Bad trip on Wellbutrin

So, first off, I have had panic disorder for the last five years, and I ended up caving in and getting prescriptions for Ativan and Klonopin. Quite frankly, I like how those make me feel when I take them as needed, and I generally go for a quarter to a half milligram at a time. They have proven themselves to help me cope, and while I have realized the side effects of tiredness and fatigue when taking larger amounts, I'm overall okay with the fact I have them available. However, my ability to cope ran out a couple of weeks ago, and I'm now taking a leave of absence from college. The first thing my parents said is that I was going to need more medication. So, they had me see my psychiatrist again, and I was prescribed Wellbutrin for the depressive feelings I described that made me unable to perform in class. I'm not sure what I'm going to do from here. Yesterday afternoon, right after picking up the prescription, I took one 150 mg Wellbutrin tablet mainly so I could see what would happen and so I would have some sort of result to report. Throughout the rest of the day, I overall felt agitated, and felt sometimes like I wasn't actually myself. I dismissed these until the nighttime, as they were pretty minor, and around 11, I decided to go to bed (I hadn't slept during the day, so I expected to fall asleep pretty quickly). I couldn't. After lying in bed for a while, still wide awake, I found myself thinking all sorts of weird things, like how Donald Trump managed to create the planet Jupiter and how to get rid of the Greek chorus hiding inside my rooms walls, and felt an overwhelming sense of paranoia, like everyone was secretly against me. I had some brief moments of lucidity where I wondered what the hell was going on and tried to think of something to do, thinking like "myself" so to speak, but before I knew it I kept drifting into that "other state" and couldn't focus on anything I tried to distract myself with. I ended up watching Barbie videos on YouTube (I've never played with them in my life and am male) and starting to plan a terrorist attack on a nearby city before eventually settling down. If these things were normal for me then that would have been fine, but it was like there was another person taking over and switching with me against my will. By the time it was 5 AM, I finally managed to sleep, after having felt like "myself" for at least half an hour, but I needed to take a full milligram of Ativan before doing so, and we all know what a vicious cycle is. At 8 my Dad woke me up and said I needed to stay on a schedule where I woke up at this time each day, and reminded me to take the Wellbutrin again, even asking "Should I watch you take it?". Obviously I said no and he was out the door within the hour. I took one pill out of the bottle and flushed it, just in case he might try to count later. Every time I think about last night I start feeling scared; I know it sounds like I'm making too big a deal of it, but I don't "do drugs" aside from anxiolytics as needed, I'm still wide awake after those three hours of sleep, and I know that the way I felt then is not something I want to experience ever again. Thoughts?

Kokoustila wrote:Thoughts?

Call your doctor at once if you have:

seizure (convulsions);
fast heartbeats;
fever, swollen glands, rash or itching, joint pain, or general ill feeling;
confusion, trouble concentrating, hallucinations, unusual thoughts or behavior; or

http://www.rxlist.com/wellbutrin-side-e ... center.htm

Kokoustila wrote:The first thing my parents said is that I was going to need more medication. So, they had me see my psychiatrist again, and I was prescribed Wellbutrin for the depressive feelings I described that made me unable to perform in class.

Tell your parents to stop clicking on only the first page Google results for what ever gives them these "more medication" ideas and search maybe "psychiatry more harm then good".

You can type in the name of any psychiatric drug + side effects and get a list of possibilities but once you start mixing them together.... Side effects of drug a+b .... No one has studied that.

is when the road can get really rough.

I tried every pill they had to get rid of Anxiety, wow would life be better without that holding me up.

Benzodiazapine depndence http://www.google.com/search?q=Benzodiazapine+depndence then more pills, polypharmacy, after tolerance withdrawals made anxiety into panic disorder.

"tolerance withdrawals" When tolerance is reached, more of the drug is required to achieve the same effect but if you keep taking the same amount now you are always in withdrawals on the edge of a panic attack because your tolerance went higher than your dose.

So after years of pill popping and "looking for the right meds" and getting worse and worse all kinds of bad trips and nightmares I came across 'anti psychiatry' and learned the truth.

I quit all the drugs with exception of an occasional sleep aid and after the withdrawals I have less anxiety than I ever did and NEVER have panic attacks anymore. No more sitting in the ER with people asking "did you try taking deep breaths?" Did I try taking deep breaths ?... Yes and that never works , did you really think I never heard of that ?

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Kokoustila wrote:At 8 my Dad woke me up and said I needed to stay on a schedule where I woke up at this time each day, and reminded me to take the Wellbutrin again, even asking "Should I watch you take it?".

For your parents http://www.google.com/search?q=psychiat ... +then+good

And this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOScYBwMyAA

It's your choice. It is important not to stop taking psychiatric drugs before you are ready. But since the mental health system got you started on medications, it also has a responsibility to help you terminate that treatment as safely as possible if that is your choice.

Wellbutrin for someone with anxiety or panic disorder, your doctor is a dumb ass.