Nowhere to go?

Ahoy old and new forum members and readers!
Probably some of the old folks remember me. I was active a couple of years ago. Some users found my posts interesting. Among different problems, I also described my mental state and my main problem- recursive flashbacks related to the profound and painful disillusion that had happened nine years ago. Some time ago, it seemed to me that the situation improved and my mind cured itself automatically. However, it has come back again, and it appears that it will cease to return only after the death. Yes, I have to be realistic.
I don't want to go into the detail since it is not something very interesting and unusual. Just convening this annoying state of mind I'm stuck to a situation of the past. It repeatedly comes to me in different ways in all minor details and I live it through again and again. Not surprisingly, the situation is long gone it is a "yesterday's paper" and people who participated into it keep living in new environments and dramatically changed. Nevertheless, I'm still in the past with the shadows of real people. It reminds me the state of mind of mathematician Nash perfectly depicted in the film "Beautiful Mind". He had imaginary "friends" which age had never changed though Nash was getting older. The only difference is that I have memories not delusions, or flashbacks, which become delusions, it's not easy to classify with certainty what it is.
But the purpose of my post in not a sort of lamentation. I'm not lamenting, although it may seem so. I'd like to draw everybody's attention to the fact of terrible solitude of a mentally harmed person. We're all perfectly aware that a psychiatrist is the last individual whom a person should consult getting into some psychological troubles because he/she will prescribe some poisons ironically called medicines. These substances destroy our bodies and souls and it is absolutely unwise to speak about your problems with a mental health professional putting yourself in such a lethal danger. This is not only the danger of contamination but also a threat of social stigmatisation. Well, this is obvious, this is a general truth.
So, there is there are the questions what to do? How to cure oneself? Where to go?
In addition, it appears that there is nothing can be done and no cure is possible and there is no place to go for help because nobody on this planet knows how brain works. No shamans, no Buddhist lamas, no Mexican nagvals, nobody. An all who tell that they know lie or live in an illusion of knowledge. One have to admit his own solitude and continue living in this hard world trying not to pay attention to your inner issues. Is it easy? Not at all, but this is my conscious choice to avoid any official and unofficial cure.
What are your opinions guys, am I right or wrong?
PS. Maybe you know some literature on meditation or something alike which can be helpful?

I recommend you learn and practice “Mindfulness.” “Radical Acceptance” is good, too. These are are Dialectical Behavior Therapy concepts. There are some decent DBT workbooks you can buy and work through it on your own or with a DBT therapist.

eterea107 wrote:I recommend you learn and practice “Mindfulness.” “Radical Acceptance” is good, too. These are are Dialectical Behavior Therapy concepts. There are some decent DBT workbooks you can buy and work through it on your own or with a DBT therapist.

Thank you very much for your piece of advice. I've looked through some materials on DBT concepts. It appears to be reasonable. I've revised a bit this concept for myself.
As a French philosopher Henri Bergson once noted "an adventurous life full of risks and dangers is the most desired way of living". At least, for a male I would add. (Hope this remark doesn't sound as a sexist). Since one has an option to lead a life feeling a full flavour of the present moment, no matter what is the reason of this sensation, neither a psychiatrist with his boring poisons, no a psychoanalyst with his stupid quasi religious interpretations are need.