Help me get over it

I can't get over the abuse i've suffered since 13 by pychiatrists and the general injustice i feel has transpired. I was given 22 electroshcoks at the johns hopkins hospital at only the age of 15. They said i was treatment resistant for deppresion. I feel like i actually had a medical problem because of severe head pain and cognitive impairment. Also fatigue and weird sensations at the back of my head where i had a head injury. They didn't listen. They have given me over 30 drugs in my 8 years ive been there and they changed me. Now i am so argumentive about my parents about this and i feel like a brain damamged animal. Pychiatry reduced me to labels and made me do htings i wish i didint do. These drugs did things to my mind i cannot fix and i dont know if i can take it. I'm 20 now and supposedly my life is supposed to start but ive been in mental hospitals my whole adolescen and feel my life is over. Well i have been hospitalized at least 10 times now. And everytime they dont understand the brain damage they are giving me. I cant rememeber anything. Not even the hospitalizations. I want these docots at johns hopkins hospital and shepard pratt (mostly johns hopkins) and the coercive nature of this system to end!

How am i suppoed to get over the abuse? It is tearing my family apart. I have been seeign a therapist for 3 years and that hasnt even abated my rage and self destructiveness and hopeplessness. All i wanted was to be smart but they brain damaged me and made me a fat loser.

Join us in the human rights fight against this abuse.

Your story is valuable, its important to expose the crap psychiatry does to people.

There are a lot of us who have been screwed over and abused by psychiatry.

There pills almost killed me. The damage they were doing was blamed on what ever psych label they could laid on me to take the blame.

How I let this go on for so long I blame on a bad memory of who I was before all the pills and psych fraud.

I saw them do that electroshock thing to a teen girl and it pissed me off the way she came back after that, there was nothing wrong with her unless screaming "I hate this f%cking hospital and want to go home" is a brain disease.

Writing here helped me get over what happened to me , I found place to fight back against the evil $#%^ psychiatry does to people.

There are lots of ways to fight back on line, like making webpages exposing what goes on at that hospital behind closed doors.

-- Sat Jul 13, 2013 5:51 am --

P.S The first step in recovery is recognizing psychiatry as the problem. (at least it was for me).

Recovery doesn't mean going 100% med free overnight or ever, it means taking your life back from the quacks and getting better.

Good job.