I'm still a free man-Razael's Thread

Hey Razael!
I'm glad that you're back. I've been away myself for a week or so, and am just catching up now. I haven't had time to read all your posts here yet to see what's been going on but I just wanted to pop in and say hi!

I look forward to hearing all about your adventures.
-Cheze2

enjoy cheze if you can........here it is http://youtu.be/F9S-88WxPdE get this...this is the song DARKHORSE I been talking about so what for my leaving on 777 posts, I shouldn't have said about my bad trips in that long message previously...so here is the song I am o0n about, found her facebook then got blocked as I said when I told her which hospital I was in, no worries she also removed her hashtag darkhorse to find her private facebook account so I can't find her now, but that would be stalking still I checked to see if she still there as she told me in hosptial that she didn't block me but she did, maybe she didn't even know it was me, once she came to me telling me I picked up, lol maybe I did but I ruined it by borrowing a tablet in hopsitla to let her know where I was and got blocked....

not sure about giving it away like this, who the clebrity is and everything, but I only just put up a hashtag about getting blocked by her and how I thought this song was about me, it won't make any difference as it is almost already ruined and wedge driven between us, she has a relationship at the moment and not sure about the fame aspect, so it fell out, hope it comes back..plus my neighbour and mate trying to steal her away from me, maybe that means she have visions about some random I am not sure but she tried to help the situation with him trying to steal her.

listen to the song I think it even sounds like it says my name at the end "ryan" theres no going back, but that might just be my trip and she doesn't say my name at the end I just wanna hear that...in roar near the end when it goes into her trying to say Roy or raor but she sounds like she trying to say myname...as I said the record industry would be funny about it if it actually sounded like a good attempt at saying my name but its discreet...maybe thats too much to think my name is in it....she says mantra-ry never thought I could see so clearly looking through my third eye on legendary lovers which is a good one, we should be legendary lovers like yeah she got a feeling about the kind of chemistry we had that we make a good lovers...but this is just my interpretation of the album...

anyway nothing to hide, I doubt this could ruin it to share what song I am talking about , have a listen if you like its good $#%^....

maybe nobody will get this anyway, better then giving it away talking about which song I reckoned talked about how we met before the album goes into more sorrowfull themes of lost love and being strong and picking herself up agian, I think when I went into psych treatments and we lost out, I didn't share with them that I had an astral love affair although I might have told an OT...I told them this time since Dark Horse came out, thats the track I link to.....

Just a shcizophrenic thing although I handle all this really well, she said once this album was schizophrenic wonder what she meant...it doesn't make any difference although I would like our relationship to be sweet, telling people about it ###$ it up and my mate ###$ it up, not sure if it will work out or the wedge is driven between us..not sure what will happen but hope it recovers, and hope she not get married yet....wonder if she still likes me even though about the mate stealing her not so good I didn't do what was told of me when she came over wanting to connect after I got out of hospital and I stayed at the mates house smoking joints and revelaling secret information to him and he caught onto my astral freind and ended up trying to steal her.

sorry about writing about my bad rtrips....the worst one was when I had trip of the hosptital coming at me asttrally with a syringe and she trid to snap it and cut her finger and then they tried to inject my neck and this black inkk into my body and I could see this horrible black $#%^ in my body and then she couldn't see me anymore real disaster that I managed to fight, it was horrible and typical feelings of persecution torture feelings by psychiatry, the next day I went into the hospital trying to manifest some images of me and hhow they made me her X, not sure if trying to prove magi9c to them made me dull and now not so mcuh magic potential, wasted energy that I could be sharing with my love...

fell out of love with the celebrity with the antipsychotics, they say no lovve lost in real life and I can still feel love but no, its killed it, but I hang onto still interracting with her and she saved my arse to keep it going despite lack of love feelings that sometimes creep through, now just scared about the possabilities, and if she will come aT ME AGAIN LIKE A DARK HORSE, i THINK OUR lesson the other night is she is a bit full on with me and might need to tone it down, but I like it, she can do whatever she likes to me, safe though. trying to get rid of her subconsciously to get some sleep but she says I not gonna get rid of her that easy

its helping listening to the radioo instead of obsession with Katy Perry there it is., forgive me she is quite an attractive woman, and I said it so no going back now......hope searches on the net just ignore this story...a bit far fetched..maybe I ruining it all with my own hand I am supposed to keep it a secret...how should I battle ruining it...I don't see it making any difference currently coz its died a bit though she is still trying to talk to me but I am useless and no hope and down and out about it, no magic spark but she might persist coz she knows who I am without psych treatment and what my potentials are and I should be seeing myself as worthy of her attention, but I don't feel worthy..
so I ruined leaving my posts on 777 so what I shouldn't be silly...so just letting youj all kknow who I am talking about, coz I don't think it will make any difference...hope I haven't done the wrong thing..check the link if you havent heared dark horse before you might enjoy it even if not a KP fan.

It was the right thing to do, I mentioned international smile so people would find out if they are curious, hopefully not curiosity killed the cat if they treid to steal my situation with her, wouldn't work anyway.

maybe I ruined the song by linking it here, and I ruined my 777 posts tally..

Nobody believe me please, its failing now anyway although I think she is still with me, I am just useless at the moment and don't feel worthy of her in my life...I missed out anyway coz while we builiding it I ended up in psych treatments and she had to move on???I don't know now but maybe I shouldn't have talked about it here...too late and i did,,,,interesting schizophrenic forum idea, nevermind about her saying my name at the end, sometimes it sounds different..maybe she learnt more zen with her album. I think its zen and maybe I should keep my trip going because I might b e putting some light and magic into the album about me, lol.....maybe I should keep going as much as possible even dispite the weird feelings about it now from talking about it......

maybe interpretation of the song could be that I asked for some fantasy with her and get what I want but there is no going back she gonna use me and $#%^...but its all the fault of psychiatry for ruining us when it first started, not that they would ever know at the time that I had a thing with Katy perry...there it is again...being honest...so what I have a magic love crush on a celebrity and now I am revealing obviously who its about.....so what.....nothing much else to say...hope she forgives me for revealing it, even though I left so many clues for anyone desperate to know who I am on about ......

what should I do about it, thats what I was wondering the other night when the fame situation and worthyness was an issue, I lost it in my own head...hope it recovers coz I like having her with me even though it mightn't ever move into a physical realtionship, not getting any signs from her in real life, she nevber responded to me on facebook but teling me I picked up, maybe she liked it untill revealing that I was in a particular hospital....and yeah when she came to me in the park not sure what to think, maybe it wasn't even her, and I didn't go over so tough luck really,..I shoulda gone over, but that is just trippy, how did she do that....or that means that she really does like me, or she interested in me. even though I am ruined now.

lots to say about this to myself...am worried about who finds this, just as long as they know I dont feel worthy anymore and its driven a wedge between us and my receptabitilltiy to her visiting me astrally, and the mate stealing her from me, that was no good...maybe it get better when I think this mate is over wanting her around too...

sorry its all about this celbrity, must be getting boring and I might be repeating mysellf talking about through this.

-- Fri Dec 13, 2013 3:20 pm --

I guess people would tend to ignore it here anyway...maybe its good to be more open about it and let people know whata the song is http://youtu.be/F9S-88WxPdE there it is again, have a listen if youj dare, I guess I should be disturbed by it..gllad she likes me though, or am I just tripping, she doesn't even know me and I should listen to the nurses saying I don't have a chance in hell of dating her, which is probably true, but possabilities maybe she does know about me and like this track was a sign that she did know about me.........maybe I leave it alone now with all this talking about it...its probably boring

I like that sound that sounds like my voice in it, maybe not always hear it like some of the other sounds....when I first heared the track it was just clicks and the keys...addictive song. when iuts good it sounds like both of us are singing the line that is all zened out and hardly visable, I guess that is some trip I doing with the song, maybe I should keep it up...it just came on the radio and she sounds different when she says some lines...this track is magic.../not sure what I would be contributing to it, or what I contributed....had tripps a long time ago that I was in the recording studio and met one of the producers...maybe I was being annoying and the song is about how she gonna get me back.....maybe I shouldn't be giving it all to her....except for her fixing me up.////

-- Fri Dec 13, 2013 3:36 pm --

to me now it sounds like she says "I am" when I thought other times it almost sounds like she is saying Ryan right at the end, sounds like she ends it with an N but maybe the R is hidden...maybe I doubt it now...

sorry for this trip...I gone on about it too much.

more like the album is about brand and mayer, dunno why I thought it was about me, silly me as if she would know about me even though some tracks sound like she is talking about something mysterious and magic, maybe thats about mayer dunno.......lucky she can still find me but she got upset about me looking through fan pages and videos of interviews on facebook......

still getting visions of her, so don't know what to do about it...I am finnished talking about it coz I don't wanna jinx it, her being able to find me and $#%^........

maybe move onto visions of extradimentional beings, more interesting then something that never gonna happen with a celbrity, even though she has helped me immensly but not enough to feel the love that we have, or I have in my heart about a celebrity...antipsychotics suck big time, and maybe its made a mess of me for ever being her freind in real life, even though we might be more then freinds, I still like her as a freind........maybe go back to her lookalikes, that will do me....get back to that crush that crushed me in 2011 over her and her lookalikes, she featured more so eventually..

can't tell if she blocked me coz page broken when I tried to load it after logging out, unless facebook has some safety thing to prevent blocked pages from coming up even when logged out, so maybe her voice telling me she didn't block me is true, she might have taken her page down, or I scared her off, too much of distraction from normalcy.

http://youtu.be/t5Sd5c4o9UM ET , I liked this song, and was really into it when in psychward 2011 it came on the TV and my thing with her only just starting...this song changed me I think..fireworks had just come out and I sore lights coming out of my sterio when chilled out listening to the radio, it made me cry and I thought I had to know who she is, so I found out, the hard way, then this track came out ET and thought it could be about me, at least a joke cozz I like extraterrestrial different DNA....but the best track is darkhorse, I already linked to that.

enough boring talk about me and this crush, does she know about me and have telepathic interest in me???maybe it sounds to far fetched...as if I have a chance with her, it scares me too much anyway...just wanna be her friend, but as if that gonna happen.

imaginary freind maybe, maybe thats all its gonna ever be, maybe Ill get used to it...so far things are going really well compared to last few days..she's closer but I still struggling to hold the image of her in my head and be receptive to her...got me feeling good I tell you

sorry i9f this is boring, all the $#%^ that is going through my head about this clebrity and I gave it away who it is...not that I think it will hurt anymore, its gotten better since talking about it on facebook......blissed out right now.

I am treatmnet resisitant, you know they tried to drug me out of this celebrity crush and it didn't work, maybe she helped or at least thats what the story is...gonna go and immerse myself in loving goodness of my imaginary friendship with her.

don't care what anybody thinks and they can't make for any bad news now anyway, I think she helped resolve my problem with the mate trying to steal her by coming to me stronger to keep it alive..

really I should save all this, won't bore people anymore by talking about it....at least I not embarrass myself by starting a new thread for people to call me schizophrenic about it..maybe its real and I just don't kknow it yet, I should respect it as real for her sake anyway so not to make for any bad vibes about our connection...I like when her face comes to me...b it different form to what I used to deal with, with her in my bed and all walking around my appartment...I liked it..now I see her more clearly even then I used to! lucky I guess, especially since I just got out of hospital and they supposed to be destroying it.....

not sure where my VCAT case is at, got overwhelmed by this celbrity crush that came up near the end after putting in some quality submissions when I had forgotten about her, it came back up now difficult to see me getting off CTO when this $#%^ just sounds metnally ill..not sure what to do about it..but the member was a decent woman and open to telepathic stuff in making her descision and I won over the psychiatrists on her after thoughts about the case....not sure if the celbrity can help telepathically, if its real...I can't expect her to write to VCAT, thats not gonna happen for her own image etc....I think I gonna be dissappointed in what comes of the hearing...a l0ot went into it, but ###$ over celbrity phenomena eventually, but what if its true, doesn't hurt my life in anyway, maybe the member will see that....wonder if the member got the album to get involved with my delusions lol, interesting case, this guy claims to have a thing with a celbrity would they check into it, or pass it off like the doctors say its a delusion that needs medication immediately, how cruel they don't know what they are destroying..

I'll get off it somehow...wouldn't mind spending christmas with her, but that not gonna happen, rather her then my family thats for sure and my mum will try to dominate my position to rid any love from my life, anyone gonna steal my mums baby away from her, I wanna be stolen....be nice if I am right about her and she can help me be the man I deserve to be for the sake of the world at large, I can be so much better then I am on treatments, and more attractive and getting freinds with my love, but she gotta boyfreind, so aim for friends I guess....not that this is gonna happen......

thats where my head is at....I am still a free man thread is filling up about my love crush on celbrity........lol.....but gotta get interesting as this $#%^ is probably boring. the thing is why have I got so much to say about this? its really filling up my thread and peopple will get bored, at least its antipsychiatry coz my love has been partially destroyed, even though its some mystical kind of love affair that not set in physical reality, more a dream...and yeah I have dreams about her in waking life, even lucky to have dreams about her in my dreams while at hosptiall when I was still strong and off treatments....

hope I don't go on about it anymore, sorry I bored everyone with it, wrote so much about it its rediculous.......maybe its about my treatment resisitance now? I hope she keeps finding me and making me feel good, if only I was more receptive to her for quality interraction, none of this boring I dont know anymore your a celbrity I am a nobody lets call it quits, not getting away that easy, luckkily...might be going good for long time yet, but if she gets married that will see it turn bad, I won't want her so much if she keeps me as a thing in her new marriage.....hope its alright I let psychforums know who my crush is about and link to the song here it is agian, its about me lol, not really I don't know but I sure as hell thought it was a sign that she knows about us......http://youtu.be/F9S-88WxPdE DARKHorse

I so bored I just gonna talk more on this.

not sure how I remained treatment resisitant and already talked about how I should talk abnobut the extradimentional beings, they are more interesting but nothing to say yet..lost contact with them and the story abnout meeting them would be too forced at this point in time..its all about me and this celbrity crush....think I already metnioned about them in earlier posts.

so some of the guides that came down I tried to employ to help the situation with psychiatry but it didn't work...in hospital my journeys ended but I was lucky to do quite a lot of journeying..maybe nothing much to say about it at this point I am just bored and felt like writing and trying to change the topic.....the clebrity sure helped with the curse my ex put on me so I should be thankfull, maybe I get a girlfriend soon and forget about her, but it will be her that open me up to having one...

wish there was a way to reconnect with extradimentional beings, its hard at the moment since doing magic stuff to the hospitla the other day kinda faded my interpretation of beings in my astral space with doubts about it all from them, plus this celbrity is taking prominance...

staying up late like old times refusing meds, I feel good though maybe I shouldn't be drinking pepsi at 130am...time to lay down I guess and thinkk about my crush and try to move it somehow to something more tangible...

that reminds me in hopsital I used this girls phone to find my loves page no longer there and this post by this astral expert came up about ushering in a new world and really positive stuff and congratulating my good work kind of thig but then I wrote I am trying to educatie the psychitarists and am in hosptial and the message dissappeared..I wrote to him and he didn't know anything about it and his tune changed to telling me to be more grounded in three dimentional space like an idiot coz he sucked into the psychiatry #######4 and thinks I need help to settle kind of thing, sure ruined any potential with that freindship..wonder what happened to his message with all positive and lets learn about this $#%^...he even tells me now to come back down from heaven and into the earth....in my visions 2012 a vampire race took over the place at the centre of the earth, so not sure if that still the case after his words directed my visions to the centre of the earth.....anyone know what I mean once someone thinks you need help they change and are really annoying about centreing thoughts and self discipline and everything, I have self discipline I know I don't prove that by going on about my hesitations to do with the celbrity...but I have self discipline already and nothing I can do about improving myself once already in psychiatric lockup....anyone know what I mean or I scare everyone off from reading this thinking I just obsessed with Katy Perry? lol I should feel good about bei9ng open about it, just worried it will show up in search engines.

staying out of bed like a trooper drinking pepsi listening to katy perry lol, I totally not the type to get into katy perry but I am supportive of her work and find I actually respect her work a lot, I am more a metal fan I guess, and I like rap mainly cypress hill but I just not educated about good rap and stick to what I know...

I wrote so much about the celebrity didn't I...must sound sick if anyone actually reads it all..maybe the hesitations made it worse for me, and worrying about my mate that stole her, she came to me to fix the situation and came strong not to worry about my mate, so good..

I want to get good and write quality posts instead of this wishy washy stuff about my astral love...and 777posts wasn't successfull, couldn't help myself to say some more..too much to read for most people I guess, wish it was worth reading...kinda ruined my thread....

what should I talk abnout..boring just saying I am bored and drinking pepsi out of bed feeling like I do when coming off injections....not sure what my stretches played with that in getting over the injection sooner...or katy perry is healing me, or my extradimentional guides are actually active in helping me not sure...how can I get back into some of the journeys I did in hospital and them expanding my consciousness, I would like to get back with them and maybe say goodbye to my astral love, no actually she can stay...funny when she disrespected the guides it was tricky co I want to protect her but she was naughty and mocked them, found peace and think she will respect them now coz they will protect us...not sure how she would be in real life when I introduced her to these places but she came like a voice asking me not to takke her any more places coz I showing her the universe while in hosptital...I sometimes think maybe she doesn't deserve what projections into heaven with me we do, but she does she is worthy of it, its her fault I started my journeys again....getting with my potential...

there I go again

I out of hosptital and sitll going strong with all the delusions they think I have, not sure why they let me out, they were tired of trying to get me "well" well? I thinkk I proved soemthignto them that nothing changed and I am fine with all my astral journeying...wonder how I would be without treatments maybe connect to astral spirit guides that they said was a sign of schizzophrenia because I have spirit guides, how dumb! and still the metnal health review board didnt budge from their line of thinking about me, even though they aree dumb ###$.....

I hate metnal health review board arrogant ###$ sucked up to the quacks, the quacks made a mistake and put me at more risk with the clozapine but no they ###$ up and let me stay in hosptila and the hosptial didn't fix my delusions about the celbrity, nothing she can do to help either, but I am out now so all good just gotta makke sure I sleep every night and carefull with the strong weed that might make me trip out....actually the weed means I have less contact with the astral not more usually, but some weed makes me trip if I already tripping about the celebrity......anyway...

I write a lot...pity its just trash about some celebrity I love when not on antipsychotics, and the quacks stood to ruin us, if not already ruined because they got in the way of the developing stages and back on again for a short period when I got off zeldox and wound up with invasions and the military featured, think I showed them more recently when I was tripping that they tried to capture me and it was reallyh disturbing that my physical body would merge with the astral body they had vcaptured, pretty dramatic, not sure what could have happened if they had their way with me, but they suffered heavy casualty so no going back to their trip. I hope not anyway, that $#%^ was full on and they are dumb ###$ ######6 with the wrong person....

how can I connect with all the extradimentional beings I met while in hospital? I not sure about it, can hardly remember maybe I send a sign into the universe that I want more contact or for them to hellp the situation with psychiatry help me with this love life that is a bit weird at the moment, has been for quite a while just drowned on antipsychotics.....

not sure if this is interesting to anyone, probably sound like $#%^

I so bored , i need some love, I got love and now don't know what to do with it,, hope I pick up or something maybe that will even out the situation coz my love is with john mayer, wonder where they are heading?? maybe its no good that I want to get in the way, mabye I really am getting closer to her and they not gonna get married anymore, dunno..time will tell but I hope I still have this trip going on for a while but not when she is married I don't think so......thing is I am not the man I aught to be if not on treatments so not much of a fight on for her attention since I am losing at the hand of psychiatry dulling my very essence til she doenst know me anymore, or mabye she can still see my magic spark, not so much in the bedroom these days, or on freindship front, we were much more able to be friends when I first in hopstila and thought she ready to contact me and kknows where I was, she came to me saying she knows where I am, I told her on facebook that I am in a situation with psychiatry and they will kill my love and soul, I told her that, then she follows me to hospital and faints making a call to me on patients phone like it was really a possability I could talk to her, I was ready for it, and kknew we have good time talking but then once the treatments got to me I no good anymore but she is sticking by me thankfully, it would usually put an end to any affairs we have like the other times we lost out and I just hear ET on the TV and say goodbye to psych treatments...

I said enough...sorry if I repeat myself....I just bored....

Im reading this. I'm having a hard time right now cause the girl I pal around with is in like this catastrophic crisis mode... again . My laptop was on the floor and I said watch out don't step on that and she turns around and gives me this horrible dirty look that's common when she is like that and I said go F off looking at me like that after walking on eggshell all night and now made it worse. Its that blame a RE action as a plain old action. I have been b^tched at for like 10 different things tonite for no reason ! What did i do ? My dark colored laptop was on a dark carpet in a dimly lit room and said watch out, so what ?

that chick from hospital that gave me a hard time about the celebrity annoyed me last ni9ght trying to ruin me, she hard basket didn't know what to do to get her away she kept coming

i wrote on facebook how things were going well with the celebrity and woke up this morning and someone trying to step in on my visions of her face coming down at me, how annoying, pepple probably my mum trying to help me...###$ that I like having her in my life.......

so I pay the price for talking about it just makes things worse....I should take the message not to disclose information about my visions of her so nobody tries to mess with me and her....

actually she says "mine" at the end of darkhorse when I thought it sounded like Ryan....maybe I getting over this trip......

heres the lyrics.

I knew you were
You were gonna come to me
And here you are
But you better choose carefully
Cause I-I-I
I'm capable of anything
Of anything
And everything
Make me your Aphrodite
Make me your one and only
But don't make me your enemy
Your enemy
Your enemy

[Chorus: Katy Perry]
So you wanna play with magic?
Boy, you should know what you're falling for
Baby, do you dare to do this?
Cause I'm coming at you like a dark horse
Are you ready for?
Ready for?
A perfect storm?
Perfect storm?
Cause once you're mine
Once you're mine
There's no going back

[Verse 2: Katy Perry]
Hey! [etc.]
Mark my words
This love will make you levitate
Like a bird
Like a bird without a cage
We're down to earth
If you choose to walk away
Don't walk away
It's in the palm of your hand now baby
It's a yes or a no?
No maybe
So just be sure
Before you give it all to me
Up[all] to me
Give it up[all] to me

[Chorus]
So you wanna play with magic?
Boy, you should know what you're falling for
Baby, do you dare to do this?
Cause I'm coming at you like a dark horse
Are you ready for?
Ready for?
A perfect storm?
Perfect storm?
Cause once you're mine
Once you're mine
There's no going back

[Verse 3: Juicy J]
Uh, she's a beast
I call her Karma
She eat your heart out
Like Jeffrey Dahmer
Be careful
Try not to lead her on
Shawty's heart is on steroids
Cause her love is so strong
You may fall in love
When you need her
If you get the chance you better keep her
She's sweet as pie but if you break her heart
She turn cold as a freezer
That fairy tale ending with a knight in shining armor
She can be my Sleeping Beauty
I'm gon' put her in a coma (Woo!)
Damn, I think I love her
Shawty so bad
I'm sprung and I don't care
She ride me like a roller coaster
Turn the bedroom into a fair
Her love is like a drug[dream]
I was tryna hit it and quit it
But lil mama so dope
I messed around and got addicted

So you wanna play with magic?
Boy, you should know what you're falling for
Baby, do you dare to do this?
Cause I'm coming at you like a dark horse
Are you ready for?
Ready for?
A perfect storm?
Perfect storm?
Cause once you're mine
Once you're mine
There's no going back

so there it is...been listening to ET maybe its about the same person as that song????dunno
here it is again http://youtu.be/F9S-88WxPdE

maybe I should be scared lol....but I like her alright....can't help it I think we have something special, just nobody knows about it....

got 80bucks in the bank till next week and am gonna buy some weed 40bucks in my wallet, thats enough right?.....she asked me to stay close to her, I did for a while, just the weed doesn't always agree with what we got going on but I get it anyway maybe last gram until I get paid next..

so the lyrics suggest I not gonna get away from her even if I try, even if its not necessarily about me but I definately relate to it......enough I guess about my love affair with this chick I like, she a celebrity, I am a nobody, but she still likes me?we had chemistry until psychiatry ###$ us up, we could have been good together but the quacks ###$ us up.....how hard is that knowing I could have built up a real thing with her when it was strong but I got screwed and walked away but its not my choice, now she knows about that....who knows we might get a celebrity thinking anti[psychiatry if its true...but maybe not, you'd think I have a sign by now. or she knows she can't trust me if she contacted me, I might spill the beans then the media get onto it...maybe down the track but running out of time...hope she stays with me always unless she gets married then thats a different story.

enough already about this I guess....I gonna get stoned pretty soon.....tryna get my sexy back on antipsychotics not gonna happen......not impressing any of the girls like I have a girlfriend///j8ust one that is in my head and we never met or spoken, but it seemed like it was close when I wound up in hospital refusing treatments, like we could be friends and felt comfortable to talk to her...probvably shouldn't have let her know about all that and got blocked or she took down her facebook account that I found looking up darkhorse she asked what her kittens think of it, so I told her what I thought. so didnt get blocked until I said about feeling close to her then got ruined by treatment and told her the hospital I was in, a bit cheeky since she going to australia , as if she could help us out. she has a boyfriend, I am just an extra boyfriend that is innocent telepathic love and connection I still don't know what to think of, but it seems to be the real deal, just I never get any confirmation except in this song which is kinda like a message to me, at least thats what I think, the album is set out with this is how we do song after darkhorse she says she cooking pancakes for her boyfriend still up still fresh as a daisy like old times I wouldn't sleep alll night playing ping pong...read it loud and clear but now I can't listen to the album except legendary lovers and darkhorse and choose your battles. my favourite songs....check out the album it has some good material but dont let me spoil it for anyone...its just my trip about it. I thought it was a sign but then again ET came out just before it started so maybe I not the only one who thinks its a sign////I said enough already about it.