Lost it with Anti-psych philosophies

thanks sixprime...

I am bored drinking coffee aswell as V Kaboom, went off coffee for the kaboom for a while.

Just read the letter I wrote to dr rigby and think its $#%^, I think he'll hardly get the point, forwarded another letter to him aswell when I was upset about the way the service pays me out about my memeories and puts them around the wrong hosptial admission and got the details wrong, someone "put a rope" around my neck nah thanks it was a noose, see what I mean they are making a mockery out of me, saying someone dangled a peice of rope accross my neck isn't really getting the details right, and that was my only problem why I got sleep deprived and repressed feelings and panic attacks etc, but they ignored it all, allthe things I wanted justice about as past hosptial admissions tied into these traumatic events and I had amnesia, my psychiatrist mocked me for saying several times to get the point accross that I couldn't remember what had happened when I went to pscyh ward, they tortured me in pscyh ward and nothing wrong with me just needed space from my worreid parents.

so bored just thought I would write on my topic....

myu girlfriend is ,making me sparkle, like I don't need weed anymore, but still planning to get some, don't have to warry about the tripping with the breathwork I will do when I smoke and do some meditaiton......

This isnt really helping my boredome, I don't really have anything to write about...hate quacks

On the topic of quacks and service I made peace with a race I made war with in 2012 and blamed the quacks for it so they got them hanging by theri wrists and they hate it....allso they have books to read in another part of the universe...my psychiatrist has improved only time will tell.

At the local milk bar I told this guy that asked me too many questions about how I am doing and where I am going tonight and hate answering him so I told him I don't llike his questions, and he said I was rude but his questions are rude it upset him but I was upset that he said I wa rude and hardly spoke up saying that his questions are rude, not like I am gonna tell him I am on atipscyhotic and don't do anything I am $#%^ the whole time hat answering his questions...so I went off at him psychically because he made me feel like $#%^ and had power over me to make me feel like $#%^ about it so went off at him....sore him today and he is not good, not as sure of himslef good can't stand him anyway hard to explain just his stupid face and energy is really dense and dumb ###$, gllad I gave it to him won't go to that milk bar I have an option, just want him to know that I am not rude by saying I don't like his questions he is rude for asking too many questions and should have got the message when I delay answering him and go "yeah" when he asks how I am like yeah good ###$ off stop asking me how I am , annoying and stupid ###$ called me bbrother and thinks I like him, can't stand him...showed him with psych attack like I been doing to the quacks, just my quack is a giant now , too big for her own boots but not bothering me we have peace even though simultaneaously she is recieveing treatment from this being that came to make peace with me...words out accross the universe that I am top $#%^ so should be treated with respect from the quacks showing them, time will tell I doubt they'll change much they are too set in their ways so I gonna ###$ them some more, this being holding them captive will show them if they act up can't stand the service all the ones who cause me trouble are hanging by their wrists, they tried to get me hanging me but I got out when I wass tripping the other night...my psychiatrist tried to threaten me to call off the treatmetn but its not up to me, glad she is not trying $#%^ on me she still has a lot of power but has read the book about me, or this being read it to her and did something to pacify her, she should respect me, but to her I am just a schiophrenic.

I shouldn't get too carried away with attacking people now the pscyhiatrists have got me attacking and attacking people that I don't like next up is talking to this kid from the fisk and chip shop smart arse young guy that makes me cringe trippin on me and degrading me, wanna tell him that I only go into get fish and chips days he doesn't work but he's always there so I never go in smart arse...wanna ###$ with him till he respects, like the frail guy from the milk bar gonna respect isntead of power tripping and thinking I am fun to ask how my day is going just couldn't stand answering him calling me brother and ###$ off, maybe I am gettinga bit trigger happy with the psych attacks but demanding respect...fich and chip bloke makes me cringe he doesn't respect me cocky bastard

sorry if nobody cares about people that are dickheads and pscyh attacking them like I doing to the quacks. got power it seems when I sore the milk bar dude, he will thinkk twice for being freindly and asking people things like where are you going tonight, is it fair enough I wouln't want to answer his stupid questions.

had awesome dream last night one of those vivd astral projection ike dreams where it on ly sometimes fades out, I went lots of places and visited my brother and laughed about dreaming and how I could do anything, I was looking for sex....at one point I went above into space but didn't make it to my girlfreinds place, that would be the ultimate if I ever get those kind of dreams to go visit my girlfreind and have sex, i did get to a place and a woman showed me some places then I attempted to rub my groin on her even though not interested and then her daughter appeared, I like schoolgirls and her arse was really good I groped her, wish it was my girlfriend though, the schoolgirl not like it so mucuh so didn't get to have sex in this vivid dream, not sure wheere I was....how can I go to my girlfirend place next time I leave the face of the earth into some other place, I want to see my girlfriend instead of school girld arses, I think my girlfriend would like it.

the woman from my dream knew I would like hr daughter, I can't help liking schoollgirls old peole get fat, I like it when they wear tights, I only really notice girls that are too young for me, around here there is lots of schoolgirls but not many my age they all have kids and too much baggiage plus the schoolgirls look better, its a shame not many older women keep their identity and feminine beauty into old age and always looked better and had better body when they schoolgirls.......almost wanted to have a wank over the schoolgirl in my dream her arse felt good but she not want to have sex, I like the kid of dream it was...like flying dream I went lots of places from my brothers plac I endd up fading out and then landing next to a beach and sore some guy when I noticing I carrying a case with a camera in it, ended up in a bar full of older women, women my age and one girl and brushed her legs going around a corner and she said something about taking $#%^ from people and how I shouldn't then my penis felt weird knew it wasn't a sex thing with her then it faded out agiain and I went left earth and to the place with the womans house and her showing me stuff going to fub my groin on her then her daughter appeared in between us and I groped her, kept going for a while tryed talking to the school girl.

am I sick for likeing schoolgirls more then girls my own age with kids and fatter? there bums get worse...I like checking out arses nobody notices me checking them out. I hate when they were tights but jackets cover their arse and only check out their legs, its winter so tights are in but so are long jackets./I like tights////sorry this has nothing to do with antipsychotiry.

-- Thu Aug 07, 2014 3:23 pm --

the woman from my dream knew I would like hr daughter, I can't help liking schoollgirls old peole get fat, I like it when they wear tights, I only really notice girls that are too young for me, around here there is lots of schoolgirls but not many my age they all have kids and too much baggiage plus the schoolgirls look better, its a shame not many older women keep their identity and feminine beauty into old age and always looked better and had better body when they schoolgirls.......almost wanted to have a wank over the schoolgirl in my dream her arse felt good but she not want to have sex, I like the kid of dream it was...like flying dream I went lots of places from my brothers plac I endd up fading out and then landing next to a beach and sore some guy when I noticing I carrying a case with a camera in it, ended up in a bar full of older women, women my age and one girl and brushed her legs going around a corner and she said something about taking $#%^ from people and how I shouldn't then my penis felt weird knew it wasn't a sex thing with her then it faded out agiain and I went left earth and to the place with the womans house and her showing me stuff going to fub my groin on her then her daughter appeared in between us and I groped her, kept going for a while tryed talking to the school girl.

am I sick for likeing schoolgirls more then girls my own age with kids and fatter? there bums get worse...I like checking out arses nobody notices me checking them out. I hate when they were tights but jackets cover their arse and only check out their legs, its winter so tights are in but so are long jackets./I like tights////sorry this has nothing to do with antipsychotiry.

now I got complex...I am 33 and I only really notice the local 17yr olds, they look better hardly attracted to any older girls, there seems to be a gap around here old women and school girls, what should I do...my girlfreind is over 500 earth years old so no crime there, she has kept herself very well for such an age...maybe it makes me seem disgusting talking about schoolgirls, just the one in my dream got me talking about it......I need to get off antipsychotic if I was to have a chance with any girl, sick of groups that are for metnal illness people I need to meet girls and get off antipsychotic so I can love and have sex energy that attracts girls, they notice me more when I off antipsychotic I get smiles and everything...my girlfirend aligning me to my higher slef meant I sore girls that notice me and one schoolgirl waved me off the bus, I thought I was in but its faded nobody noticing me, nobody even notices me check them out nobody even looks at me.

that stuff about schoolgirls probably scares people off...

I just commented an old thread of mine that showed up when I searching for negative symptoms from antipsychotic, nothing comes up!!! whats going on no wonder the quacks are useless with it, no thinkers are addressing the problem with the dopamine imbalance from the antipscyhotic causing problems, its an illness caused by the drugs just the illness seems better then pscyhoatic....
I have deteriourated since having so much to say about anitpsychiatry, had more intellignece now I am ###$ and my stuff with the girlfreind is probalby gonna land me more of their $#%^.

So why is there so little about the truth of what antipsycotics do and they remain hopefull that antipsychotic will fix the problem with the drug itself causing negative symptoms, some fantasy can't stand the quacks

killed my thread and any respect by going on about schoolgirls and tights...but it does bring up a thing the quacks would do by pathologising me based on my dreams, I have heared of other "schizophrenics" that have intense dreams and one guy who learns about egyptian gods from his dreams and the quacks just say its symptoms,,,, so some might talk a lot about their dreams...how can dreams be something schizophrenic if someone has weird dreams and talks about them and finds them interesting the quacks just pathologise them. so I had a dream about a school girl and I went on about schoolgirls, maybe I am a bit sick. lol// only problem is people reading it might realiise they like scool girls and catch something really sick off me. so what they are hot I won't talk about it anymore

this is whewre I could really ###$ my thread up!! lol coz psychiatry ###$ me up karmically, the gods not mind me checking out schoolgirls but what my prooblem is I had a crisis after doing a seance of sorts about a dead grandfather when I got stoned, I tried to contact him but I always liked him his ways made my girls in my famiy unwell and a suicide of a girl about my age at the time that really traumatised me and pedophilia was a big thing...after doing the seance I looked up child port I was 18 and didn't like waht I sore because I had a breakdown about it basically I was also wanting to become pure and spcyhiatry just ###$ it up, so now I still checking out schoolgirls because I am a donce on pscyh drugs, I would lead a more pure life and have been able to adress being a perve on arses, I like bums a lot and get away with checking out bums as much as I want...sometimes I masturbate ov er good ones I sore but its seperate to the astral, one I was bad and mastubated even though really proetctive of her as I drew her into bad trips, and I not want any harm to c ome of her, I would be protective and really good, they would probably like the way I treat them but I am ###$ on antipsychotic. got into trouble once with this girl I met online who clamied she was 18 but maybe she lied because she just wanted to have sex but brought a freind with her..she liked my dick and had to pull out thinking she about to scream as I penetrated her more deeply, so that was all then miraculously this freind calls and has a mate that needs to come to my part of town and needed a place to crash ...so I let HIm stay and spoilt ev erything with these two teenage girls and wass really outragedd that I would be having them over...had it made in uncles house overlooking the beach wasn't on antipscyhotic no way, I was pretty messed up but not as messed up as I am now thanks to their drugs....maybe I leave it with the bold and italics, jsut the italic symbol alread set out when I open this page so it made me do it..plus I wantd to ruin my thread by metnioning the sick thing with pedophilia in my family, maybe I suffereing the karma for my ancestors by going into it...does that make any sense...so I ruined myself again by saying my secret taht got me in trouble with a crisis over my karma...the higher beings not think much of my obsesion with bums and how the only attractive girls I see taht I wanna date are like 17 and I am getting too old, will I always even as an old man be obsessed with checking out bums of 16-17year olds?

http://www.breggin.com/iatrogenic.pbreggin.1983.pdf

check out breggin on iatrogenic stuff

almost lost conection with my girlfreind today, Ithink the antipscyhoatic is winning or something is

So my psychiatrist thinks astral projection is a delusion, a false belief...this just sounds absurd to me, how can she say I am deluded, more like a fantasy....there is nothing on the web that says astral projection is a symptom of schizophrenia but it still doesnt stop my shrink from degrading every aspect of my personal characteristics.

it is fading with my girlfreind, the antipsychotic is winning...I doubt I will have much more to say about this.

I just noticed, OMG are they giving you Haldol???