please help me out real quick. this is personal

i don't know why i feel this way.

sometimes when i see somebody succeed in life for example these real world road rules challengers i'm watching right now, i see them all making out and on tv and $#%^, i get the feeling of anger and get the feeling of robbing, hurting, and killing that person.

for example, i see a dude getting all these love from females. i get jealous and feel like hurting that person. i don't know why i get like that.

then when i get upset and irritated sometimes, i feel like hurting anybody even members of my own family. somebody please help me or at least try to hear me out. i don't wanna feel this way.

Hi Pazzy, did you post this thread in the wrong forum? If so I would get one of the mods to move it so you get more appropriate replies.

I'm sorry you feel the way you do. I get frustrated when I see guys on TV having it so much better than me too, though I don't particularly get angry at the person himself but more at myself. Try to look at the positive aspects and what you have gone through and achieved in your life and don't get caught up with what is on tv......all it will do is make you feel peripheral......when in fact what you experience day to day is far more valuable and better than what is advertised. What you go through is just as important as what celebs go through and equally as meaningful. TV makes you feel the way you do because that is how they make money.....but don't let them confuse you. Perhaps you should spend some time off the TV into yourself so you can remember how important you are.

You really don't have to feel like that. Instead of feeling jealous, look up to them, see what they're doing differently then you and try to be like them.

I felt like you for years. Then I started to see that many people have gotten a worse deal then I did. I saw the people in wheel chairs, the blind; I heard of people who died at an early age. In my small town, a few years ago a car full of teens all died in a car accident due to a snow storm. What has helped me with this idea has been getting old. Many people are successful for a time, then things change. They say this too, shall pass. Many guys with the great looking woman experience ugly separations.

JAmes

Also, in my opinion, I think that these networks try to sell the "ideal" life and make it appear that everything works perfectly when you use their product, or watch their shows, and they thrive on making the dream as believable as possible so their ratings will soar. Real life is a lot different than ABC, NBC, MTV, or HBO. There are no lines, no anticipating what the other person will do and act like it is a surprise, no premeditated emotions that gives you confidence because you know the future, just this moment and those you have had in the past. Producers for MTV want to sell something so they coach the "real life" guys and gals to "spice things up" because this is your "15 minutes of fame." They try to sell fame to the participants therefore bringing them to do things they would never in their life dreamed of doing without a camera showing their life to millions of people. Real life is real people experiencing things similar to your life, and different from your life. However, there are sites that have dedicated a lot of time in researching the desires of females when they search for that special guy. Perhaps you should "clothe" yourself with knowledge?

thanks for your responses and everything..

but what about the fact that i feel like hurting my feeling and people on the street. ya know... that ain't normal. there should be no reason why i'm thinking about trying to hurt or kill somebody in my family.

I think that you would like to hurt your family because you know that they would still love you, and accept you even if you hurt them. So, in a way, you trust them to understand your violence against them. I did the same thing emotionally to my own family. I was going through a horrible time with a few people that were NOT investing in my best interest. It really brought me to the point of utter lunacy. I couldn't trust my family. I actually thought, with the "helpful hand" of these maniacs, that my family was in on it against me. Therefore, I hurt them by not trusting them because they "fraternized with the enemy." They understand that I was going through a tough time back then and still love me. However, it still hurt them even though they won't mention it.
Sometimes I think that you HAVE to get the emotions out. If you can explain to your family that you are going through a tough time and you need to vent some things out of you, perhaps they will be better prepared for any pain it may cause them. Then you won't have to worry about some stranger retaliating. My thoughts.

envy is a sin