Olddays14 wrote:Has anyone been able to successfully and safely wean off the meds and stay off of them for good? If so could you please share your experience? It would be very helpful. Thank you.
Yes.
I tapered off Zoloft first, and then tapered off Geodon.
I don't intend to take them or any psych meds ever again, but I'm still young and so I can't say I have been off them for a long time yet, but long enough for the withdrawal symptoms to wear off, and that's what makes most people go back on them, so I consider myself to have finally beaten them for good.
Zoloft was relatively easy to taper off. The main withdrawal symptoms were brain zaps where I felt shocking sensations in my head. Nice medicine, huh? And I got angry at the drop of a hat, for little or no reason at all. I also had crying spells, and I'm a guy. I was an emotional wreck. My anxiety went though the roof. But it all faded relatively quickly. Two months later, the real fun began...
I began to taper off Geodon and I noticed it immediately. I felt cold and then hot, cold and then hot, over and over. Cold beads of sweat on my forehead and face all the f'ing time. Shivering, shaking, trembling, followed by feeling something like a niacin flush. Nausea like I've never experienced in my entire life. Vomiting, the wicked kind. And it didn't matter what I ate, up it went and out my mouth. I didn't have to worry about gaining anymore weight. In fact I started losing weight. Fatigue, but no relief, because then it hit that night-- the worst insomnia of my life. Night after night with no sleep. Week after week with feeling lucky if I got a good half hour of solid sleep. Akathisia began to fade away, thank god. Then psychotic symptoms flooded back in. Voices, paranoid delusions, and cognitive problems actually worsened at first. My mom kept me clean and kept insisting that I change clothes, shave, brush my teeth, etc., or none of that stuff would've gotten done. I was a mess, emotionally and physically. I was shocked when I looked in the mirror. I looked like a dying person. Anhedonia set in and I didn't even play video games anymore. I could hardly bring myself to get out of bed. Then gradually, over time (5 months) the symptoms faded. My nightmarish experience with tardive dyskinesia faded month by month. I was lucky that it was only temporary. Insomnia was the last one to fade away.
My life is so much better now after the withdrawals than it was while I was still on the medications. I am working part time at a movie theatre, and I am working part time as an electrician's apprentice. I'm back to socializing with my cousins and a few friends again, which is cool. I have a future ahead of me. There is light at the end of the tunnel again.
For the rest of my life I will stay as far away from psychiatry as possible.