Enemy Doctors can break your Self-Respect

Always been keen on brainwork. Not routine stuff, but . . .
working at extending the reality map, busily comparing perspectives.
A significant talent, denoted by my nom de Guerre – the Cruxx

Innovation is my chief contribution to the society that supports my existence,
a society which, for a few years now, has been considerate enough
to leave me undisturbed by unreasonable demands.
And I have thrived in a solitude and absence of Boss.

Strangely underValued is Innovation.
inEvitably, like Gravitation, the insecure inVent implications of inAdequacy
rather than appreciate a fresh perspective.

Especially my GP, who trashed our relationship most Memorably.

Fool that I am, I mistook his upbeat vigour and attentive mask
to indicate that he was, at least subliminally, one-of-us.
A straight shooter, a man of forthright honesty, I thort.

Not so. Dead wrong, Cruxx.
Judging others by yourSelf again, you Fool.

The moment I inadvertently saw my purported “medical history”
the shyte was in flyght . . . ::::: (fan)

Astonished by how he looks down on me.
Out at the far reach of my ability to Empathise – such a demented state of mind.

Now, despite his polished Display of political correctitude, it is certain
that Dr.Jon is yet-another egomaniac, a subtle enemy, a loose cannon.

Plainly, there can be no Trust : not in his goodwill,
nor trust in his ability to read another human being.

The self-flattering opinions that he prizes so highly
are toxic to his client’s self-respect, to individual Self-Reliance.

Opinions that seduce him into a delusion of privilege,
of unEarned superiority to a “self-described” Hermit.
Cunningly concealed by a mask of genial goodwill and attentiveness.

Always a shock, to see exposed a Failure of judgement,
and Shocked me deeply, this one Did.

Triggered a thoRough re-evaluation of self and methods.
How could I have missed a duplicity so profound ?

Surely, the workmanship on his mask far exceeds
the workmanship he brings to the trade of Doctoring.

This man is an enforcer of docile conformity,
the self-betrayal urged upon us by the deadHeart rulers of mankind.

This vigorous-seeming middle-aged man is running on Automatic ! ! !
The doctors’ range-of-attention has been truncated to a checklist
{by faulty training in medical school – unvarying amongst GPs I have encountered}.

Anything outside procedural Efficiency is habitually discarded as irrelevant.
Any refusal to agree is pidginhold as Aggression, as dangerous.
Institutionalised cowardice twists their perception to defensive disRegard.

To this “doctor”, I am not a real human being.
Yet, his colleagues are typically worse - grotesquely inCompetent,
both medically and interPersonally.

To them, I am a pidginhold - defined by trade gossip
carelessly concocted by my previous medical bureaucrat
a holier-than-me Buddhist dreamSter
who during a 7year period as my personal doctor,
“somehow” discarded my real medical history . . .

So, when asked to transfer my medical history, he made one up.
A medical fiction that expresses his ill-concealed contempt for a heretic,
a fiction so insulting that still I shake my head in disbelief.

After witlessly swallowing Dr.Rod’s Camel of doggy-dung,
this experienced doctor of medicine,
managed the corrective information in the worst possible way ;
a full Power Tantrum, with threats, reductio ad absurdum, furious disRegard, and Bombast.

20minutes of frenzied Territorial Domination Display [I kid you not],
over the meaning of 2 sheets of precisely definitive typing.
Must have struck a nerve. [grin]

Oh, life’s been tasty for the Cruxx, alright.
Too tasty for Comfort, many times.

Now, instead of enjoying a few minutes with an educated fellow-traveller,
there is the unAvoidable monthly prescription from a compleate Nut-Case.

3minutes with a censorious, domineering, Merchant in a private Business . . .
in which I am an imbecile Nut to His Case - of projected dissociative complex.

Don’t let the High-Status Pretenders grind you down ! ! !
We each have the potential to be insightful and determined,
the ability to live the attributes of sobriety and strength.
Don't allow the opinions of a stuffed shirt to sabotage your Life.

Tell them nothing, for they use it against your dignity in their minds.
The talk of compassion is a NonSense, a sham, a mask for Self-Pity.

Do not trust the medical bureaucrats that Posture as doctors.
To do so Betrays yourSelf - in their Opinions,
which they express in holier-than-thou Polished Platitudes.

If you Must have an answer, Accept that it will not come from a bureaucrat.
Only the wizard, a tradesman of 2ndAttention, can communicate
what is unThinkable to the quackers of Conformity. Quack. Quack.

Diversity is the Intent of the Creator.
The evidence is stark in biology - an endless abundance of life forms.
Conformity is the antichrist that Afflicts mankind.

The doctors-Union have turned their backs on the Nagual,
Blind to the magic in the Essence of those in pain.

Materialism has shouted-down Mystery and Adventure,
and the Priests-of-medicine Enforce that crippling maDness.

This is why their explanations do not Cure,
why their drugs-of-choice dysGracefully Dull the Awareness.

Doctors are enemies to the 2ndAttention,
enemies to innovation, to enlightenment, to self-worth.

Self-Reliance is Your touchstone of Sanity.

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I love the unSelfConsciousNess of the forest,
the absence of expectations from needy people,
the absence of ridiculous territorial interplay.

Happiness truly is the absence of unHappiness.
. . . Peace for the Cruxx, this maverick mage of Applied Ontology . . .
. . . . personal comfort is accomplished, at last, in the autumn of his madness.

"Anything outside procedural Efficiency is habitually discarded as irrelevant.
Any refusal to agree is pidginhold as Aggression, as dangerous.
Institutionalised cowardice twists their perception to defensive disRegard.

To this “doctor”, I am not a real human being.
Yet, his colleagues are typically worse - grotesquely inCompetent,
both medically and interPersonally.

To them, I am a pidginhold - defined by trade gossip
carelessly concocted by my previous medical bureaucrat
a holier-than-me Buddhist dreamSter
who during a 7year period as my personal doctor,
“somehow” discarded my real medical history . . .

So, when asked to transfer my medical history, he made one up.
A medical fiction that expresses his ill-concealed contempt for a heretic,
a fiction so insulting that still I shake my head in disbelief.

After witlessly swallowing Dr.Rod’s Camel of doggy-dung,
this experienced doctor of medicine,
managed the corrective information in the worst possible way ;
a full Power Tantrum, with threats, reductio ad absurdum, furious disRegard, and Bombast.

20minutes of frenzied Territorial Domination Display [I kid you not],
over the meaning of 2 sheets of precisely definitive typing.
Must have struck a nerve. [grin]"


Again this adds weight to a theory people (most except aspergers/autistics of which I have a few in my family who don't follow group think) value eachother based on the degree of commonality in beliefs, not around truth apart from the obvious truths through senses. Anything outside of ones frame of reference of thoughts is automatically treated as outgroup/stigma. I know this is true of myself because I did it to you earlier lol sorry can't help it, when you said about telepathy my instinct was you are crazy, interesting, how I turned you to the outgroup / stigma, which I worked out later (after a thought went through me that supported telepathy I then considered telepathy as possible and expanded on the idea myself) as being because the idea was outside of my frame of reference of thoughts, alien idea, my reaction was to consider you outside my tribe, an enemy maybe, wary, so I theorize that when someone doean't bridge the gap between someone's existing beliefs and new beliefs they are considered outside the group/stigmatized/considered lesser? I may well have made errors there but I'm not thinking so atm particularly. Therefore when explaining things to people which are new to them, always use analogys bridging their beliefs with new ones, I've always done this since learning from a young age to do this from my father, now I've thought of maybe why to do this, and it's probably not just analogies there are probably other ways to bridge the difference like trinaologys etc creatively following on around that, another one I do is to chronologically outline my train of thought so they know we think alike as the way I arrived at the thought will make sense to them.

As another point this also implies the more conformist you are the higher your status in the group. The more you follow the group, the more status you will have. The more you revolutionize the group the more peripheral you are the more easily you will be seen as outgroup/stigma.

Hence when I arrived at the psychiatric hospital telling them of my theory of how anorexia is an adpatation to famine, and how the underlying problem causes pickiness/undereating is really an issue of circulation, expecting them to be wowed or something or get some sort of reward even for being so good and thorough and scientific for the first time in my life I was researching this like a scientist and verifying through myself and others and studying human evolution expecting them to be scientists because they are in the medical profession and listen to me and verify or discount it via scientific method, a theory which fits exactly evolution as usual, they did not take it on board at all and in fact just said I was delusional, which now makes sense as they simply pigeon holed me as insane because the theory was on the very periphery of mainstream knowledge and I failed to build a solid bridge between their understand and mine although I tried but a lot of the theory was tested on myself which I couldn't prove so they didn't believe me enough and stigmatized me instead.

Also implies a lot of the people in psychiatric hospitals, simply have ideas on the periphery of mainstream understanding, so probably a lot of creative and highly intelligent and OCD in particular people end up there, in a lot of cases maybe the most sane people although I'm probably being biased now but most of whom I saw in the hospital seemed perfectly average normal people, it seemed kind of ridiculous they were all there, like they could have all been discharged *should have all been discharged except a few of which were on medication which in every case made absolutely no difference so even on the people who were hearing voices or paranoid you know the ones with actual tricky mental predicaments were in no way being helped by drugs and they were discharged on drugs like everyone else so even they didn't seem to be needing to be kept in there and just went out worse than they came in so even the ones with tricky mental states with some seeming reason to fear they may be a possibility they are a threat are no threat to people after a short stay in hospital so they don't even need drugs either, not the ones I saw anyway it made no difference and they were discharged before me even because they were so agreeable and compliant.

I feel with you, brothers. All the enemies, quacks, charlatans, brutal torturers need to taste their own medicine. I hope they *mod edit*. These bastards used rhetoric on you, just like on me, to deceptively rewrite an ordinary history into the sickest, most insane, crazy, disgusting, filthy piece of sick writing that only these enemies can produce.

And for the whole time, they maintained a normal human face, a mask, pretending that these psychopaths are human, and that they feel how normal person feels. It is crystal clear they are malevolent, deeply diseased in their brain, for having the profession of charlatanism, brutal torture, and domination over innocent victims who got into difficult life situations.

This quackery costs 40 billion dollars a year, and the perpetrators are earning serious money for falsifying medically-sounding documents full of crazy and sick jargon, and for sickly torturing. They are so ill in their brain, all those charlatans.