I'm ruined and noone believes me (MIGHT BE TRIGGERING)

I started taking lithium when I was a teen because I was diagnosed bipolar for no good reason.
It made me feel something like nausea the whole day but they insisted it was for the best, that it would pay off.
10 years later I make an experience and quit it and I realize it was making me a worthless zombie.
I get angry with my parents, they freak out and think hey! The lithium was making him good and now he quit it he's all pissed off! They never even gave a $#%^ about all the ###$ up experiences I was having while taking it, and there were MANY.
Next I refuse to take meds for months and, finally, I ######6 decide to see another psychiatrist... And because the drugs he gave me didn't give me nausea I trusted him.
What I ######6 idiot I am. It's kinda cruel to say I deserve to be in Hell and die now, but it wouldn't be totally untrue.
I get TERRIBLY WORSE after taking tons of meds that asshole prescribed me. Does my mother question him? No, she freaked out when I got pissed off when I stopped taking lithium and now stands by whatever the psychiatrists believe no matter how bad I get. Totally unrational.
Now my situation is horrible, I might even die because of what the psychiatrist did to me and my mother will never believe a word I say against him. She'll actually say I'm the idiot if I don't follow what some psychiatrist tells me to. And I have to see a psychiatrist, because I got so disturbed I depend on "meds" to sleep.
My situation only worsens and I feel really angry for not being listened and taken seriously by my mother. If she wasn't so ######6 stupid she'd want the ######6 psychiatrists' heads on a plate.
I felt like expressing my desperation and anger here because who knows, maybe exchanging ideas with other anti-psych people will calm me down a little bit. I'm tired of being considering anti-science for even questioning psychiatry and saying psychiatrists harmed me as much as they have.

The drugs made me worse for years and no matter how much worse the answer was always MORE drugs and psychiatry. I know the story.


Part of my story is being given Zyprexa and the resulting anhedonia followed by the withdrawal reactions from hell when I quit the stuff.

My mother paid $700 for me to see this "upscale" doctor who within 35 minutes of meeting me after I had been up all night in Zyprexa withdrawal prescribes Lithium. I refused, I tried to explain to my family what a was going on, how I simply needed help with withdrawal and all I got was guilt trips over the $700 and the blame put on me for being sick and for not "letting them help me".

Lithium , I had been through enough to start that and taken enough pills to know what would and would not help me with the withdrawals and to not be Zombafied and made sick.

The only way I managed to get my family to acknowledge that psychiatry was what made me sick and was keeping me sick was to get off the drugs and do better.

I know how much it sucks to have family side with psychiatry. Its horrible.

The reason that happens is on the drugs people often look "better" to outside observers.

Quite , zombified in front of the TV instead of fighting arguing ect ect. Outside observers can't see the drug effects inside of us.

Hey pharma define better https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEmhTkjzA-g

Its not easy getting off psychiatric drugs and recovering but I am living proof it can be done. I was on alot of that crap for along time.

Getting off them and getting better was how I got my family to finally see how damaging psychiatry was to me and to believe me.

Wish I had another answer for you but that's what happened to me.

Getting my family to say "you were right" is no small accomplishment, believe me.

You're lucky you got better. I know there's no hope for me left, I'll die and they'll say they should have given me even more "meds", even though all they did was make me miserable.

Copy_Cat, doesn't it bother you that the song you posted is associated with CCHR, which is associated with Scientology? And that that really hurts its credibility?

dave7587 wrote:Copy_Cat, doesn't it bother you that the song you posted is associated with CCHR, which is associated with Scientology? And that that really hurts its credibility?

I was just trying to point out what I said about outside observers calling the person drugged by psychiatry 'better'.

dave7587 wrote:You're lucky you got better. I know there's no hope for me left, I'll die and they'll say they should have given me even more "meds", even though all they did was make me miserable.

Where are you at with the all the "meds" right now ?

dave7587 wrote: And I have to see a psychiatrist, because I got so disturbed I depend on "meds" to sleep.

That can't sleep part sucks. I know about that. That was the first complaint I had that enabled psychiatry to cover me with labels and turn me into a drug addict.

I had no idea what I got into. All I did was goto doctor and trust.

If sleep is a problem you will need to deal with it drug free or find one drug that can help you sleep wile not allowing them to drug you into 24/7 zombification.

I know Seorquel IR low dose works or even that trazadone crap I personally hate may work or something else, 'ask your doctor' and make him or her think its their idea.

You are not ruined, I thought I was too until taking me life back from those quacks.

What did they give you over the years ?

Are you getting high on some crap like Vyvance for so called ADHD then bitching you cant sleep ?

also problems that arise upon quitting medications are often medication withdrawal effects, and can be minimized by tapering down slowly. Also, if you have been relying on medications to solve emotional problems, you may need to learn effective alternative solutions to these problems in order to accomplish a successful withdrawal.