by Infonautical » Fri Mar 17, 2017 7:59 pm
I had this therapist who saw me for a few months and from what I gather I was one of her more difficult patients. She'd ask "how are you feeling today?" and I'd respond with idk. Then she'll go on and ask me what I did last week and I'd respond with "nothing, really." She took these interactions as a sign that I was severely depressed. Yeah I have anhedonia because of my stale personality but there are many more symptoms to depression than just anhedonia. I tell her that I am not depressed and I don't care that not much brings me pleasure and she'd go on about how Welbutrin did her wonders and how I shoulod try it too. In my indifference I gave her a non-committal "mmm" because I am equal parts indifferent and suggestible. Given my non compliance with annoying questions and my "odd speech" she decided that she couldn't handle me and sent me off to another agency with a psychiatrist. The referral said that I am to see a psychiatrist about getting meds. In retrospect it's annoying that the prevailing view in mental health care today is meds meds meds meds. Now I'm tempted to cancel this bloody appointment and just drop out of the MH care system no matter how disabled I become. I've been on mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, antidepressants, and anxiolytics. I don't want to touch another pill but they all insist I do. What do I do next give up or hope this new agency is actually helpful?
Schizotypal personality disorder, conversion disorder, dissociative disorder nos, panic disorder (in remission)