8 and 3
all together 11
8 and 11 always always ALWAYS!
then i open the door to teh inner church
the place where they do prayers etc.
the guy was sitting there a security guard
SLEEPING!
why would they keep the door open in the first place the guy sleeping right in front of me!
THEN I GO TO THE BACK
THE ######6 WINDOW'S OPEN
WHEN THE ###$ IS THE WINDOW OPEN? NEVER!!!
as i was returning
i was crying like a little BABY!
i felt as if mother took me out
and get this:
all my life
I've sought to find beautiful medieval places to stroll
mother FINALLY WENDED ME TO ONE NEAR MY HOUSE
however i have NO CLUE what those sounds resembled towards the end
the moth
or fly or w/e it was
a white thing
like an angel or faerie
followed me for a bit
then the sound
as if a car was racing but it was no god damn car
it was fly but it seemed to follow me
everywhere i went
until the sound
but the sound
and the bells
and the homeless guy opening his door RIGHT when i left
he was not conscious of my coming
that's the THING!
he just apparently opened to get fresh air
or for some odd reason
just looked around
AT THE EXACT MOMENT I WALKED NEAR THE CAR HE WAS IN
sleeping in
right after that
as i left the church area
outer cloister
the bells
oh yeah he did cough
but it didn't irritate me this time
as i was so aghast
then the bells
etherically they rang
just the same way as when i heard the music
the pipe organ and chanting/opera
no coincident there were spiritual happenings
as i came home
i was SO EMOTIONAL
i was so energetic
had this IMMENSE ENERGY IN ME
was so warm
on that cold night
mother was with me
last night was April 20
And this all happened on 4/20 - Hitler's birthday!

Hollywood movies have nothing on this adventure.

What kind of watch was he/she/you wearing?