rant - got really bored and think about weed

Isn;t it hard to find interesting articles on demystifying mental health...I feel like I am over searching for new articles because they don;t exist, anything that talks about mental health problems from a rational base none of the same $#%^ that turns up on web searches

what can I do with my life lately I look through peoples posts on facebook and occasionally rant about a strange dream I had but nobody is engaging with me. and yeah I patiently wait for some discussion that doesn;t really happen on the anti-psych forum..

a while ago I was searching lots of things but seems the net is just full of $#%^, drug company sponsored garbage that isn't insightfull at all. Just waiting for new stuff that isn't really turning up

when are some psychiatrists gonna use some initiative and investigate psychosis or what appears to be psychosis to get some insight into how people think about such things, seems like they are stuck in the dark ages and repeating the same #######4.

when are they gonna pay attention to sufferers of mental illness instead of projecting discrimination and labels and ignore the effects of the drugs on basic intellect and potentials of human kind, or we are less then human for the reason that we fit a diagnosis, they switch off and revert to their education insighless #######4 to understand, this isn;t insight.

I'm bored

-- Sun Apr 21, 2013 5:22 pm --

yeah I'm so bored I find a friend in marijuana, but I can't afford it. just life is so boring dope makes me feel like something interesting is happening, getting lost in a world in my head that the antipsychotics shut down......

can't afford pot anymore, any suggestions how to give it up...problem is as soon as I get bored I feel like getting high.

I don't relate to anyone, nobody with my diagnosis they are all caught up thinking mental illness's are legit and they trust the industry.....no freinds just pot dealers and joints and browsing anti-psych forum thats about all I do

\try to play guitar but I suck now since psychiatry has taken away my meaning in life , without psychiatry I doubt I would smoke as much pot as I do, the pharma makes me basically immune to getting high,,, I know without it I'd have to be carefull the pot didn;t trigger relapse but that is better then boring life I currently have

the local dude I met at the bus stop doing my usual eves dropping on conversation,heard they just smoked some and I asked if he could hook me up,,, he's a grower so went around the other day, he lit up a massive joint and high almost get high, just none of the weed out their gets me high anymore.......he seemed kinda keen to hang out but first time getting some weed from him didn't like to hang out t00 long or overstay my welcome. plus I am socially unresponsive from the antipsychotics

the weed I got was from the biggest plant that he burried some baby ducks under it and it grew crazy.....that's all I can think about is getting more of the duck weed its so boring.

what can I use to supplement smoking pot coz I am so bored. need to get off antipsychotics to get off the weed..... then getting high will be dangerous...... immune to it lately or justt a lot of bush weed around that doesn't do $#%^

I would save over hundred bucks I could spend on ayurvedic medicine if I wasn't spending my money on stuff that I do becuase of antipsychotics.... cigarrettes I almost gave up last time I went off antipsychotics, cannabis, cola drinks.....excess food to make me fatter then I need to be





maybe copy cat will find me an interesting link

http://www.proteuscoven.com/counsel/emergence.htm

this talked about possession in apparent psychosis.

I want to hear more about transcendent opportunity and how psychosis presents itself as dealing with issues of a defective personality that needed work, its a healing process tuned to something much greater then common awareness certainly greater then chemical balance and biological causes.

something in depth about spirit in psychosis.

by the way I wasnt high when I wrote this, but I was on my last post.

hope it doesn;t sound like I'm pormoting weed, coz I read it and think I am clearer and less fancy when off weed rehashing stuff, when I on weed everything is new-seems better and more interesting.


if I wasn't on antipsychotic IO wouldn't be buying it really, I already said it could trip me out and I naturally have good dopamine functioning to feell a buzzz about life and exploring the mind to my potential, something about creativity...why else smoke weed but to feel m ore creativity and buzz in everything......

Theres a style of therapy out there that focuses on self-realisation, and theres jungian psychotherapy, and hypnosis. Dunno if many actual spriritualists focus on healing directly, perhaps shamans (although many promote skills and healing that might otherwise be helpful). I personally find generally older is better with spiritual techniques, there are skills and info in the eastern and western occult/mystic tradition that are most helpful. Hypnosis comes from ancient egypt.

Some kind therapy thats more inspiring to you, would probably help ya, if you can get it of course...

Re: weed, well you got that it will unbalance you unless you correct your balance first and moderate, and that it won't do that as much if your on the anti-psychotic. They are sorta opposites like that, and thats probably why your using it, because it counters the anti-psychotic. Sadly, you probably can't get them to lower your meds yet, because its all fresh.

Hmm, quitting weed isn't hard if you've got hopeful healthy $#%^ to fill its place, tai chi, yoga, meditation, martial arts, sprinting, walking, swimming, lifting. But harder to summon the passion for that when your down and low in your juices, and on pills..

Some ideas..... focus some of what is bound to be ongoing therapy talking about your recent trauma, your current life situation etc, get some of that out - they are there, why not use them. That stuff, and your current feelings, well may as well talk to someone about it. At the same time you'll be making there busi-bodyness potentially useful, by cueing them in on the reality.

Do you dream? Maybe you could use a dream journal, or lucid dreaming methods, to maintain contact with you psyche/spirit journey? You got to do some healing, and harder too while on meds. Something like that might be the way?

As for your boredom and joy, IDK what to say for you. Your meds will be lowering your passion perhaps, and thus, maybe hard to strike a spark on wet wood?

So perhaps start with some kind project or undertaking that builds you up more than you have to put in, whatever that is. Maybe growing and organizing some plants/a garden, or getting some nice music to listen to to spark up some mood, or a pet kitten/cat to brighten your mood? Making something, regular walking. Maybe have a brainstorm about things that might be low expenditure but forfilling to you? You'll still have to put in, but if you pick the right things, you'll get more out and it will work for you.

TV shows are good for boredom. I am a huge sci-fi and comedy fan. So is writing music, or poetry, or art, even when u feel down and drained of spark, its emotional release....

Hope things pick up!

I used to be inspired in martial arts philosophy and chi-gung, was fanatical about it and was taken to be delusion in applicability to my own case of emotional states bing healed through moving mediatiation if not focus on correct breatwork-I had fallen out of practice from a house move and it was too small to easily do my chi-gung and alcohol, was stressfull time unfortunately too late to apply chi-gung to sleep deprivation going into er and psychaitrist shitting on everything I stood for and knowing my recovery if not for their drugs ######6 with me in hyperaroused state. The pharma knocked everything out of me, interests used to play music etc, all my passions, I dont live the way I want because of the pharma

Used to have a collection of bonzais but since treatment loosing interest they are nearly all dead and I don;t really care... they were only young mainly so maybe get back into it one day when I have a better place I found some houses didnt nurture them as well as others this one was particularly dead they didnt grow much.

Razael wrote:The pharma knocked everything out of me, interests used to play music etc, all my passions, I dont live the way I want because of the pharma

Razael wrote:Isn;t it hard to find interesting articles on demystifying mental health...I feel like I am over searching for new articles because they don;t exist, anything that talks about mental health problems from a rational base none of the same $#%^ that turns up on web searches

Im going to start a topic 'community treatment orders austrialia, a patients view ' so you can write about it and mabey get heard if i shows up on searches. Mabey others will sign up for psych forums and start writing about it.

I posted it , this is like the same when we busted that site lame site "crazyboards" and velvet shithead.

I did tried the weed thing when I was on Zyprexa for "anxiety" and had not yet figured out that stuff was causing the anhedonia and destroying my motivation. After getting "sober" from all the addictive stuff psychiatry gave me and being given that wicked $#%^ called Zyprexa for anxiety I went and bought a bag of weed in hopes of feeling motivated from it, it didnt work.

Much later I figured out it was the Zyprexa that had made me feel addicted to Adderal in addition to benzos cause without Adderal stimulation I fell back to the lifeless state of the Zyprexa I was taking.


I had no Idea when I walked into that shrink office on the advice of that GP that years of my life would be destroyed and I would be writing about abusive psych lockups, addictions, side effects sickness.

Withdrawal reactions called worsening conditions...


Psychiatry has to be exposed for what it really is, a big fat lie that hurts people.