
I was on Effexor 187.5mg and Abilify everyday.
Also had clonazepam and zopiclone if needed.
For about 4 months.
I hadn't slept in 5 days, i was feeling great. i would say hypomanic, probably not full-blown mania. Went on spending sprees, repainted the house, gym everyday, chopped my hair off, you know, just impulsive, productive things i normally wouldn't do.
On day 6 i wake up with this feeling of extreme guilt, extreme disgust with myself, very suicidal. My mom called and i just couldn't sound normal on the phone, she asked if i am okay, i say no and start crying. She sent my aunt to get me and go to the emergency where she would meet me.
I meet a doctor, he says i have to stay the night to meet the psychiatrist the next day, i didn't want to and felt they were tricking me into staying for a month or more but i agreed on one night.
Meet the ER psychiatrist the next day, tells me to stop all my meds, cold turkey. I have to stay another night so i didn't have a choice. by then i was 2 days off my meds. felt sick a little, went home on the condition that i stay at my parents until i see my regular doctor. i said yes, didnt want them to keep me there.
DAY 3. COLD TURKEY.

Could not think straight, chills, vomiting, VERY VERY DIZZY, could not feel my fingers and feet, my brain was tickling or something?? I had NO MOTOR SKILLS.... couldn't control my movement i fell to the floor a bunch, knocked things over. Apparently i broke a glass and it cut my foot.. i have no recollection of that happening. My brother who is 16yrs old calls my boyfriend to come over because he thinks i am drunk or on drugs and says i can't walk or stop crying.


He then takes me to the emergency and the doctor is in shock that i stopped cold turkey, she gave me 37.5mg to ease down the withdrawal symptoms...


WHY DID HE TELL ME TO STOP LIKE THAT? NO ONE COULD BELIEVE IT, I SAID LOOK IN MY FILE, THERE YOU HAVE IT!!

Sorry this post is long, but is this normal?? i am still feeling ill 9days later. seeing my doctor tomorrow.

Now, if she tells me to go back to 187.5mg of effexor, what do i say? i am a bit traumatised right now, i want to go all natural, but i KNOW i was very depressed before...

They THINK i am bipolar, NO real diagnosis until i meet a psychiatrist.
I am in Canada, 23yrs old.