by Razael » Sun Jan 19, 2014 4:11 am
sorry this is long I elaborated on my position with psychiatry a lot but what I watned to say is; I'm the total oposite it gets me in trouble, the more I learnt and had veiw point that is antipsychotary the more they clamped down on me and made my veiws into that of an illness, any time I tried to talk some sense into the psychiatrist it just came accross thought disordered to them coz it doesn't make any sense to them, they make opposed veiws into illnesss, once already got the label everything fits into the label when I start talking to them about my veiws. so I learning the way to play the game enough to be put on orals is the only way I see of getting out of it, no antipsychiatry veiws are gonna save my arse and they definately see an antipsychiatry agitation to the system when being processed as a reason to give you drugs to relieve psychotic agitation , thats all they see just someone with a label nothing can say or feel about the situation and how unfair it is can resolve it...so nothing gonna save me although what I come up with recently in regard to being set up as sa schizophrenic having guilt over what I did to my cousin in early teens resulting in battle of wits and transcendence to obtaining purity and over sins of the past like a new beginning, only ###$ by being set up as a schiz and my autee robbed me of a bank account I wrote out of thin air, I got it from university guy I met one day who wrote me a check...so what I really saying is the antipsychotic ###$ with my healing and self assured lifestyle beyond my teenage crimes I suffered over...but surely if I can articulate this well to a pscyhiatrist they will just ignore every last detail and just think its work of a schizophrenic brain to say that psychiatry got in the way of karmic purity sessions, I can't explain it bvvery well ...maybe I need proof, they sure as hell don't believe me about beings set up as a schizophrenic they say the opinion of the quacks I met along the way says this, but none addressed my original psychosis and I got left for dead in wake of transformations to obtain purity and devinity to be closer with god. instead part of me was still dealing with it in all the wrong places, antipsychotics set me up for this to never really deal with what it means and who am I kind of thing, antipsychotics let in all the bad $#%^ and let you get away with leading an impure life when all the signs are this $#%^ is really bad for you and something needs to change and I get transcendent over it and it leads to imporved lifetyle....I leave all that $#%^ behind me if I got off antipsychotic, they are holding me bac k from my destiny to reaffirm my place in the world and to take action on motivationally rich time of opportunity by being my natural self off antipsychotics, maybe I can't get any more antipsychiatry then this if I condendse this idea into something workable to explain to the psychiatrist and address my key issues with life, how am I gonna transform when on antipsychotic, transform into what, I have no guidance in antipscy hotic haze no intuition and god given spark to know widsom and intelligence of the stars, bright minded and they say this is an illness to have a bright mind, and full of energy that gets turned into a situation with being antipscyhiatry in that environment in hospital, we really dneed to learn soemthing about it to save anyone else who is strongly opposed to the environments clinical environment from saving them from themselves in arcking up getting security and being seen as a compliance risks and b eing forceed with injections and CTO's, maybe playing the game no matter how much that really annoyed me is necessary, I sure had a long hospital stay for refusing and I was rude to everyfone and had real attitude and they not gonna release me in a hurry for that attitude alone they sore as something to treat its just antipsychiatry in its prime when you feel it like a passion in the situation with forced drugging and dealing with stupidity......perhaps my 8 week hospital stay not so good for me and elemets of what I discovered off the treatments and reason for bringging me back for treatmnet was in ffull perspective and on the road of discovery but after treatment I was hanging onto them and they becoming bad or not dealing with them correctly and relying on a celbrity to open me up but it turned sour and I automatically try to get rid of her though now I miss having her around she doesn't like me anymore so now I getting myself in perspective and way out to be who I am really and maybea bit more attractive, I am nothing on this treatment and not worthy of her attention, hard to explain what I orignially meant but hanging onto to those eliments workes against my favour at convincing people that I just not right, something whacko going on, I thought this song was about me and I kept going at it and spoiling her image for the people I told about it, so wrong to ever bring it out in public, I was dumb and perhaps just hanging onto the situation by talking about it lots is really bad habit to get into, when your whole life revolves around this celbrity is not good, she only thing keeping it real while I was at hospital and kkept my dreams alive, same situattion for the extyradimentional beings I kept on about that coz I didn't want to loose it, the clebrity thing ultimately what made me come undone on here for opening up about private $#%^ she onto about my crimes, so they couldn't kill my fascinations and precoccupation with inner life of magic that makes me schizoptyapl not schizophrenic for I am fine and they couldn't kill it.
I learntt to play dumb and jjust accept it, its the only way out and put drugs under my tongue but sometimes when we talking going onto clozapine i took some to see how I would react to it, only half but still got bad reaction so glad to put my body through that..Ithen put the haloperidole under my tongue for a while untlil they start giving me oral liquid $#%^ tastes nasty and then just preteend like I normally did tonguing it that all is ggood, then start getting addicted to medication time and playing good to get all the good vib3es from nurses doing their job, they are only decent human beings when you are medicattion compliant they like it it makes their day easy and smooth, reactive bunch of halfwits really and definatley go on tangents and get confusing and realy overbearing when medication resistant before they start calling security but having a debate, they get really ###$ in the head and start talking in circles then accuse you usually before you even get a chance to debate of talking round in circles or some $#%^ line that just confuses you, we have to agree to disagree on that one kind of thing how you get past those lines and have a healthy debate is another matter, you not likely to get healthy debate but if you do that you get more medication if you refusing and injection better to play the game tonguing an olanzapine wafer, you can its easy, maybe swallow a little bit but you can tongue oral liquid to a digree if you smart about it , its hard to talk but just let some slidde over your tongeand swallow a bit and just nod or something and smile the nurses like people who enjoy medicaation time:), thats what Imean I had to tone it down so thats why hospital was not so good for my antipsychiatry veiwpoionts...I am stoned now sorry this is just garbage ly written etc.
but the putting the drugs under my tongue and yeah you can still do it with olanzapine wafers and just spit it out, hell you can actually do it with oral liquid until they start giving me formulation that doesn't work with so well but I did it with oral liquid just a matter of taking the hard tablets with water then athe oral liquid under the tongue and keep your mouth shut, but this too results in getting higher doses when not usual if taking it would be ###$ up and docile and not talking much not bothering talking coz its hard to think and nothing much to say and rec overed, no feeling etc but when you still feeling they still trying to sedate you and they just increase the dose untill you do or catch you tonguing them and give you injection and maybe high security unit or something...
I developed a lot of attraction for female nurses and usually try to charm the female staff and students who come in, probably got a bad reputat9i9on from it with more seniour staff, but they like me if you know whatt I mean they all really like me but I am just an arshole when antipsychitary, if you get my drift but they still like me even though I am antipsychiatry, just because they like me doesn't meant hey gonna listen to me though if I give them a peace of my mind especilaly the psychiatrist who don't like me as much as everyone else and are actually the ones who the filth and disrespect and spitting in their faces and all $#%^ that gonna get you security locked up and drugged out of your mind that attitude when dealing with this filth if you get my drift. all makes for a long hospital stay so I don't necessariluy agree that my life been saved by antipscy ch until I can actually make something happen, its all ###$ lately from celbrity thing and the robbery relating to pedophilic feelings and a personal crisis over those feelings about myself and being set up for a life closer to god as a consequence only ###$ up by antipsychotics, reason to feel antipsychiatry...maybe I get back to this, it does help my life to hav e these bveiw peoint I see is part of my life purpose to do something about it, but in howpital not the right place they just label it as schizophrenia for being antiauthoritarian and its a crime of social control to have me dumbed down and accepting of this filthy treatment.
They've no insight on iatrogenic illness & PTSD of hospitalisation torture with NDE, amnesiac to an attemted murder +covered up road accident.betrays justice,Sleep deprivation. HIgher dimensional development of perceptions of astral projection to higher lifeforms in the cosmos.Esoteric journey and become a god