Permanent Depression from Anti-Psychotics?

I was wondering if anyone has experience with this. I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital after I was displaying higher than normal energy levels as well as some minor "delusions". Within about 2 weeks of being on anti-psychotics I was thrown into a hopeless depression. I knew that as long as I was on this so called "medicine", I would be depressed. 2 years went by. Then, hope began to draw near as I moved out of my dad's house and was taken off of the medication. I thought that my depression would subside and I would once again claim my high energy back. This did not happen. 6 months went by and the depression was still there...But my energy was actually more stable off of the meds. 6 months later (today) there is still no significant improvement. The drug I was on is called Invega Sustenna and it can take up to 8 months to completely leave the bloodstream. Givin that logic the drug was out of my system completely 4 months ago. There is no significant improvement AT ALL. I've been depressed for 4 months completely off the med and 3 years overall. I seriously need a success story. I feel like my thoughts need to make some sort of 360 degree turn. I don't know what to do. I'm starting to believe that I may be tired and down my whole life. This is what it feels like. Imagine crippling emotional as well as crippling mental pain bombarding you nearly 24/7. Its like there's a knife in my belly and a blazing fire in my mind that won't go out. Is there any way out of this? I've changed my diet...that helped a little. I've tried exercising, that actually made things worse. Does anyone have a success story they could share? Of themselves or someone they know? It doesn't even have to be a success story. Maybe even just someone you know that was permanently ruined from neuroleptics. At least then I would have some solice in accepting the fact I'll be this way forever. But I mean damn, who knew reality could be so harsh and painful. I feel like my life is over. Please help.

Hi Sceptile,

Unfortunately I can only relate to everything you've said. Abilify injections for a little over a year has had the exact same effect on me. I'm almost med-free and am searching daily for a success story - If I ever find one I will let you know.

A doctor who I trust told me it can take between 1 and 2 years for a full recovery.

That is actually very reassuring. I'm glad I'm not alone in this. Such a shame that people get away with ruining lives every single day with this stuff. Thank you for your reply. I can note that although there is somewhat minor improvement compared to where I was before I ever took anything, there is *some* improvement. I wish you the best; again I am grateful for your reply.

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Also may I note that I have lost +- 25 pounds since quitting the meds? And before when I was on them I was completely out of it socially. I'm better now. One of the biggest things that the body looks for after stopping toxic neuroleptics is rest. That's one thing I've learned. If your body is telling you to lay in bed all day, do it. I believe it's the mind body complex healing.

Honestly, to me it sounds like you're in a bipolar depression, which can be incredibly hard to get out of. And you're probably there because you're on no meds. I recommend seeing a psychiatrist who will prescribe simple drugs like lithium for stability and Wellbutrin to get you out of the depression.

Anhedonia


Anhedonia (/ˌænhiˈdoʊniə/ AN-hee-DOH-nee-ə; Greek: ἀν- an-, "without" and ἡδονή hēdonē, "pleasure") is the inability to experience pleasure from activities usually found enjoyable, e.g. exercise, hobbies, music, sexual activities or social interactions. While earlier definitions of anhedonia emphasized pleasurable experience, more recent models have highlighted the need to consider different aspects of enjoyable behavior, such as motivation or desire to engage in activities (motivational anhedonia), as compared to the level of enjoyment of the activity itself ("consummatory anhedonia").

Researchers theorize that anhedonia may result from the breakdown in the brain's reward system, involving the neurotransmitter dopamine.

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Sceptile1 wrote:success story

I survived Zyprexa.

I thought coming off that $#%^ was going to kill me. Tried so many times but I can't really even find words to describe the months of hell of it. It Almost killed me, thought I was going to be effed up forever but here I am and alright now.

I had been 4 years on high dose of Abilify, Anti-Depresssant. I had Anhedonia and Akathisia. From nature, I am born a very fun and joy loving.

When I cam off, I started feeling less tired, more energy. better sleep and my feelings and ability to feel joy returned within 3 months.

The Anhedonia healed completely.

If you developed Anhedonia from medication, you have good hope that it you will feel again when you come off medication.

Armand20 wrote:Abilify, Anti-Depresssant.

Abilify is not an anti depressant, that is just a sneaky trick they do saying the word anti depressant several times during those TV ads along with the suicidal side effects warning for anti depressants to fool the public into thinking that is what they are asking their doctor for.

"Ask your doctor for some anti psychotics" that advertising campaign would fail so they use lots of deception and lie by omission .

Abilify (aripiprazole is an antipsychotic medication. It works by changing the actions of chemicals in the brain. https://www.drugs.com/abilify.html

If you look at the Abilify website you can see the deception , they have that anti depressant warning on there twice. https://www.abilify.com/ It worked, ask most people what is Ability they will answer anti depressant.

Thats the psychiatric pharmacuitical industry, no honesty, honor or integrity, just a bunch of cockroaches posing as humans.

Armand20 wrote:I had been 4 years on high dose of Abilify, Anti-Depresssant. I had Anhedonia and Akathisia. From nature, I am born a very fun and joy loving.

When I cam off, I started feeling less tired, more energy. better sleep and my feelings and ability to feel joy returned within 3 months.

The Anhedonia healed completely.

If you developed Anhedonia from medication, you have good hope that it you will feel again when you come off medication.

I was also on abilify for 4 years, last 2 at the highest dose and I was incredibly depressed and at one point was told I was chronically suicidal and had a very bad prognosis. A few weeks later some bad things happened and I had to go cold turkey on everything I was on and at that time decided to distance myself as far as possible from the system and also humans in general. After around 3 months of being off my meds and not talking to anyone I wasn't related to, I too started to be able to feel happiness again. It's been 7 months since I quit and my mood is pretty great, not manic, but the feeling of breaking free after being severely depressed for five years is nothing short of incredible and I'm so happy to be alive. I even have a job and a social life now. Unfortunately I have started experiencing psychotic symptoms again, but I would much rather learn to live with it without medication than going back to that hell.

Sorry, I actually meant I had taken Abilify plus an Antidepressant which had been Cipralex.

This long treatment I come off and recovered. With Abilify I also had no sexual side effects.

I got to another doctor back for help I think sociality should help young people with violence experience to help in live.
They understand, had been sorry to do this to me and wanted to help and support me.

Now they give me Seroquel at super low dose. I had several side effects, neurological and could not sleep without it. First seroquel blunted me , later it had an euphoric effect.

After coming off taking seroquel (which I take for 6 months) I feel no emotion, no energy, no sexuality, empty eyes and lifeless face. I am off maybe 6-7 months but still not got better.