song Gateways - Dimmu Borgir

this album abrahadaba by dimmu borgir accompanied my sleep deprived decline into bad spirits and life reflection over flashbacks . It still resonates a positive rush of outlook over perfecting myself, maybe I hear in lyrics what I want to hear.
http://youtu.be/_jw7yk8hm_0

It speaks of many aspects of struggle with psychiatry

I have this when I just want to fight back ,

Manowar - Warriors of the World HD http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CfZBMQoNxJM


This was me when I was dying from psychiatry, the perfect song to descibe it, nothing else even comes close ,, pills causing anxiety attacks from hell that went away by taking the same pills

Ozzy, Diary of a Madman w/lyrics http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQ75DnpWfuI

I used to spend a lot of time listening to technical, polyrythmic metal, often while experimenting with psychedelic drugs. It expanded my mind's level of comfort with heightened levels of consciousness, re-wrote my concept of time, gave me new windows into the capabilities of the human mind and body, and allowed me to see the beauty in nearly everything, while my subconscious absorbed information from near-undecipherable lyrics (which make perfect sense to me now). It even taught me about numerology on some level. There are three albums which I tended to gravitate towards during these experiences (though there are many more, most of them are without lyrics), and they all detail the ascent into 'insanity' in their own unique way.

The Common Man's Collapse by Veil of Maya:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3VFA8sGgSU

Planetary Duality by The Faceless:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2PqMkdLowQ

Catch 33 by Meshuggah:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ht7kTC7_SjM



As instrumental as these three albums were for granting me a taste of the true power of the human mind, perhaps even more important was Aesop Rock. He was the first hip-hop artist I was ever drawn to. I spent literally thousands of hours picking his material apart, as it pushed my knowledge and logic to the absolute limit. I would find new meaning every single time I listened to a song, and I could spend hours thinking about a single line. His songs detail the absolutely ridiculous nature of modern society and our forged egos, as well as some of the inner workings of 'insanity'. None of it made perfect sense until I woke up and could process metaphors effortlessly. Float was a favorite album of mine; here it is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7jorP5kNQQ


Once I finally did reach heightened consciousness, I became obsessed with the Diablo 2 Original Soundtrack by Matt Uelmen. Though it gets dark at times, it helped soothe and inspire me beyond belief as I 'exorcised my demons', so to speak, and contemplated a way to offer my knowledge to people so they could do the same.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHj56_F3v-0

I'm not very effected by music anymore, ever since the anti-psychotic injections. Sometimes I'll get a shiver down my spine or goosebumps, but my mind just doesn't process music in the same way at all anymore. It's sort of depressing, so I tend to stay away from it.

I just figured some of that may help some people through whatever they're experiencing, to expand the mind and grant new ideas and perspectives. It is all psycho-therapeutic in itself, though it all goes counter to the ideals of psychiatry, because it nurtures altered states of consciousness and gives you an outlet for them (as well as reassurance that other people are experiencing the same general things that you are), instead of attempting to block it out or destroy the mind.