I am a schizo traumatized something, enhancing dopamine

I mean 'schizo something'.

I don't believe on dopaminergic, bla bla, hypothesis, I don't believe on brain damage by psychotic breaks (but there is from AP meds)... I believe what it's called schizophrenia it's an amount of different conditions caused by different biological, enviromental past and present circumstances. Psychiatrist in the past almost killed me with AP, diagnosed me with a long amount of stuff like autism while actually I was having the horrible effects of being an abused and neglect child, and was put under antidepressant and antipsychotic which made me gain 90pounds and made be obese at the age of 15. I stoped them after almost two years, got better, then ran away from my abusive family, started college, live from disability money I am given... and returned to the psych system with a better experience

I think mine is post traumatic schizophrenia, chronic stress made me hallucinate and create a world of fantasy that became true because of neglect and isolation since being so young. My world, Wonderland, is great, is nice, is scary, is whatever it has to be, but sometimes it's too much. Now I am trying to learn to be in "everyone land" because I was being too low functioning, Wonderland was draining me, what was perfect when I was a child became a problem as an independent adult.

I say I am a schizo something because what it's called schizophrenia it's part of me and my life, my voices, entities, my wonderland, other world, behind reality... it's part of me, it's not an illness, it's something my brain learnt to do to be safe during the abuse, neglect, maltreatment and now, as an adult, it's difficult to fix in the society. I am trying to live with both, right now, focusing on everyoneland.

I take a low dose of an antipsychotic that is suppsed to block presynaptic autoreceptors which tells the cell how much dopamine is enough, so it enhance dopamine neurotransmission instead of sedating you. Plus, now I am taking concerta 18mg for negative symptoms and tiredness. Amisulpride, the antipsychotic, helped me to open to everyoneland, I take it since a month and I will be taking it for some months until I get use to move in everyoneland, then I will quit it slowly, the same about concerta, it's temporal until I learn with therapy to live in this world, which I cannot without med help since I was 18 years in Wonderland, the other world and behind the reality. I have a hard time enjoying outside life after so many years of abuse, and unfortunatly I can't be on an specific trauma IP intensive program, or get psychotherapy enough for this, and I live alone, without family, or friends, and being really poor.

With this two medications I am enhacing dopamine, and make fun of the doppamine hypothesis I feel more active to do things and teach my brain by my own what It wasn't done as a child.

If you have a headache, you take an aspirin, you don't cut your head.

I don't believe in illness, chronic, purely biological-based, I think meds are not for disorders, they are for symptoms (if they couldn't be treated with psychotherapy first). I think they should be taken temporaly, and at the lowest dosage. And quit them as soon as it's possible.

I believe most of people who take them don't need them, or at least don't need them for so long.

It's sad to see people getting moderate-high dosage of antipsychotic when they have a degree of psychosis that could be under control with a good psychotherapist.


Fortunatly I have a good psychiatrist who won't put me on a SSRI because I have obsessions and rumination, who won't put me on other antidepressant because I easily get depressed, who won't put me on an antipsychotic only because I have some psychotic symptoms (unless my life is in risk), who won't force me or threat to IP me because I am suicidal or psychotic... He doesn't say it's forever, he said I can live without AP and I just have to learn.

Excellent post, and I am so happy that you have a sympathetic psychiatrist!

Harm reduction is always the best route with medication: take what you need when you need it and nothing more.

Doing well, now antipsychotic and concerta free.

###$ biopsychiatry.

Machiavello wrote:I mean 'schizo something'.

I don't believe on dopaminergic, bla bla, hypothesis, I don't believe on brain damage by psychotic breaks (but there is from AP meds)... I believe what it's called schizophrenia it's an amount of different conditions caused by different biological, enviromental past and present circumstances. Psychiatrist in the past almost killed me with AP, diagnosed me with a long amount of stuff like autism while actually I was having the horrible effects of being an abused and neglect child, and was put under antidepressant and antipsychotic which made me gain 90pounds and made be obese at the age of 15. I stoped them after almost two years, got better, then ran away from my abusive family, started college, live from disability money I am given... and returned to the psych system with a better experience

I think mine is post traumatic schizophrenia, chronic stress made me hallucinate and create a world of fantasy that became true because of neglect and isolation since being so young. My world, Wonderland, is great, is nice, is scary, is whatever it has to be, but sometimes it's too much. Now I am trying to learn to be in "everyone land" because I was being too low functioning, Wonderland was draining me, what was perfect when I was a child became a problem as an independent adult.

I say I am a schizo something because what it's called schizophrenia it's part of me and my life, my voices, entities, my wonderland, other world, behind reality... it's part of me, it's not an illness, it's something my brain learnt to do to be safe during the abuse, neglect, maltreatment and now, as an adult, it's difficult to fix in the society. I am trying to live with both, right now, focusing on everyoneland.

I take a low dose of an antipsychotic that is suppsed to block presynaptic autoreceptors which tells the cell how much dopamine is enough, so it enhance dopamine neurotransmission instead of sedating you. Plus, now I am taking concerta 18mg for negative symptoms and tiredness. Amisulpride, the antipsychotic, helped me to open to everyoneland, I take it since a month and I will be taking it for some months until I get use to move in everyoneland, then I will quit it slowly, the same about concerta, it's temporal until I learn with therapy to live in this world, which I cannot without med help since I was 18 years in Wonderland, the other world and behind the reality. I have a hard time enjoying outside life after so many years of abuse, and unfortunatly I can't be on an specific trauma IP intensive program, or get psychotherapy enough for this, and I live alone, without family, or friends, and being really poor.

With this two medications I am enhacing dopamine, and make fun of the doppamine hypothesis I feel more active to do things and teach my brain by my own what It wasn't done as a child.

If you have a headache, you take an aspirin, you don't cut your head.

I don't believe in illness, chronic, purely biological-based, I think meds are not for disorders, they are for symptoms (if they couldn't be treated with psychotherapy first). I think they should be taken temporaly, and at the lowest dosage. And quit them as soon as it's possible.

I believe most of people who take them don't need them, or at least don't need them for so long.

It's sad to see people getting moderate-high dosage of antipsychotic when they have a degree of psychosis that could be under control with a good psychotherapist.


Fortunatly I have a good psychiatrist who won't put me on a SSRI because I have obsessions and rumination, who won't put me on other antidepressant because I easily get depressed, who won't put me on an antipsychotic only because I have some psychotic symptoms (unless my life is in risk), who won't force me or threat to IP me because I am suicidal or psychotic... He doesn't say it's forever, he said I can live without AP and I just have to learn.

I agree - environment past (ptsd)
and present- what I like to call (cdsd) chronic duress stress disorder are major factors in everyone's mental health . shrinks ignoring external factors (BULLYS/normals) and insisting its all my fault - makes it much worse .