Thinking about stopping my antipsychotic.

Abilify is giving me symptoms of NMS, and even if it’s not NMS, I’m so sweaty half the time that I just can’t exercise, and I’m an avid athlete. I am contemplating stopping my antipsychotics and just relying on my anti-anxiety medication (SSRI, Lexapro) and mood stabilizers for stability, especially since my psychosis was bearable for many years to begin with, and really only escalated to the level of being unlivable after acute trauma (the house fire.) I feel confident that between seeing my therapist, regularly for therapy, I can get off of the Abilify, since I’m honestly running out of antipsychotics to try… Most of them make me homicidal and hypervigilant, or make me gain too much weight when I’m already pre-diabetic. I don’t want to risk it. The only one that was neutral to me was Saphris, and that one didn’t work for me. Mind you, I’m only on 2 mg of Abilify so my psychosis is pretty mild to begin with, since some people need to be on 30 to control their paranoia and hallucinations.

Thoughts? Anyone here manage their psychosis with just mood stabilizers and therapy?

(Note: My current diagnosis is schizoaffective, not just schizophrenia.)

(I'm not anti-psychiatry. I just want to drop this one med because it's giving me problems. I'm posting a list of all the AP's that I've been on in the past, because I'm just giving up on them.)

-- Tue Aug 26, 2014 5:19 am --

All my past antipsychotics, and why I stopped them!

Latuda made me homicidal lol.
Saphris made me sleepwalk, and still kept me psychotic.
Geodon made me homicidal.
Zyprexa made me gain too much weight.
Risperdal ###$ with my hormones.
Seroquel made me too sleepy to function.
Trilafon didn't work for me, even at high doses.
I have a mild arrhythmia so I can't take Clozapine.
My pdoc mentioned one more, but it would mess with my Hashimoto's. So I can't take that one either.

I've literally tried them all.
And I don't want to risk becoming homicidal again, especially mid-semester.
I can live with psychosis. Last semester I was psychotic because Risperdal stopped working for me. I got a 2.75 GPA.
I can't live with wanting to stab people and burn the dorm down.

I was only labelled schizoaffective after all the medications messed me up including withdrawals from benzos with SSRIs and ADD drugs and anti psychotics all mixed up together with some drinking.

The joke amongst survivors is schizoaffective = caused by psychiatry itself and they know it.

Did you get the schizo affective diagnosis during addiction or withdrawals and or after being loaded up with or taken off other psychiatric drugs ?

I was on a ton of meds in and out of hospitals for years , got sober quit meds and am fine now.