by Razael » Sat Feb 08, 2014 2:35 am
I know what you mean vennessa about improvising music is near impossiblle, and I get worse with practice playing the same $#%^ over again...I used to play viola and guitar whatever I could...used to be a lot of things in way of philosophy on life and creativity in life and enjoying life to boring and #######5 all day long and in bed feeling like $#%^ enough to feel suicidal, sorry if that is triggering...I not feel suicidal anymore since some of my spiritual perceptions returned for a while long enough to go on a voyage of the universe and some increadible places and beings gods and angels and all species in their home in the universe...so I feel bettter and realize I only gonna get out of it when I quit fighting, they see someone struggling with the system and they say its schizophrenia so no way out to fight it...tough situation..hope none of you guys endu \up on community treatment orders or injections to take the $#%^ whether you like it or not, more you squirm and get angry about it the more they pin you with metnal illness.
They've no insight on iatrogenic illness & PTSD of hospitalisation torture with NDE, amnesiac to an attemted murder +covered up road accident.betrays justice,Sleep deprivation. HIgher dimensional development of perceptions of astral projection to higher lifeforms in the cosmos.Esoteric journey and become a god