I suffer PTBS from the abuse at the hands of psycho workers

Hi there. I am from germany and seek out people that know how I feel and can offer a little help.
I have symptoms connected to ptbs, from the treatment I've got since 2013 until now from people that support or work directly in the industry of psychotherapy/psychiatry and pharmacy.

I was bullyed since early age by other kids and adults, for my hair and face. I was isolated. I suffer fetal alcohol syndrom and since teen years grave disease. But I found these illnesses myself ober the years, nobody in my environment cares. I was abandoned by my father what really hurt, and my mother put me into asylum for teens after I refused to go into school, because I was bullyed there.

Then I was put on fluoxetin and fluvoxamin, and over the years I was pressured to go to asylum or ambulant therapies. I am still unemployed, poor and suffer more health diseases. I am bullyed in my town too, nothing changed at all. I am now 30, and my mother is still in my life because I need someone who drives me and brings me food at least. She put me 2024 again in asylum and I was sedated and fixadet there, just because a b/tch there felt I was nerving others. I didn't do anything wrong. All of them where rightwing people. I can't go outside anymore because I am bullyed here and can't move because I am poor.

I don't know what to do, I hope every day I can die in my sleep, there is nothing good in life for me. My parents, my relatives, the stranger people all of them rejected me and put me into this life, where I don't have any friends, partners, help, opportunities, good experiences, skills...
I am just alone, the only thing I am happy about, is that I don't have kids and I am happy to be not addicted to psychodrugs. I see how ill these people are, they are just bullies. But I don't know what to do, I wish I could defend myself, but they always spread lies and manipulate. Many don't believe how I suffer, they don't care. I was always just the disabled ugly girl/hermaphrodit. I never had someone who listened and loved me. Everyday is #######5, I want revenge against my parents and the other bullies. So.many people simply look away and I can't go outside, I am stuck in this room and maybe if I am become homeless I can go and move but where?

Hello and welcome!

Could you explain PTBS? I'm having trouble decoding that.