Silentrage wrote:Yeah, well, thank you for inspiring me to decide not to be open about my condition after all.
If an unrelated and passing comment on the internet throws you off your game that easily and quickly, it's more likely that you haven't yet taken full responsibility for managing your mental illness.
Those things you spoke were acts, the fact that the perpetrators were mentally ill means nothing to me. Correlation does not imply causation. I'm sorry, but I think you are thinking largely on an emotional level. Well, too much so for my taste.
Your taste doesn't determine how people are allowed to speak. And actually, I didn't think the comment was emotional at all. I think you're misinterpreting what was said. I'm not sure which perpetrators are supposed to be mentally ill, but I would also question that that statement is true.
One can call me whatever they like for this, but often with the case of me people who express similar sentiments most often have practically half my IQ.
You haven't said anything that indicates you have a high IQ. No one here has said anything that indicates they have a low IQ, either. Your IQ is not double mine, for example. The highest IQ person ever tested, or even estimated, hasn't got double my IQ. If you think your IQ is higher than the highest IQ ever tested or estimated, you most likely have a delusion.
I think this remark is a product of a generic hostility that you have toward anyone who doesn't agree with you, toward people who don't agree sufficiently with you, and probably, in not too long a time interval, people who agree with you - and that happens, largely due to your own paranoia and hostility. These aspects of schizophrenia can get out of control when schizophrenia is treated inadequately, when recreational drugs interfere with medication, when under-reporting symptoms leads to inadequate prescribing, and so on.
That's due to the fact that the majority of the general public has half my IQ.
Actually, they aren't. Whatever your IQ is, the majority of the general public doesn't have half your IQ. Again, you may be stating this due to delusions about your intelligence.
I struggle already to not view them as inferiors in the first place, so when they try to tell me how I should be handled, be it directly or indirectly, personal or impersonal (and it is usually indirect and impersonal as I do nothing to warrant anything) I get, ehm, perturbed.
Your perturbation is unjustified. And again, most likely due to delusional thinking.
How would you enjoy it when you heard people you fight not to view as earth worms attempt to speak with authority over you, no matter how indirect or minutely?
If you think that's what's going on, you would be suffering from a delusion(or multiple delusions).
It will annoy me simply on grounds of association. Mostly, I hate most others with my condition and have no compassion for them.
The above statement calls into question, your claimed IQ. Hatred and grandiosity generally work at cross purposes to intelligence, and they generally oppose, block and interfere with, intelligence.
I do not relate to them at all. I don't go to outpatient talking things as I'd sit there and think "You pathetic weakling, shut up and quit making me look bad."
Again, delusional thinking and hostility.
When I go to my clinic, I sit away from others until I'm called and fight the urge to sneer at them as I try to put forth a humble appearance, which, most fall for. It's only online really that I can cut loose like this. That is not at all to say it's all their is too me.
I would expect that a person with an 'intelligence' double mine, would know how to correctly use the word 'their'.![]()
Anyway... these people's weakness disgusts me as they are indirectly making me look bad.
Again. Delusional hostile thinking. The above statement is irrational.
The fact that they occasionally lose control, act funny, and require hospitalization reflects poorly on me.
Delusion.
Your words towards me here are an example of this. Sometimes I look upon these people and wonder if I've been misdiagnosed, surely I can't share a condition with them, truth is, I likely do.
Unfortunately, it doesn't sound like you're sharing recovery, adjustment, compassion, empathy, or other indications of - intelligence.
Actually, I've been told directly, a number of times, that my high-IQ is largely what sets me apart. It's a major, if not the principle reason that I am high-functioning.
I'm not sure if you're high functioning. Your level of hostility and delusions about yourself and your importance and significance, suggest you're not functioning on a high level.
You know, people like me, people with this condition or others who control it as I do,
Again, this may be something of a delusion as well. I see no indication that you're controlling your illness.
they have my utmost respect. They are my kin .. in a sense my brothers, sisters, you know? These people who aren't high-functioning? I feel nothing in common with them. I feel no empathy for them. I can't lie, I simply don't.
Again.
Anyway... further, the way you speak rings of how the draconian British mental health system wants to begin detaining people with serious conditions before they've even done anything.
Yeah, what's the point in keeping someone from harming themselves? In lacking empathy for all but those you deem to reach your level of perfection, you are in fact, draconian yourself. Again, this is a delusional thought process at work, one, that mental health detentions are about violating criminal law, and two, that there is no reason to require assisted treatment except breaking the law.
There is actually some talk in the community of detaining them indefinitely without cause. This is largely championed by people acting on hysteria based around isolated incidents (read: mothers had a huge role in beginning the campaign, they also championed prohibition if you follow me), and also owes thanks to the ever so slightly more autocratic nature of governance there. That's not at all to say US governance nor anywhere else is brilliant either.
People like my friend who was mentally retarded, autistic and schizophrenic, die when they are out in the street. Oh, I forgot, they're inferior to you, so who cares if they die, right?
So when you concern yourself about the mentally ill, don't drag me into it. I'll concern myself with me, and I am very good at it. I suppose they need someone to be concerned about them, as I struggle to seeing as they reflect me poorly.
Again, this is a delusional idea - that someone else's mental illness reflects in any way, on you. Grandios thinking. I don't see any evidence that you're so good at taking care of yourself. No evidence.
If I am so dangerous, why did two countries let me become residents of their country and live in both long-term? Why could I own a gun if I so chose (I have no interest in owning a gun).
By the way, I never get out of control psychosis. I never get full-blown psychosis at all, actually. Not anywhere near it.
So you seem to believe.
Edit: I lived in the original posters country for many years. He doesn't exaggerate, and it indeed is not good at all. I actually was acquainted with one man there with schizoaffective disorder --and one of the nicest, and toughest men I knew-- and he told a tale of how he went to his GP complaining of side-effects from his medication and that he'd have liked to change to another, the doctor replied by saying he would call the police and have him strapped down and forcefully injected.
Maybe that's not really what happened.
I believed him, as I had the same GP as him. While a d--- to me as well, he never spoke to me that way. I don't get injections and have never done anything, I take pills myself and without supervision I might add (someone's completely misplaced condescension annoys me).
If you are taking medication, and it's being taken consistently, at an appropriate dose, then you need to use your own self-help skills, to work on the hostility and delusional thinking that remains.
With the sentiments you express, dear, you are my political and social enemy. It doesn't matter how much you profess to be my advocate, as for one, I do not require your advocacy. I don't like your views pertaining to me and I am opposed to not only said views -- but to you as well by extension.
Again, same statement as previous comment. You have a lot to work on. You may lack insight into how you interact with people, or how delusional you are. But hopefully, some day you'll figure it out, and start working on managing your hostility and your delusions.
-- Mon Jan 20, 2014 9:06 pm --
Sometimes I'll do things just to demonstrate/remind doctors that they've got no control over me. Like they'll ask me to stop by my 'med mentor' to check up with her before I go. I'll say "ok, sure" and then walk straight out. It's funny. So now they ask really politely "look, would you mind stopping by and talking to her?" I'll say "yeah, ok, no problem" and then walk out of the door.
Exactly who do you think gets hurt, ultimately, by such childish behavior?
I get treated special there now which was both my want and expectation.
I don't know of any way you are being treated 'special' (Again, grammar not in keeping with that 'double-everyone-else's-IQ').