Since I do not have mental illness and have not gone through what you have, the following is just my opinion. PERSONAL OBSERVATIONS over the last five years dealing with the mental health industry has given me some insight into the many problems associated with serious mental illness.
You have suffered far more than people realize, all aspects of serious mental illness is nothing more than a crap shoot. Your bodies and your treatment and your diagnosis and your thinking and your living conditions and your interaction with other people and your FALSE HOPE OF RECOVERY, etc. etc. etc.....
Now I am sure that many of you will disagree and or curse me for saying that there is false hope of recovery. When you look at only yourselves you naturally want to believe that there is future hope of recovery, the supposed mental health professionals use false hope to justify their existence. I have done over five years of research and have yet to find anybody with serious mental illness completely cured.
The amount of pain and suffering and experimentation etc. etc. etc., that people with serious illness have to put up with and then realize there is no hope left. Let's repeat this point, the amount of pain and suffering and medical experimentation etc. that you are expected to live with is worse than the -Nazis- did to people.
Do I have an answer that is better than what you have now, no not really -BUT- does that mean you have to accept the inhuman way you are treated by society and the supposed mental health professionals and the mental health industry etc. etc. etc.....???????
I am being honest when I say that there is no answer to everybody's problems with serious mental illness -BUT- you should be given the option of doing nothing, not to suffer at the hands of society and or these supposed MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONALS....