Permanent brain damage from antipsychotics?

I just experienced sleep paralysis last night, and during this experience, I felt a wave of extreme euphoria quite unlike anything I've felt before. Pure ecstasy pulsing throughout my body. Now that I've woken up, I feel better than I have in almost a year (it's almost like a residual high; my pain that was intensified by the antipsychotics is lessened and I almost feel like I'm floating, compared to how I felt before). Though I still don't respond to stimuli and am still incapable of strong logic, it's definitely a step in the right direction.

There seems to be some hope after all.

I was also on Invega Sustenna at 100mg a month for 10 months. It has completely destroyed my life. It has been almost 3 months since my last injection and I still haven't felt any improvement.

Are you feeling OK now? How many months did it take for you to start feeling better?

Just about everyone has sleep paralysis so when we dream we don't physically act out whatever we're dreaming of. Interesting, other animals do not as with dogs 'running in place' while dreaming.

If you take them long enough yes. Psychiatrist's ultimate failure is not listening to peoples' true feelings. Psychiatry has failed the most unheard because it in itself fails to listen. Had that forum you were banned from been something they would have listened, let you speak while trying to understand where you were coming from. The mentally ill have few rights, once they are labelled as defective meds are given. The theory pushed around is that they will relapse and so fourth so anyone who says other wise is not in the interest of the patient. An incredibly condescending one sided approach to something.

A bit late in the convo but I thought Id give my take on your post. I like it though, good work

And oh just to add, once you do find motivation things do get better the brain is plastic. I think not only the meds affected you but as did the memories of you taking them and feeling powerless against them. A hospital stay can be an incredibly cruel experience, because often any form of individuality is punished. The mind games they play there often are to convince a suggestible patient that they are indeed ill, and what they present be it normal or not, dangerous or not, is the symptom of an illness that only they can treat. Hence once the patient doubts everything its easier to get them to comply with medication. The medication itself can be harmful if taken for years, but a few months doesn't sound to bad. I hear you, its awful. Best thing to do is find people who can positively engage you and move on from there. I dont know the dosage they gave you of which, but I would think unless they were pushing for liver failure you should start to recover in that it isnt permanent.

...I just hope that 100mg a month for 10 months of Paliperidone wasn't enough to have caused me any permanent damage. I really miss my old life. I want my life back so badly more than anything. I miss living and enjoying things.

3 months have passed now since my last shot and I still haven't felt any better. I have been losing hope and have been contemplating suicide more often than I like to.

I hope you are right. I hope I will recover really soon...

Palperidone has destroyed my life. No periods again (im 33) for the rest of my life,amenhorrea forever, 90% chance I cannot have any more children, they said they can try with hormone injections (ivf??) I think but it may be possible but I know and feel my body and im pretty pessimistic about it. I want to sue, I keep trying to organize legal proceedings but feel its so hard to face full on , also weight gain 40kgs, that I cannot medically loose weight anymore, ive had risperidone before and beome fat and when ive stopped the risperidone the weight just dropped off. Not with palperidone, it is awful, im fat forever unless I can come up with 30-60 thousand dollars for lipo plus skin stitching up, then i'll have scars, operation scares the $#%^ outta me, the palperidone just STOPPED my metabolism from ever loosing weight naturally, ive tried diet pills, everything. my gp says the only option left is surgery, lip[osuction.

on another note, try drinking water to fully flush out the toxins of the meds, if u were on injections some might still be in your system, I drank 2-3 bottles a day for a couple of months.

Palperidone is the most awful med/drug ive ever been on, it is absuloutly awful.

I really hope it comes back to u, I have a feeling you'll get there, step by step, as someone else mentioned the whole psychiatric experience is very traumatizing so this might be a part of it too. Mabye u could talk to a trusted friend, or if u don't have one, a counselor about having trauma or what you've been thru with psychiatry.

I'm really sorry to hear that. I do agree with you wholeheartedly that paliperidone causes damage. I suffer from a really bad case of anhedonia. I have been thinking about suing too if I don't feel better, but just like you I feel overwhelmed by it all because they are so big. I really doubt there is anything we can do legally which really saddens me.

I just want to feel better. I don't care about winning any lawsuits. I don't even know how many more months I will have to feel like this before I recover if ever. I am scared to death and feels like my life was over when I was 31 when this all happened last year.

How about your mental state? Can you feel pleasure, joy, excited etc. again? Do you have motivation and willpower back? How many months did it all come to you?

Sorry if I'm asking too many questions, but I'm a bit freaked out by all this.

play videogame 24/7. This would help activate your brain more. When I was off the meds that what I do all day and my brain was back and my lack of motivation was gone. With the injection it may take a bit more time for your brain to come back to normal but eventually it will.

Takes a while for the brain to adjust. [Mod edit]