Permanent brain damage from antipsychotics?

Gorodov wrote:

jx7e wrote:
I tried but no success so far, I just can't work out as my legs and arms start to shake really bad. I also feel very bad after working out, although I used to feel great prior to meds, it was something I loved. Now I barely get out of bed at all.

Well, if cease shiver hands, feet, if you feel more peppy, if it will be interest in the activities - that would be enough? You perceive would this as an acceptable recovery state? Nothing else would be needed?

Well that would be a start, it would make life tolerable. If my libido would come back and impotnce go away I would at least live to have kids in the future. Another issue is my willpower and motivation, I have lack of desire to do anyting, to achieve anything. Prior to treatment I was a very high-motivated person. Maybe that's because I feel unwell physically. I would also like to get my voice and self-perception back, now I feel a shadow of a person. I don't feel like I belong to the normal community anymore.

jx7e wrote:
Well that would be a start, it would make life tolerable. If my libido would come back and impotnce go away I would at least live to have kids in the future. Another issue is my willpower and motivation, I have lack of desire to do anyting, to achieve anything. Prior to treatment I was a very high-motivated person. Maybe that's because I feel unwell physically. I would also like to get my voice and self-perception back, now I feel a shadow of a person. I don't feel like I belong to the normal community anymore.

Then it turns out the most important preserved. Actually you yourself your personality is the most, important foundation. Your abilities, energy and desire you need. There is the one who needs in that. So already have the motivation to find it.

Gorodov wrote:

jx7e wrote:
Well that would be a start, it would make life tolerable. If my libido would come back and impotnce go away I would at least live to have kids in the future. Another issue is my willpower and motivation, I have lack of desire to do anyting, to achieve anything. Prior to treatment I was a very high-motivated person. Maybe that's because I feel unwell physically. I would also like to get my voice and self-perception back, now I feel a shadow of a person. I don't feel like I belong to the normal community anymore.

Then it turns out the most important preserved. Actually you yourself your personality is the most, important foundation. Your abilities, energy and desire you need. There is the one who needs in that. So already have the motivation to find it.

So how much would it take to recover from a month of Haldol injections, from your point of view? It feels like I'll never be the same again..I'm just sitting and counting days there..

jx7e wrote:
So how much would it take to recover from a month of Haldol injections, from your point of view? It feels like I'll never be the same again..I'm just sitting and counting days there..

I already explained important that is make a move not just wait. How you sleep? Are no issues with sleep? This is very important. Try doing physical exercise. Running for example. Find a suitable place anywhere in the park. Come in the morning and run. Bring himself to do it.

jx7e, you probably think that I advise not serious. what do not quite understand the whole weight of your situation. Believe me - I really understand. I know what suggest similar you not the same, that others who have not suffered psychiatric "treatment". I am fully aware of how much to you all this hard enforceable. But that's why I put emphasis on the need for efforts on themselves. No matter how difficult it may be. Must try. After all , you nothing lose.

Gorodov wrote:

jx7e wrote:
So how much would it take to recover from a month of Haldol injections, from your point of view? It feels like I'll never be the same again..I'm just sitting and counting days there..

I already explained important that is make a move not just wait. How you sleep? Are no issues with sleep? This is very important. Try doing physical exercise. Running for example. Find a suitable place anywhere in the park. Come in the morning and run. Bring himself to do it.

I sleep awefully, every night I have lucid nightmares, memories of my schoolyears, my old friends, everything that I've lost. I wake up exhausted. First thing I do is make myself stand up and light up a ciggarette. I don't know how to do physical excercise when all I think of is that I'm damaged and see life differently, I have constant suicidal thoughts. Physically and emotionally I'm always drained and blunted, it would be like making yourself go running after a bad hungover. So far can't even make myself make my bed, not mentioning going out or anything similar.

jx7e wrote:

I sleep awefully, every night I have lucid nightmares, memories of my schoolyears, my old friends, everything that I've lost. I wake up exhausted. First thing I do is make myself stand up and light up a ciggarette. I don't know how to do physical excercise when all I think of is that I'm damaged and see life differently, I have constant suicidal thoughts. Physically and emotionally I'm always drained and blunted, it would be like making yourself go running after a bad hungover. So far can't even make myself make my bed, not mentioning going out or anything similar.

Sleep would have to establish come what may. But for this just physical unloading, can be very useful. Maybe should turn to experts that will help you fall asleep under hypnosis? Maybe after to you learn to distracted and fall asleep on their own. Off the memories can not escape it. But at least at night you can distract from them. And then it would be and to flee easier.

Hello, I was placed on paliperidone for a year after suffering servere brain damage as well as finding 2 university studies stating the drug shouldnt be given to people after suffering brain damage due to the majority suffering insomnia.
I couldnt take the system on at the time, due to having to hire some one classed as both a lawyer as well as doctor which costs an arm and a leg. Now that I have been a chronic insomniac for over 2 years I may be able to get cheaper help. I would like to find information such as I did before hand, (the effects of paliperidone on people who have previously suffered insomnia).
Any information would be much appreciated!

I had a grand mal seizure in 2000, and my former PCP put me on what I thought were seizure medications--400 mgs. of Seroquel and 15 mgs. of Zyprexa. After a seizure one is confused anyway, but when I started those medications I was gone. I lost my life. I quit driving and gave my car away. I lost a decade from my life while I was abused by the medical profession. I gained 40 pounds, quit laughing, and emotionally flatlined. Finally, nine years later, one doctor told me, "You're on some major antipschotics." I was devastated and immediately got off them. I still have difficulty sleeping, but I've lost the weight I gained, I have my old sense of humor back, and my creativity as well. But I've lost the ability to feel any love. There's no love in my heart; I feel indifferent to everyone, and my brain has shrunk on a CT scan. These drugs are phenothiazines, bug killers, de-worming agents, which AstraZeneca sells to Big Agriculture, and they come with a mandatory FDA black box warning, which I never got--and I had considered the pharmacist who gave them to me o be my friend. Stay drug free, even if you can't sleep. I use all natural products to sleep now--black cherry concentrate, melatonin and GABA Relaxer, and will NEVER trust another doctor!!! Look up your doctors on www.propublica.org Dollars for Doctors.

I'm suffering severest brain damage from having taken shots of Risperdal for 2 months. I feel I am eternally damned as my intelligence has plummeted so significantly from having been on this soul killing poison from hell. There is next to zero light in my life. I barely recognize family. Instead of seeing beautiful nature I see only death, damnation, a deranged environment which is really just a projection of my now heavily deranged brain. I was perfectly fine in myself before taking this drug. Perfect loving intelligent light-filled thoughts. And now there seems little hope from ever coming out of eternal damnation. I can't comprehend how a drug such as this could have such shock-filled devastating effects not just on your brain, but on your soul, which I don't really have any more and neither do a lot of psychiatrists which is why you run the risk of losing yours if you come in contact with these barbarians. I never could have imagined the experience of living in pure evil before. There used always be light..so much light and love. Now there is zero love. I have very poor memory. I feel nothing for people now. I look at my parents with damned and loveless eyes, the shock of which I don't think I could ever come to terms with. I do hope there's hope though, even though it's as meagre as it comes just now. I'm thinking of trying Hyperbaric Chamber Oxygen Therapy as a way of trying to heal my unbelievably damaged brain or in the least giving me partial relief from all the pain:

http://nocamels.com/2013/02/study-revea ... in-damage/

I'm also considering ECT (electroconvulsive therapy). Good nutrition no longer works to improve my brain. I'm terrified of taking my life completely as I feel I'd be lost forever, alone and lonely floating around in the darkness entirely disconnected from everything.

Although I don't know how much longer I can hang onto life I'm that broken. My universe is completey deranged now - it actually barely exists any more because the world and universe was always in my brain/my mind but when that's gone, so goes the world and universe as they're only projections of the mind. I see death and evil everywhere, in everything. I''m a lot more than lobotomised. There is no God now, God meaning soul. There is just pure fear 24/7 with only the minorest of brief let ups. The whole outer part of my brain is completely dead or missing. I presume my brain has shrunk considerably as well. But at least now i know what eternal damnation is. It's simply loss of intelligence which is the strangest thing because I always believed I was indestructible; that I could never die or ever lose hope. Well now I've come to a juncture that looks set to keep me in a never ending state of pure hell..UNLESS...by some seemingly impossible miracle neuroplasticity of the brain is equally relative to my case as anyone else suffering brain damage from psycho drugs.

If anyone's got any advice or ideas on how to remedy this death of deaths situation please share. I'd appreciate anything that can help me in even the slightest of ways, just for that littlest of reliefs you know!