Tormented

Hi, i am a newbiew, recently I've been wanting to address a lot of hunting things that happend to me in my youth and teens and on, Problem is i am from a Charismatic Christian upbringing and i followed that path, new problem is i feel that path is as harmful as the dark path so to speak! I've the Mentality to be a victor and not a victom! But problem is i am still tormented and asking myself and questioning myself over and over! I would appreciate advice or even your thoughts! I wouldn't appreciate anyone saying Let it go, or Let God! My feeling have changed dramatically towards Charismatic Christian, As Dusty Sang! I am the sun of a preacher man! And that preacher man is a converted Terrorist which is sticking to me like glue with scaremongering and the biblically alternative i also see as scaremongering if you dont conform! Its cost me my relationship with my perants that i no longer respect them and can't and wont listen to them! Love them yes i do, be part of them and there way of life! I've had 40yrs to much of that! And I've made m8sstake after misstake trying to find peace.

Kindest Regards

EagleHeart 1

in general people who are sick - live in the past , dwell on past mistakes . dwell on stuff other people did . I know this is what I do .

only good option is to make the most of the present , look to the future .

wish I could , but im too stubborn , so I rant on the internet instead :-/