NO more injections!

So the story is I got favourable outcome from the mental Health Tribunal and only got signed on 12week CTO, now my psychiatrist has put me on orals but not much of a reduction in dose...so now I am just wanting feedback and advice on what to do now....I think I am going to use rauwolfia serpentina to destroy the excess of dopamine receptors....Its been over two weeks since my last injection and today is day two of orals, haven;t taken anything yet was wanting to recover my love and joy and have noraml astral life, I am going to test a herb that should work rauwolfia is where they got the idea for antipscyhtotics hitting dopamine from plant extract reserpine, so I am getting an extract of this in the mail maybe over a week from now so hope to get it by the tgime the injection wears off....I made this thread to document my reccovery from antipscyhotic sand back into normal...chances are with my recovery I will loose interest in talking here as I did the other time with the celbrity interest and darkhorse coming on the radio, all timing I didn't actuallybecome unwell, I remembered the incident with my auntee robbing me of a bank account, I guess I be able to remember more stuff...sorry if I end up losing interest in documenting my recovery once I have more intrerests then I do now which is all about talking $#%^ about psychaitry and my struggle with the excess of haloperidole 100mg a fortnight injection, so now I get the chance to recover so guess I gonna take that chance and not take the meds,can anyone give me some advie on the risks? like I only got a little while to play along before I get off the CTO another 9weeks I think, so It would e risky if they notice me recover they might say they can see I not taking the medic ation and trigger me to seem unwell and arguementative and all the $#%^ that goes down talking round in circles when the staff go on tangents to talk about having medication...don't want to get cvcaught out....surely people have tried this before, just a matter of playing it safe.

I might end up taking a really low dose oncce I see my recovery at least after that, see what I really need afterall, I know the dosages would be like 1.5mg whereas they think I would become unwell on that much but I tell you I think 2.5mg would be overkill, that probably what IT was like on lowest dose of fluepanthixol 20mg a fortnight....so I had my last injection of 100mg of haloperidole, things are gonna look a hell of a lot better once I only don 1.5mg she writes me a script for 5mg and a 1.5mg ttablet so what do I do I keep getting the 1.5mg and chucking out the 5mg, or not take any at all just the rauwolfia for a while, at least test out the herbb to see if it works for the over excitements I can expect with having a mind taht works I will wanna stay up with the good feelings and get manic thats probably what will happen so I take rauwolfia to kepp calmer and less maniac.

Just don't withdrawal to quick, bug out and give them a chance to say 'told ya so' , stay healthy.

I am noticing my sense of smell enjoying smelling things, just went for a walk to get weed and could smell all the peoples dinner and plant smells it was really good, I can smell the incence left over smell in my apartmetn...I am sleeping a lot feel really sleepy so I went without the rauwolfia today and had vacha and shankhpushpi instead they are indicated for schizoprhenia, feeling a bit better, the rauwolfia is taking over like an antipscyhotic would but maybe best to only hav e it in the evenings, think it lowered my blood pressure had diy spells smoking weed...

gradually feeling better but very slowly, yeah I am confident tahta the rauwolfia will take the plaee of antipscyhtoic it works the same just lowers blook pressure so gotta watch that, only seems to be a problem when I smoke weed though

wondering if I gotta be carefull not to lose too much weight or it be a giveaway or I could say I am excercising and prob ably will be things are looking good and the rauwolfia will balance out any mind enouught to replace the antipsychoti for a while at least, the other herbs will be valuable when I can detect what they do, vacha is meant to be blended in with cannabis they actually recommend if you gonna use cannabis to use vacha aswell so getting into that today, hard to detet what it is doing its all about the antipscyhotic coming out of my system gradually.

so interesting that the sarcosine works two weeks into the oral regime I took a full dose leading up to an appointmetn with a terrible junior doctor who gave me a hard time that nothing had improved since on orals, I just going with saying nothing changes and nothing really has been taking rauwolfia daily or three times a day and after taking the full dose coming down off the orals was a bit nightmarish or that is some spell the psychiatrist has on me to fear my mind returning it isn't a very good state as a matter of fat I have suffered a lot of brain damage from my time on haldol 100mg a fortnight, now I coming off cold turkey with rauwolfia and sarcosine..I am impressed with the sarcosine for settling those fears of the mind coming back seems I am not ready to change and still in bed all the time...I do get more stoned thats where the need for sarcosine comes into it aswell when I got stoned I was paranoid about seening a psyhiatrist like this but the sarcosine filled me with confidence and really cooled down my mind really nicesly, haven't checked to see if I can get more of it from where I got the last lot, my computer is due for a repear and I will loose all my bookmarks, not sure what to do about that.

Looks like some good, some bad but more good? I think you are making some steps forward, it sound like something is beginning to change?

its all good, just not feeling much etter yet and have to use sarcosine aswell as the rauwolfia for antipscyhtoic properties, I think its like a spell maybe they catching on but I will reassure them I am taking the mediction...last time I had recovered by this stage I think those trips were improtant and seem to be why I am not coming back, staying dead, like I gotta fight to get myself beack or it might take months to recover....last time I got off things all happened and I was sking seems I got found out and not longer have kingship...lat time I remembered my autnee what she did with the shotgun concealed in the bank getting me to transfer the account to her, it was a magic account I heared a voice asking if I can trust my auntee then wrote down the bannk account number I think from when this guy gave me a check and went into a differen tbank to make an account, think thats where this is from because lights were ligting up the bank from the outside and my memory can't revieal what I sore but bright lights at the symbol for the bank we stopped at, don't know how my autnee knew which bank to go to, its are al shame I think from the ccheck incident taht it was around 200,000 the guy said don't worry he fcould afford it, so cool I struck gold and something that would fix me up for ife and my auntee ripped me off beuase I was having a crisis, a godsend...don''t know if anyone reads this , what do you think of the bank account thing? maybe now I am coming clearer I feel it more, not sure what I feelyet, she set me up as a schizoprhenic, now the psychaitrist has heaps of ammunition because my family denied the memory and dobbed on me to the clinic...it really happened just I was having a crisis, my auntee took advantage of me even though it was a godsend that my ability were phenomenal and had a lot of potential and I had a lot of money too, things could have turend out differently my auntee ruined my life. gonna write a topic about it in schizophrenia forum see if I get a respnse.it could very well be very troubling, I rang my auntee even and she said she couldn't remember never said anything when I mentioned the shotgun so they do have one...just noody believes me.

Razael wrote:its all good, just not feeling much etter yet and have to use sarcosine aswell as the rauwolfia for antipscyhtoic properties, I think its like a spell maybe they catching on but I will reassure them I am taking the mediction...last time I had recovered by this stage I think those trips were improtant and seem to be why I am not coming back, staying dead, like I gotta fight to get myself beack or it might take months to recover....last time I got off things all happened and I was sking seems I got found out and not longer have kingship...lat time I remembered my autnee what she did with the shotgun concealed in the bank getting me to transfer the account to her, it was a magic account I heared a voice asking if I can trust my auntee then wrote down the bannk account number I think from when this guy gave me a check and went into a differen tbank to make an account, think thats where this is from because lights were ligting up the bank from the outside and my memory can't revieal what I sore but bright lights at the symbol for the bank we stopped at, don't know how my autnee knew which bank to go to, its are al shame I think from the ccheck incident taht it was around 200,000 the guy said don't worry he fcould afford it, so cool I struck gold and something that would fix me up for ife and my auntee ripped me off beuase I was having a crisis, a godsend...don''t know if anyone reads this , what do you think of the bank account thing? maybe now I am coming clearer I feel it more, not sure what I feelyet, she set me up as a schizoprhenic, now the psychaitrist has heaps of ammunition because my family denied the memory and dobbed on me to the clinic...it really happened just I was having a crisis, my auntee took advantage of me even though it was a godsend that my ability were phenomenal and had a lot of potential and I had a lot of money too, things could have turend out differently my auntee ruined my life. gonna write a topic about it in schizophrenia forum see if I get a respnse.it could very well be very troubling, I rang my auntee even and she said she couldn't remember never said anything when I mentioned the shotgun so they do have one...just noody believes me.

The bank account thing would freak me out as well. And its not right for anyone to take advantage of you. I think you were going through a lot and the whole bank account incident was just over the edge. If it happened to me Id be really angry.

If it will make you feel better you can certainly wright about it as well as how you feel about it. Journaling is a great way to let emotions out, a good way to vent.

Hope things get better. And don't let this dictate who you are. Its not right that it happened, however you are better than what happened to you which was not your fault to start with.