antipsychotics with labeling - loosing credibility

Is it just me or something coz I find the psychiatrist are aloof and ignornt when it comes to the affect of the drugs, the mediclall model or whatever is stating thata these are symptoms since they have a mystical magiccal way of how these drugs address symptoms and leave the rest alone....

but if I wass going to explain this incompetence to a judge would they just takke the psychiatrist word even though I discredit them ith lived experinece of the affect of the drugs...They are also discredited in making my religious and spiritual beliefs against me and refusal for me to be indoctrinated into the philosophy and cult of drug taking for my mental illness....and they never come to realizze that drugs are not necessary and actually lead to suppression of symptoms and that must be relived to learn karmic lessons in life...If you notice some really primaative mechanism in the surface action during psychosis or causing psychosis with such bad vibrations of negative energy associated to internal stressors..living in the love of god is the other extreme like flicking between states of bad kkarmic patterns to overcome and promise of reaching higher vibrations of being and existance like we progress during life to higher staates and spiritual path if that way inclined to take pride in existance or have some philosophy about what proceeds deaath and life of the astral and soul spirit or whatever.

for someone acting on the will of the medical model of normal, there is no normal it should be takkken into consideration the perspective of patient to docotcot and maybe their is some validity and integrity when the patient says the doctor is discredited for even conflicts of interest in the medical literature. this is authentic but since i am labeld it comes out as i am talaking conspirtcy this is part of the action of ignorance to make it out and discriminate me as being mentally ill.

sorry this is so long and probably scattered and not to the point

but really want to discuss this problem of being discredited from effects of drugs, they dull consciousness definately they make some people zombies but if one was to fight and say these drugs effect my consciousness in so-or -so way they make it out to be symptoms and the patient is stuck in a world of ignorance or just the attempt of indoctrinating into self-belief in this notions of metnal illness, even if I present that I am above such notions from knowin gmy own philoisophical belief they $#%^ on it by making my beliefs uppoing psychiatry to mean illness...its simple and this being persecuted for refusing phili9sophical notions of the medical model and provided by psychiatrists is gonna cause a reaaction and right not to have to believe anything that isn''t validated with internal and my own religious and philisophical truths...they make it an illness and thiis is actually my case taking this further..

I adjourned the hearing hopefully it will all come together...going by the mental helath act..still haven't considered it from perspective of out equal oportunity act that goes into them discriminating me as metnally ill one and discrimiantaing and vvilifying my religious beliefs. my religioun includes what might be determined psychosis if stressed and sleep deprived..

even credibiltiy when I state that sleep deprivation was main fproblem and thier drugs just ###$ with my thinking and made me sick....yeah I talk fast and I was intelligent and spritual evolutionary

-- Thu Jul 25, 2013 11:49 am --

this is just $#%^ sorry

the point is am I discredited for being labeled schizophrenic...but I am also at disadvantage being incapaacitated by the drugs to be able to express myself ...like I am clearer without the affects of the antipsychotics

It also makes me wonder about the kind of audience you have when talking, some audiences like a psychiatrist will not be able to understand or acknowledge what i am saying and will block their ears and just say it sounds disorganised to go allong with the label even when I explain my insight into the situation of difficulty in being able to rouse thought in association to communication...even the notion that my communication is no indication of my normal mental state, they seem to assume I am plagued by excessive thinking coz I used to have a lot to saya about their doctrines and indoctrinating me into being the label and accepti9ng the "medication"