slither wrote:The only available water on my ward was a broken water fountain that was contaminated with heavy metal, and tasted horrible, so my urine turned brown and the lithium was building up and blurring my vision.
The psychiatrist wanted to keep me in there longer to try various drugs and to adjust their levels, so I ended up lying to get out of there. The last day, in a group, I started BS-ing and said that I was finally able to admit that I needed to be there, and that I learned a lot, and was thankful.
These places are hell holes.
The only positive is that they have given me great incentive to do all the work in my own recovery and to consider doctors mere tools to aid one's self.
Sounds similar to my experience. The 1st unit I was put on was hell. My room was absolutely freezing. I would ask for extra blankets and they would give me trouble about it. As for the water, there was no fountain. They would fill it up with tap water and when it ran out sometimes they wouldn't even refill it. They would lock the televisions so we couldn't watch it. There were almost no games as most were broken. I would get up at night because the meds were giving me dry mouth and they would not give me anything to drink. They would yell at me to go back in my room.
After about two weeks they put me on a different unit and it was like a hotel compared to the 1st unit. Warm, plenty of filtered water, couches, nintendo wii, and it seemed like the employees were more educated and generally nicer. I guess they put the most troubled patients in the 1st unit. The first unit was filled with uneducated employees and nurses that were absolute bitches. I even asked some employees what their highest level of education was and most people didn't even have a college degree.
I felt very much like a lab-rat. I got hypothermia from an anti-psychotic, and I felt like I was going to die. They tried so many different meds on me. I told the doctor that antidepressants give me severe tremors and make extremely uncomfortable and irritable. That didn't stop him from trying them on me. It seemed like he wanted me to stay in the hospital for ever. Even threatened to put me in the state hospital. It's really sad how they were giving almost everyone as many meds as possible. I talked to people that were on up to 7+ meds. That is insane.
I found out that the only way to get out of there is to lie. I did the exact same thing to get out. When I was most "stable" he gave me another anti-psychotic, which kept me asleep throughout the day. The only way to get out was to take it and say I was feeling at my best, just tired. They don't want to see you alert and quick. They like to see their patients dull, emotionless, and cooperative.